The world is really weighing heavy on me lately

[The Dude Abides]

Even though its 4 am and this happened yesterday Im going to keep saying today because I haven't slept and I need to tell it as it happened because it just feels as one long day.

Its seems every problem I fix, I just discover a new one. Feelings of regret from growing up and not tackling any problem head on. Through it all I never once thought about suicide even though I've been in some dark places mentally. My desire to overcome is too great and even right now with what just happened I still feel determined to make something of myself. I've been living with thoughts that haunt me and sometimes no matter how good im doing, they win and I fall into despair. Sometimes I dont sleep or eat or I sleep all day. Today was different. I refused to give in like before, I spent all morning without sleep making a plan. I drank a lot coffee because I wasn't going to sleep until I had everything setup. I was also following it as I was making it. I knew before what I needed to do but could never finish and it would stack up and I couldn't proceed until yesterdays work was done. But today felt right.

I got so much done with an attitude that no matter how much mental anguish I was in, I would just go through the movements and get it done. I felt like my future was bright for once.

Today my dad killed himself. I wish I could talk to him at least one more time. He was not doing good for a long time but he was never weak, I would have never thought he would do something like this. He hasnt been himself for a long time and his body was getting frail from prescription drugs that screwed up his mind and his health. hes had recent deaths on his side of the family as well. I tried for over a year to help but he had his own way doing things and I would get frustrated and snap. I was so mean to him at times and I just wish I could take it back. I just wish I could say sorry and I love you dad.

 

[Framletgod]

my condolences

 

[The Dude Abides]

If he would of died in some other way I would feel different. But suicide is just. It hurts and I cant explain it.

 

[samm735]

take some time away from these sites man, my condolences though thats awful news.

Please don't blame yourself though or be harsh on yourself, you can never control what goes through anothers mind.

 

[Darth Cialis]

I am so sorry for your loss, may he be at peace now.

 

[xForgotMyName]

My condolences.

 

[lookism refugee]

i am very sorry man, take a break from the internet. your family needs you more than ever now.

 

[The Dude Abides]

take some time away from these sites man, my condolences though thats awful news.

Please don't blame yourself though or be harsh on yourself, you can never control what goes through anothers mind.

I talked to him today. Asked if he did something he said ya. I saw some videos on chemicals in food and I was gonna talk to him. Hes done a lot health research and enjoys conversations about health. He didnt seem to want to be bothered so I decided to wait. I had a lot of reasons to talk to him today but he was being scarce which isnt too unusual.

 

[fukmylyf]

I'm so sorry bro.

 

[paulie_walnuts]

I talked to him today. Asked if he did something he said ya. I saw some videos on chemicals in food and I was gonna talk to him. Hes done a lot health research and enjoys conversations about health. He didnt seem to want to be bothered so I decided to wait. I had a lot of reasons to talk to him today but he was being scarce which isnt too unusual.

are you talking about sodium nitrite / sodium azide

 

[Deleted member 439]

sorry bro

 

[The Dude Abides]

If a mod sees this, I accidentally put it into the looksmaxxing section. Im sorry I just was trying to type it it up and wasnt paying attention. If you could move it to off topic without locking I would appreciate it.

are you talking about sodium nitrite / sodium azide

No I was talking about the plastics in everything. He already told me all about nitrates.

 

[FatmanO]

Today my dad killed himself.

My condolences aswell, hopefully you recover. I can't imagine losing my dad yet. If you need time to recover, take it.

 

[paulie_walnuts]

do you have any siblings?

 

[BrettyBoy]

Sad shit, man.

 

[Deleted member 470]

My condolences bro.

 

[william]

my condolences, i can't imagine how hard that must be

 

[Aymen]

It's tough man..
DOn't forget that you always found solutions in the past, you will find one to every next problems. It may seem harder now, but don't forget it will pass my friend.

 

[lookism refugee]

It's tough man..
DOn't forget that you always found solutions in the past, you will find one to every next problems. It may seem harder now, but don't forget it will pass my friend.

yeah, pain will gone after some years but he will never forget his dad. that's the important part.


@The Dude Abides


just remember, when you miss him, he will always be with you. in your heart and in your memories.

 

[xForgotMyName]

Because you fuckers don’t actually know what sattractive to women, and people in general (yes it matters to be attractive to men too.)

Here’s what’s actually important to slaying, I’ve slated at least 70 by now:

Height, hair, lower third/facial hair, low body fat(not ridiculous though, just under 16%) dressing good

And don’t forget low inhibition. No low T cucks.

why would you post this on this thread, you retard?

 

[x30001]

Because you fuckers don’t actually know what sattractive to women, and people in general (yes it matters to be attractive to men too.)

Here’s what’s actually important to slaying, I’ve slated at least 70 by now:

Height, hair, lower third/facial hair, low body fat(not ridiculous though, just under 16%) dressing good

And don’t forget low inhibition. No low T cucks.

I hope you read more than just the title. This isn't the place.

 

[xForgotMyName]

Because if you were attractive to women you wouldn’t be a beta low t cuck. I don’t analyze bullshit like this. I look for solutions. That’s why I’m on this bullshit site, you incel.

read what op posted, and then be a fucking human.
i'm gonna put you on ignore now, because you're too stupid to deal with.

 

[Deleted member 685]

read what op posted, and then be a fucking human.
i'm gonna put you on ignore now, because you're too stupid to deal with.

Exactly he's delusional

 

[HSM1]

Even though its 4 am and this happened yesterday Im going to keep saying today because I haven't slept and I need to tell it as it happened because it just feels as one long day.

Its seems every problem I fix, I just discover a new one. Feelings of regret from growing up and not tackling any problem head on. Through it all I never once thought about suicide even though I've been in some dark places mentally. My desire to overcome is too great and even right now with what just happened I still feel determined to make something of myself. I've been living with thoughts that haunt me and sometimes no matter how good im doing, they win and I fall into despair. Sometimes I dont sleep or eat or I sleep all day. Today was different. I refused to give in like before, I spent all morning without sleep making a plan. I drank a lot coffee because I wasn't going to sleep until I had everything setup. I was also following it as I was making it. I knew before what I needed to do but could never finish and it would stack up and I couldn't proceed until yesterdays work was done. But today felt right.

I got so much done with an attitude that no matter how much mental anguish I was in, I would just go through the movements and get it done. I felt like my future was bright for once.

Today my dad killed himself. I wish I could talk to him at least one more time. He was not doing good for a long time but he was never weak, I would have never thought he would do something like this. He hasnt been himself for a long time and his body was getting frail from prescription drugs that screwed up his mind and his health. hes had recent deaths on his side of the family as well. I tried for over a year to help but he had his own way doing things and I would get frustrated and snap. I was so mean to him at times and I just wish I could take it back. I just wish I could say sorry and I love you dad.

Rip

 

[Deleted member 685]

Even though its 4 am and this happened yesterday Im going to keep saying today because I haven't slept and I need to tell it as it happened because it just feels as one long day.

Its seems every problem I fix, I just discover a new one. Feelings of regret from growing up and not tackling any problem head on. Through it all I never once thought about suicide even though I've been in some dark places mentally. My desire to overcome is too great and even right now with what just happened I still feel determined to make something of myself. I've been living with thoughts that haunt me and sometimes no matter how good im doing, they win and I fall into despair. Sometimes I dont sleep or eat or I sleep all day. Today was different. I refused to give in like before, I spent all morning without sleep making a plan. I drank a lot coffee because I wasn't going to sleep until I had everything setup. I was also following it as I was making it. I knew before what I needed to do but could never finish and it would stack up and I couldn't proceed until yesterdays work was done. But today felt right.

I got so much done with an attitude that no matter how much mental anguish I was in, I would just go through the movements and get it done. I felt like my future was bright for once.

Today my dad killed himself. I wish I could talk to him at least one more time. He was not doing good for a long time but he was never weak, I would have never thought he would do something like this. He hasnt been himself for a long time and his body was getting frail from prescription drugs that screwed up his mind and his health. hes had recent deaths on his side of the family as well. I tried for over a year to help but he had his own way doing things and I would get frustrated and snap. I was so mean to him at times and I just wish I could take it back. I just wish I could say sorry and I love you dad.

This really hit me hard cause I know what it feels like to lose a father. Mine died from an accident at 11. I want you to know that you're not the only one to go through this and he's in a better place now. I'm very sorry about this happening to you man. Noone deserves to feel like this. I really hope it gets better and if you ever feel the need to talk you can PM me anytime, afterall I can relate to you too.

My condolences.

 

[FatJattMofo]

Shut your dumbass up bitch. His dad was a middle America druggie. Fuck him for being a drain, I’m glad he’s gone.

im going to fuck your alive female relatives and make them my personal cumsluts

 

[Deleted member 685]

Because if you were attractive to women you wouldn’t be a beta low t cuck. I don’t analyze bullshit like this. I look for solutions. That’s why I’m on this bullshit site, you incel.


Shut up phaggot, and to think I liked you.

Are you actually stupid? I can't wait to see a horizontal line through your name you idiot.

 

[x30001]

Because if you were attractive to women you wouldn’t be a beta low t cuck. I don’t analyze bullshit like this. I look for solutions. That’s why I’m on this bullshit site, you incel.


Shut up phaggot, and to think I liked you.

I literally don't care if you like me. I know you're all full of anger, but trust me, if my Dad took his own life and you came at me with some bullshit, I'd take all my anger, and your bullshit anger, combine them together and take it out on you. Do you have any idea of important your family is? You can get angrier day by day on looksmax if you want and it won't help you. Maybe you would welcome people to talk about your Dad's gonial angle and penis size and critique him to your face while he's dead. Or maybe you're just a prick.

 

[Deleted member 685]

Shut your dumbass up bitch. His dad was a middle America druggie. Fuck him for being a drain, I’m glad he’s gone.

I hope you die a horrible death. The day you suffer from a horrible death is the day I laugh

 

[Blitz]

@The Dude Abides My condolences friend, I don't know how it's like to lose a family member but I'll try my best to be sincere. Take a break and have some time for yourself and your family and if you need anything we will be here.

 

[lookism refugee]

I literally don't care if you like me. I know you're all full of anger, but trust me, if my Dad took his own life and you came at me with some bullshit, I'd take all my anger, and your bullshit anger, combine them together and take it out on you. Do you have any idea of important your family is? You can get angrier day by day on looksmax if you want and it won't help you. Maybe you would welcome people to talk about your Dad's gonial angle and penis size and critique him to your face while he's dead. Or maybe you're just a prick.

it is obvious he is trolling, just report him

 

[medialcanthuscel]

Only face matters

 

[FatmanO]

read what op posted, and then be a fucking human.
i'm gonna put you on ignore now, because you're too stupid to deal with.

Wed need a mod for this, @jefferson

Shut your dumbass up bitch. His dad was a middle America druggie. Fuck him for being a drain, I’m glad he’s gone.

There always has to be someone on the forum who can't act normal can he? Have some respect, trooling or not. A lot of us are just shy fuckers, not some delusional people plotting to go ER. Have some decency for yourself and others.

 

[lookism refugee]

God you guys are as blue pilled as feminists. So black pilled about looks and women yet not about life. I hope the cognitive dissonance beats you phaggots over the head.

you IRL

 

[Roping Subhuman]

God you guys are as blue pilled as feminists. So black pilled about looks and women yet not about life. I hope the cognitive dissonance beats you phaggots over the head.

Ok edgelord.

 

[x30001]

Feminists only complain about men who breathe. They don't spit on people's graves because the breathing has stopped.

 

[Deleted member 685]

Only face matters

Reported

God you guys are as blue pilled as feminists. So black pilled about looks and women yet not about life. I hope the cognitive dissonance beats you phaggots over the head.

It's called having sympathy you sick fuck

Wed need a mod for this, @jefferson

There always has to be someone on the forum who can't act normal can he? Have some respect, trooling or not. A lot of us are just shy fuckers, not some delusional people plotting to go ER. Have some decency for yourself and others.

I'm sorry I was being mean to you now bro. You have a good soul

 

[Roping Subhuman]

Calling me an edge lord. Just fucking lol. I watch sports, fuck bitches, and looksmaxx. Get back to your video games phaggot.

LOL ok edgelord.

 

[Deleted member 685]

Calling me an edge lord. Just fucking lol. I watch sports, fuck bitches, and looksmaxx. Get back to your video games phaggot.

You're literally te definition of a bragging edgelord.

 

[Death]

Sorry to hear that man hope you'll be fine.

 

[Deleted member 685]

I have over taken your thread about your dead beta father, and your pathetic feelings. No one actually cares about you. If they did they would ignore me.

Take the real black pill. These incels are still coping losers.

I can't wait to see you banned you disgusting faggot. If I knew where you lived I'd beat you to death right away with all of my cousins like the little degrading inhumane cunt you are. Go die

 

[Chadelite]

Even though its 4 am and this happened yesterday Im going to keep saying today because I haven't slept and I need to tell it as it happened because it just feels as one long day.

Its seems every problem I fix, I just discover a new one. Feelings of regret from growing up and not tackling any problem head on. Through it all I never once thought about suicide even though I've been in some dark places mentally. My desire to overcome is too great and even right now with what just happened I still feel determined to make something of myself. I've been living with thoughts that haunt me and sometimes no matter how good im doing, they win and I fall into despair. Sometimes I dont sleep or eat or I sleep all day. Today was different. I refused to give in like before, I spent all morning without sleep making a plan. I drank a lot coffee because I wasn't going to sleep until I had everything setup. I was also following it as I was making it. I knew before what I needed to do but could never finish and it would stack up and I couldn't proceed until yesterdays work was done. But today felt right.

I got so much done with an attitude that no matter how much mental anguish I was in, I would just go through the movements and get it done. I felt like my future was bright for once.

Today my dad killed himself. I wish I could talk to him at least one more time. He was not doing good for a long time but he was never weak, I would have never thought he would do something like this. He hasnt been himself for a long time and his body was getting frail from prescription drugs that screwed up his mind and his health. hes had recent deaths on his side of the family as well. I tried for over a year to help but he had his own way doing things and I would get frustrated and snap. I was so mean to him at times and I just wish I could take it back. I just wish I could say sorry and I love you dad.

im going to be nicer to my parents now - sorry for your loss.

 

[Deleted member 685]

High T, I like it. You’re still an internet loser who hasn’t fucked 10 women

Imagine incelshaming on an incel forum and thinking it makes you special. Also I don't give a fuck if you like me being high T you little trolling faggot. Lets set this up you little weak faggot
EDIT: aaannd the kid is gone

 

[BrettyBoy]

To that normal fag that I cannot see the replies of because either too drunk or the replies got deleted: Hope someone goes ER on any girl that finds a twat like you attractive just for being the stereotypical girl. (I don’t support murder but just sick of whores claiming they like men with good personalities and then going for the pricks.)

 

[Deleted member 2100]

Sorry for your loss, he's in a better place now.

 

[itsoverbuddyboyo]

damn. sorry bro, take it easy man. i know a lot of us shitpost and banter a lot but srs man, my condolences. i lost my dad a couple years ago. sucks.

 

[Deleted member 1551]

I"m very sorry Bro. My condolences

 

[Ritalincel]

It is over.

 

[όμορφος θεός]

i hope op is ok

 

[crosshold]

rest in peace