freeshavacadoo
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all the events of my life in chronological order
3-5 years old - got raped by my older cousin which developed into a bad porn addiction starting very young. Never once told my parents about it but it still affects me daily and I wish I could tell them, im just happy I havent seen her in years. It was like a sinful gate had been opened.
5 years old - got a virus called hands food and mouth disease that caused my own immune system to attack apart of my brain (basal ganglia) causing loads of issues, basically my body was trying to fight off the virus and mistook brain tissue for the virus, not entirely sure how it works.
the main issue though was not eating a variety of food which I remember eating way more before this and I didnt get help for it until 10 years later.
5-10 years old - got called ugly and was mistreated by so many people in elementary school, I think from the malnutrition and being underdeveloped
middle school years - Probably the best years of my life, I looked decent and had friends that I would hang out with everyday.
13 years old - I didnt know that my immune system was attacking my brain at this period, but it suddenly overnight got 10x worse, this was during the pandemic and my vision, memory, verbal ability and gait became fucked up aswell, not sure why after so many years it decided to randomly get way worse but it did.
High school years - got treated like shit by everyone and I didn't show up for over half of the days, constant suffering and in bed.
15 years - after seeing many doctors trying to rule out what was happening to me I got diagnosed with pans syndrome and had so much brain inflammation that my doctor was very worried and had me get help as soon as possible, all of my friends moved on from me and went to join other friend groups because they started to pity me overtime. I think I had 10-15x higher cytokines levels than the average person for years, idk I have the blood tests still.
19 years old - I have recovered a bit and have a lot less neuro inflammation but I think my life is still fucked up and I probably have decent brain damage in my basal ganglia for all of the years untreated, I dont really have much hope for the future and my teenager years were robbed from me, idk what I should do
3-5 years old - got raped by my older cousin which developed into a bad porn addiction starting very young. Never once told my parents about it but it still affects me daily and I wish I could tell them, im just happy I havent seen her in years. It was like a sinful gate had been opened.
5 years old - got a virus called hands food and mouth disease that caused my own immune system to attack apart of my brain (basal ganglia) causing loads of issues, basically my body was trying to fight off the virus and mistook brain tissue for the virus, not entirely sure how it works.
the main issue though was not eating a variety of food which I remember eating way more before this and I didnt get help for it until 10 years later.
5-10 years old - got called ugly and was mistreated by so many people in elementary school, I think from the malnutrition and being underdeveloped
middle school years - Probably the best years of my life, I looked decent and had friends that I would hang out with everyday.
13 years old - I didnt know that my immune system was attacking my brain at this period, but it suddenly overnight got 10x worse, this was during the pandemic and my vision, memory, verbal ability and gait became fucked up aswell, not sure why after so many years it decided to randomly get way worse but it did.
High school years - got treated like shit by everyone and I didn't show up for over half of the days, constant suffering and in bed.
15 years - after seeing many doctors trying to rule out what was happening to me I got diagnosed with pans syndrome and had so much brain inflammation that my doctor was very worried and had me get help as soon as possible, all of my friends moved on from me and went to join other friend groups because they started to pity me overtime. I think I had 10-15x higher cytokines levels than the average person for years, idk I have the blood tests still.
19 years old - I have recovered a bit and have a lot less neuro inflammation but I think my life is still fucked up and I probably have decent brain damage in my basal ganglia for all of the years untreated, I dont really have much hope for the future and my teenager years were robbed from me, idk what I should do
