There's something seriously wrong with me

[iblamemandible7]

Ever since I gained consciousness, there's always been so many things seriously wrong with me. It's like I can't do anything correct. I fuck up everything that I put any effort into and end up spectacularly humiliated. At first it was following instructions at school, but over the years it seeped into every part of my life like a cancer. Even the most basic and involuntary tasks, my heart races thinking about doing them. I am a shell of the happy kid I was because of how many things are wrong with me, in every aspect, physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. I don't know exactly what to call it but it's very distinct and individual. It's so over.

 

[iblamemandible7]

Every time I speak to someone, as soon as I walk out of the room, I realize suddenly all of the things I should've said instead, all of the ways I should've acted instead, but it's too late

 

[lastredeemer]

DNR

 

[lastredeemer]

Actually I read every molecule sorry bro

 

[Jager]

Ever since I gained consciousness, there's always been so many things seriously wrong with me. It's like I can't do anything correct. I fuck up everything that I put any effort into and end up spectacularly humiliated. At first it was following instructions at school, but over the years it seeped into every part of my life like a cancer. Even the most basic and involuntary tasks, my heart races thinking about doing them. I am a shell of the happy kid I was because of how many things are wrong with me, in every aspect, physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. I don't know exactly what to call it but it's very distinct and individual.

Every time I speak to someone, as soon as I walk out of the room, I realize suddenly all of the things I should've said instead, all of the ways I should've acted instead, but it's too late

same shit here bro i feel so shit because of this

 

[iblamemandible7]

Maybe it's just the natural animal reaction to being dealt an unfortunate hand. I've had to put up with so much shit with my health, vision, looks, anxiety, depression, it's a perfect storm of diseases that runs in my blood and shaped me into who I am. For my whole life I've always had 5 different things to worry about constantly running through my head, and now it's all imprinted in the way I live. My life reflects my worst fears I always had.

 

[lastredeemer]

Maybe it's just the natural animal reaction to being dealt an unfortunate hand. I've had to put up with so much shit with my health, vision, looks, anxiety, depression, it's a perfect storm of diseases that runs in my blood and shaped me into who I am. For my whole life I've always had 5 different things to worry about constantly running through my head, and now it's ingrained in the way I live.

What’s wrong with your vision? And health

 

[slaters]

Simple solution here

 

[iblamemandible7]

What’s wrong with your vision? And health

I was born legally blind, for my entire life I had to wear the thickest glasses you could imagine. They distorted my face and made me look like a serial killer. I had to be that for my entire youth. And a congenital lazy eye that I haven't been able to get rid of. As far as my overall looks I'm ltn with short face syndrome, T50 eyes, shit ratios, and I'm short in a family of tall people. I also started balding at 16. I have a bottom 1 percentile frame and always have had it, extremely narrow clavicles with extremely wide hip bones. I can't name one truly positive aspect about myself.

 

[iblamemandible7]

Simple solution here

I could never

 

[slaters]

I could never

 

[lastredeemer]

I could never

Don’t

 

[iblamemandible7]

I only care about my family, I live my life through other people because I'm too incapable to live my own

 

[got.daim]

Ever since I gained consciousness, there's always been so many things seriously wrong with me. It's like I can't do anything correct. I fuck up everything that I put any effort into and end up spectacularly humiliated. At first it was following instructions at school, but over the years it seeped into every part of my life like a cancer. Even the most basic and involuntary tasks, my heart races thinking about doing them. I am a shell of the happy kid I was because of how many things are wrong with me, in every aspect, physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. I don't know exactly what to call it but it's very distinct and individual.