Total social suicide..

[Stuttercel]

As a guy with a stutter you can imagine how non-existant my social life is irl. I literally avoid speaking as much as possible because of the stutter. It is such an obvious flaw and disability to sound like a fucking retard everytime you speak. I have something called speech blocks. Which is basically everytime YES everytime i try to speak my speech organs go off course and basically just lock up. Making me physically unable to say what i want. This of course leads me to just not even attempt to talk at my highschool. It's like asking to be bullied, and honestly since i don't talk I've never been bullied about it. Infact i bully myself lol. Ever since i was like 12 I've been calling myself names and shit cuz of my stutter. I've stopped only recently because thinking about it at school while im completely alone is too painful. I am so embarrassed from my stutter that I've put myself in a inescapable paradox of logic.

I want friends, but i refuse to talk to people which makes me depressed because i have no friends. I would go into more detail but ill do that another time. Also before you ask yea i do speech therapy. In fact im 7 years in, but nothing works when you can't control your speech organs.



As you can probably see my only cope would be these types of forums and discord. But unfortunately i suspect im Non-NT (not neurotypical). Because i literally for the life of me can't make any discord friends. Im way too clingy if anyone shows any interest in me because you know im literally attention starved irl and i live a life of almost complete social isolation. So when i talk to people on discord i get crazy and i begin to have literal anxiety attacks because im not sure what to say to people. Like I've literally cried before because i wasn't sure how to start a conversation with someone on discord. Im not sure what is wrong with me but no neurotypical person overthinks that hard when socializing lol. So i resort to jestermaxxing and ragebaiting which really doesn't do much and just reminds me of how lonely i am.

No matter what i do both online and irl i will probably never have a friend group.
And im only in highschool with this type of situation

It's over, game over. I will probably rope within the next 5 years. I can't take this level of social isolation.


Sorry for shitty grammar and spelling im American.


For DNRcels tldr: stuttering and (suspected not confirmed) neurodivergance = complete loneliness.

 

[VHD]

im here for you bhai

 

[cooldude1231]

Im the same way on discord
Once u find a community it gets easier though
And u arent not normal u just have a shitty stutter thats destroying your self esteem

 

[noahwillascend]

As a guy with a stutter you can imagine how non-existant my social life is irl. I literally avoid speaking as much as possible because of the stutter. It is such an obvious flaw and disability to sound like a fucking retard everytime you speak. I have something called speech blocks. Which is basically everytime YES everytime i try to speak my speech organs go off course and basically just lock up. Making me physically unable to say what i want. This of course leads me to just not even attempt to talk at my highschool. It's like asking to be bullied, and honestly since i don't talk I've never been bullied about it. Infact i bully myself lol. Ever since i was like 12 I've been calling myself names and shit cuz of my stutter. I've stopped only recently because thinking about it at school while im completely alone is too painful. I am so embarrassed from my stutter that I've put myself in a inescapable paradox of logic.

I want friends, but i refuse to talk to people which makes me depressed because i have no friends. I would go into more detail but ill do that another time. Also before you ask yea i do speech therapy. In fact im 7 years in, but nothing works when you can't control your speech organs.



As you can probably see my only cope would be these types of forums and discord. But unfortunately i suspect im Non-NT (not neurotypical). Because i literally for the life of me can't make any discord friends. Im way too clingy if anyone shows any interest in me because you know im literally attention starved irl and i live a life of almost complete social isolation. So when i talk to people on discord i get crazy and i begin to have literal anxiety attacks because im not sure what to say to people. Like I've literally cried before because i wasn't sure how to start a conversation with someone on discord. Im not sure what is wrong with me but no neurotypical person overthinks that hard when socializing lol. So i resort to jestermaxxing and ragebaiting which really doesn't do much and just reminds me of how lonely i am.

No matter what i do both online and irl i will probably never have a friend group.
And im only in highschool with this type of situation

It's over, game over. I will probably rope within the next 5 years. I can't take this level of social isolation.


Sorry for shitty grammar and spelling im American.


For DNRcels tldr: stuttering and (suspected not confirmed) neurodivergance = complete loneliness.

Got to speech therapy or smth boss, we here 4 u

 

[Stuttercel]

Got to speech therapy or smth boss, we here 4 u

I did already 7 years in

 

[Surfsup]

I did already 7 years in

Did u see any improvement

 

[Stuttercel]

Did u see any improvement

No

 

[twojei]

As a guy with a stutter you can imagine how non-existant my social life is irl. I literally avoid speaking as much as possible because of the stutter. It is such an obvious flaw and disability to sound like a fucking retard everytime you speak. I have something called speech blocks. Which is basically everytime YES everytime i try to speak my speech organs go off course and basically just lock up. Making me physically unable to say what i want. This of course leads me to just not even attempt to talk at my highschool. It's like asking to be bullied, and honestly since i don't talk I've never been bullied about it. Infact i bully myself lol. Ever since i was like 12 I've been calling myself names and shit cuz of my stutter. I've stopped only recently because thinking about it at school while im completely alone is too painful. I am so embarrassed from my stutter that I've put myself in a inescapable paradox of logic.

I want friends, but i refuse to talk to people which makes me depressed because i have no friends. I would go into more detail but ill do that another time. Also before you ask yea i do speech therapy. In fact im 7 years in, but nothing works when you can't control your speech organs.



As you can probably see my only cope would be these types of forums and discord. But unfortunately i suspect im Non-NT (not neurotypical). Because i literally for the life of me can't make any discord friends. Im way too clingy if anyone shows any interest in me because you know im literally attention starved irl and i live a life of almost complete social isolation. So when i talk to people on discord i get crazy and i begin to have literal anxiety attacks because im not sure what to say to people. Like I've literally cried before because i wasn't sure how to start a conversation with someone on discord. Im not sure what is wrong with me but no neurotypical person overthinks that hard when socializing lol. So i resort to jestermaxxing and ragebaiting which really doesn't do much and just reminds me of how lonely i am.

No matter what i do both online and irl i will probably never have a friend group.
And im only in highschool with this type of situation

It's over, game over. I will probably rope within the next 5 years. I can't take this level of social isolation.


Sorry for shitty grammar and spelling im American.


For DNRcels tldr: stuttering and (suspected not confirmed) neurodivergance = complete loneliness.

Hope everything goes well for you bro, and please do not think about roping. It is a decision that changues everything. Even though I recognize how brutal, cruel, and absurd life is, it is not a decision you should take lightly. I'm not discouraing you or anything because I'm pro-choice actually, but I understand how painful it is to commit suicide. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here bro.

 

[omnilegent]

Nobody cares about you, disgusting subhuman. Go ahead and rope, waste of government resources

 

[Defeatist]

get some hobby’s life is beautiful as fuck grow up man

 

[Bars]

 

[bppharmacist]

Its over, Lobotomy required

 

[Stuttercel]

Nobody cares about you, disgusting subhuman. Go ahead and rope, waste of government resources

This is life fuel

 

[floopmaxxed]

what's your discord bhai?

 

[Stuttercel]

what's your discord bhai?

.f2o.

 

[Krisis]

What you view as weaknesses can actually turn out to be strengths, provided you come to acknowledge them as characteristics that amount to your individuality.

At the core, you're just a human being, dude. You got to change your self-perception. There's plenty of people who would resonate with your struggles.

No matter what i do both online and irl i will probably never have a friend group.

It's making statements like this that will probably keep you isolated and dejected. There are people who would accept you with open arms. It's not going to be easy to make friends, but that doesn't mean a pathway doesn't exist.

Social rejection is common, but self-rejection is an overwhelmingly widespread disease. You have to go easy on yourself, bro. This journey is yours to claim.