VerticalManiac
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School has recently started for me again, I also got my grades thst were shit as expected even though I tried pretty hard im not gonna study for 3 hours just to get a C or b like some retards do. But it turns out my grades in past negatively effect me now since I skipped like a whole school year so the highest thing I got is like a c or d, as you can imagine my family wasn’t happy about this even though it is justified it dosent help since I can’t go back in time. Back to what was previously said school ha started and I skipped 4 days as of now since I am sick, my mother tried to force me to go but I didn’t since I really am sick but I got a call from my teacher or mentor whatever and he said that my attendance has gone down quite a lot even though it was a kind of normal amount last school year (not the one I was talking about) and that they will report this to child services in my country, my mom knows this now she’s unhappy of course. I am unhappy too since I also got told that my amount of points in total is like 160 or smth extremely low. I don’t see the point to be honest I’m never getting high credit? I’m never gonna become normal and I’m not gonna get over what has happened to me that easily. I can’t focus on looksmaxxing since I get interrupted/ have no money for it. So I’m stuck at softmaxxing, if you have read my previous post I was talking about my shitty life and I genuinely believe if I wasn’t bullied and some things didn’t happen I would have had such a better life probably been better looking too since I have been sleep deprived for like a 3 years straight malnourished too I’m also losing weight. I’m not high iq I can’t just study for a minute and get good grades I don’t want to try since even if I do my grades won’t be high. I’m graduating this year I lack muscle mass. I’m probably ND I do not know. Should I just rope? Before I go to school again? Or should I just thug it out until I have graduated and end up a beggar or something, well there are multiple reasons for why I should rope but I will measure my height if I haven’t grown it will drastically increase my chances of roping. Since that’s all I had being above average height but it seems that I fucked up too. I wish I could just have gone back to before puberty when I was 11 or 12 years old and start a new stop all the horrible things that happened not ruin myself not get beat up bullied . Plus possibly fix my downward growth with good habits and actually nutritious food since I was malnourished from like 12-15 what can I do?
I just want it to end it all stems from my looks and genetics why?
I just want it to end it all stems from my looks and genetics why?
