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Something in your childhood that still follows you to this day? Something that couldve been avoided easily?
i looked at my life and used to think that i regret many things, but in reality only some had big impact.
1) Not starting a sport in my childhood. This was the root cause of my social anxiety and lonely youth. Everyone were telling me i have excellent proportions to become an athlete, but instead computer found me at a very young age and i chose it, i stopped going out playing with friends outside. And im really mad that my parents didnt push me away from the PC. Only reason i chose video games over going outside was due to comfort. All my friends were older than me, so naturally them growing faster made them stronger and able to beat me, that instead of competition turned me into a coward, refusing to participate in team games. And well due to that i didnt train my coordination at all, i became really clumsy and all, digging the anxiety and avoidance hole even deeper.
Almost all the mfs who participated in team sports since young age have developed good social skills and had a really good life during their teenage years.
2) Drug addiction. Couldve been easily avoided, i got into it out of boredom and to get attention, because i thought it is cool. Instead i lost lots of time, lots of progress, made connections with many wrong people, ruined my both physical and mental health. Im not even mentioning the money.
I keep regretting this and have been combating that for the past few months. Sadly, i keep relapsing. But i have a plan, to get out of this hole, and im almost sure that will work.
Realised im an addict when i switched from doing drugs only when going out to just doing them alone at home, on a sunday night, because i felt bored.
i looked at my life and used to think that i regret many things, but in reality only some had big impact.
1) Not starting a sport in my childhood. This was the root cause of my social anxiety and lonely youth. Everyone were telling me i have excellent proportions to become an athlete, but instead computer found me at a very young age and i chose it, i stopped going out playing with friends outside. And im really mad that my parents didnt push me away from the PC. Only reason i chose video games over going outside was due to comfort. All my friends were older than me, so naturally them growing faster made them stronger and able to beat me, that instead of competition turned me into a coward, refusing to participate in team games. And well due to that i didnt train my coordination at all, i became really clumsy and all, digging the anxiety and avoidance hole even deeper.
Almost all the mfs who participated in team sports since young age have developed good social skills and had a really good life during their teenage years.
2) Drug addiction. Couldve been easily avoided, i got into it out of boredom and to get attention, because i thought it is cool. Instead i lost lots of time, lots of progress, made connections with many wrong people, ruined my both physical and mental health. Im not even mentioning the money.
I keep regretting this and have been combating that for the past few months. Sadly, i keep relapsing. But i have a plan, to get out of this hole, and im almost sure that will work.
Realised im an addict when i switched from doing drugs only when going out to just doing them alone at home, on a sunday night, because i felt bored.
