Today was a nostalgic day (essay incoming)

[Bewusst]

I went to the area I lived in 2019, which is also when I joined this forum. Back then I was 100% fit and healthy physically but felt miserable mentally due to my looks and the insecurities and shame caused by it. Hence I used to cope with alcohol and drank daily to numb myself. At the time, I thought I was at my lowest and that it certainly couldn't get any worse but boy, was I wrong! Here I am today with neurotoxin poisoning, massive health problems while having to deal with the worst kind of people you could possibly imagine and living in a shared hostel dorm with psychos. Looking back, my "only" problems were living in non-ideal accommodations - compared to now however, it was nowhere near as bad since I "only" had to deal with immense daily/nightly noise disturbances by careless neighbors (at least nobody was trying to harm me or my belongings physically) - and my looks, which I could have fixed to a large extent by now if only I would've pushed through the temporary discomfort and worked to save for surgeries instead of procrastinating, hiding from people and getting drunk every day.

Anyway, I went to my beloved park across my old accommodation today I used to go to and sunbathe at almost daily in summer of 2019 and ngl, considering my current circumstances, I miss those times. Everything is so obvious now. All I should have been doing back then is pull myself together, have a sip of 'I don't care' while working a ton to save for surgeries and then move away once looksmaxed to the point I'm comfortable enough with my looks to no longer be ashamed of my face. I had far more freedom and a much better time than I have now. At least I forced myself outside a lot, despite being very uncomfortable whenever people looked at my face. It's easier to '"just" have to deal with worries revolving around your looks than terrible health problems and actual dangers as well. I'd sure as hell do things differently if I could go back in time with my current knowledge and self-reflection.


For the sake of nostalgia, tagging the looksmax veterans @Titbot @toolateforme @Butthurt Dweller @Dope @Goblin @Phillybeard1996 @AbandonShip @BlackBoyo @oldcell @turkproducer @SHARK @Joyride

 

[turkproducer]

health before looks always, but wagecucking even whilst saving for surgeries is very depressing too.

i’m pretty convinced at this stage that people are never truly happy despite their situation

 

[Deleted member 3902]

I went to the area I lived in 2019, which is also when I joined this forum. Back then I was 100% fit and healthy physically but felt miserable mentally due to my looks and the insecurities and shame caused by it. Hence I used to cope with alcohol and drank daily to numb myself. At the time, I thought I was at my lowest and that it certainly couldn't get any worse but boy, was I wrong! Here I am today with neurotoxin poisoning, massive health problems while having to deal with the worst kind of people you could possibly imagine and living in a shared hostel dorm with psychos. Looking back, my "only" problems were living in non-ideal accommodations - compared to now however, it was nowhere near as bad since I "only" had to deal with immense daily/nightly noise disturbances by careless neighbors (at least nobody was trying to harm me or my belongings physically) - and my looks, which I could have fixed to a large extent by now if only I would've pushed through the temporary discomfort and worked to save for surgeries instead of procrastinating, hiding from people and getting drunk every day.

Anyway, I went to my beloved park across my old accommodation today I used to go to and sunbathe at almost daily in summer of 2019 and ngl, considering my current circumstances, I miss those times. Everything is so obvious now. All I should have been doing back then is pull myself together, have a sip of 'I don't care' while working a ton to save for surgeries and then move away once looksmaxed to the point I'm comfortable enough with my looks to no longer be ashamed of my face. I had far more freedom and a much better time than I have now. At least I forced myself outside a lot, despite being very uncomfortable whenever people looked at my face. It's easier to '"just" have to deal with worries revolving around your looks than terrible health problems and actual dangers as well. I'd sure as hell do things differently if I could go back in time with my current knowledge and self-reflection.


For the sake of nostalgia, tagging the looksmax veterans @Titbot @toolateforme @Butthurt Dweller @Dope @Goblin @Phillybeard1996 @AbandonShip @BlackBoyo @oldcell @turkproducer @SHARK @Joyride

Yes this forum drags u down while thinking u achieving shit but u will realize that a year later
Bist du psychatrie ?

 

[Deleted member 3902]

health before looks always, but wagecucking even whilst saving for surgeries is very depressing too.

i’m pretty convinced at this stage that people are never truly happy despite their situation

He literally lost his mind and is an alcoholic
I tell u wagecucking is normal and u can live a happy life with a decent 40 hour per week job

 

[Bewusst]

health before looks always, but wagecucking even whilst saving for surgeries is very depressing too.

i’m pretty convinced at this stage that people are never truly happy despite their situation

We only recognize and value the positive things in our life once they're gone unfortunately

Being happy isn't even my point. Even if I wasn't, I'd still be in a much better place today than I am now if I would've done the things mentioned instead of procrastinating and looking for shortcuts (such as botox). It's all about taking steps to improve our quality of life in the long term (and lessen the avoidable miseries when possible) and what I did was make my life 10 times more difficult than it already was

 

[( ( ( d[-_-]b ) ) )]

Thx 4 tag

 

[Bewusst]

Yes this forum drags u down while thinking u achieving shit but u will realize that a year later
Bist du psychatrie ?

The forum hasn't done any such thing to me. I was already down before joining. I just didn't deal with my situation properly

No to your question

 

[Deleted member 3902]

The forum hasn't done any such thing to me. I was already down before joining. I just didn't deal with my situation properly

No to your question

It did

denial is a hard stage to be at

 

[Deleted member 3902]

Furthermore start working and move to a normal flat

 

[TsarTsar444]

Brutal no tag pill

 

[Bewusst]

Thx 4 tag

Who were you again?

 

[Deleted member 5061]

Keep going man, you have the iq now and knowledge what to do. Just avoid past mistakes and you will overcome the small bump on the ascension journey.

 

[Bewusst]

It did

denial is a hard stage to be at

No it didn't. It didn't change a damn thing apart from the amount of time I've spent here. I was "blackpilled" irl in 2017. That's when it all began. Actually my looks/lookism affected my life even way before that but I wasn't as aware of it before 2017 and still full of delusions

 

[Deleted member 3902]

No it didn't. It didn't change a damn thing apart from the amount of time I've spent here. I was "blackpilled" irl in 2017. That's when it all began. Actually my looks/lookism affected my life even way before that but I wasn't as aware of it before 2017 and still full of delusions

U really think spending time on this place doesn’t change u

 

[Bewusst]

Keep going man, you have the iq now and knowledge what to do. Just avoid past mistakes and you will overcome the small bump on the ascension journey.

Thanks. You make it sound so insignificant but I'm unironically not sure if I'll ever get my health back. Whatever the outcome, I have to try taking care of the things I can control at least

 

[Deleted member 5061]

Thanks. You make it sound so insignificant but I'm unironically not sure if I'll ever get my health back. Whatever the outcome, I have to try taking care of the things I can control at least

Right mate, obviously it wasnt meant to sound trivial, all the stuff you went through, especially the toxin poisoning. I have mad respect for you for warning other ppl about this disgusting poison in countless posts. Because of that alone I will never even consider getting botox injections. In general Im not a big fan of fillers as well, as they usually dont even achieve a good result that lasts longer than like 1 month.

I truly hope that you will get your health back to the same level as before the poisoning, all this looksmaxing "stuff" is like a hobby and this kind of stuff, but health always comes first and should be prioritized. Try to find a more chill place to live and get out of that mess with all those annoying ppl and maybe try to eat healthier, if you dont do it already. obviously try to avoid more stress as much as possible.

I hope you get back on track mate with health and looksmaxing. Age wise- youre not too old yet so ascension is still possible. Heres hoping that holy St. Barrett and St. O'pry bless you on your ascension journey and send you over some strength to get your health back in good shape.

 

[turkproducer]

He literally lost his mind and is an alcoholic
I tell u wagecucking is normal and u can live a happy life with a decent 40 hour per week job

Idk bro i hate work

i wanna kms when working

 

[Deleted member 3902]

Idk bro i hate work

i wanna kms when working

Not after u realize ur 20 live alone and get on the streets if u don’t

furthermore bitches hate niggas on welfare and society hates u more and more the more u get older

 

[turkproducer]

We only recognize and value the positive things in our life once they're gone unfortunately

Being happy isn't even my point. Even if I wasn't, I'd still be in a much better place today than I am now if I would've done the things mentioned instead of procrastinating and looking for shortcuts (such as botox). It's all about taking steps to improve our quality of life in the long term (and lessen the avoidable miseries when possible) and what I did was make my life 10 times more difficult than it already was

what is ur plan now, just get urself outside of the rut ur in

i remember ur pfp u looked pretty good afaik?

 

[turkproducer]

Not after u realize ur 20 live alone and get on the streets if u don’t

furthermore bitches hate niggas on welfare and society hates u more and more the more u get older

True, I would be happy with a wage cuck job if it’s something I love and pays decent

I don’t love anything tho, i just wanna rot and get paid

 

[Deleted member 3902]

True, I would be happy with a wage cuck job if it’s something I love and pays decent

I don’t love anything tho, i just wanna rot and get paid

Social outcast maxing tbh

 

[turkproducer]

Social outcast maxing tbh

Yeah I’m not antisocial lmao, I can deal with people well and talk well

I don’t like doing it though especially everyday

 

[Deleted member 3902]

Yeah I’m not antisocial lmao, I can deal with people well and talk well

I don’t like doing it though especially everyday

No I mean being jobless will make u an social outcast

 

[Bewusst]

U really think spending time on this place doesn’t change u

I'm less uncomfortable in public places (as for my looks) now than I was in 2019. I still am of course but I have learnt to distance myself emotionally and don't beat myself up over my looks anymore. I also care a lot less about other people's opinion about me

 

[Bewusst]

what is ur plan now, just get urself outside of the rut ur in

i remember ur pfp u looked pretty good afaik?

Get my driving license and then leave the city for good

 

[turkproducer]

Get my driving license and then leave the city for good

i also wanna move away far so i can be unrecognisable after my surgeries

so far so good, can afford most apart from LL

 

[turkproducer]

No I mean being jobless will make u an social outcast

Self employed

 

[lutte]

Idk bro i hate work

i wanna kms when working

same, ethnic gang

 

[Bewusst]

i also wanna move away far so i can be unrecognisable after my surgeries

so far so good, can afford most apart from LL

What's your job? Also, which surgeries are you gonna get?

 

[turkproducer]

What's your job? Also, which surgeries are you gonna get?

I don’t have one rn but just entry level bs saved some money + crypto

I want genio, infraorbital implants and fat grafting wbu

 

[Bewusst]

I want genio, infraorbital implants and fat grafting wbu

I need lip reduction, browplasty, blepharoplasty, maybe genioplasty and eventually also a hair transplant for receding hairline

Tell me how to make money from home. Where did you learn it?

 

[Deleted member 1464]

U really think spending time on this place doesn’t change u

 

[AbandonShip]

Nostalgia hits me everyday. In my dreams as well as when awake. It is fucking over for nostalgiacels. Just try to forget the past, no matter how good it was. Focus on the present. That's all that matters

 

[Growth Plate]

Today was a day where no words were read

 

[Bewusst]

Nostalgia hits me everyday. In my dreams as well as when awake. It is fucking over for nostalgiacels. Just try to forget the past, no matter how good it was. Focus on the present. That's all that matters

You have a point but it's not entirely true. We can learn from past experiences. Unfortunately I at least tend to appreciate things mainly when they're gone. Sort of "is the glass half full vs half empty" But maybe it's not just me and it's natural/evolutionary adaptation to focus more on our problems to urge us to solve them

 

[Vitruvian]

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