pleasevanity
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I loved someone in a way I never did before
Now it’s over, forever. I don’t want her back but I wish I could turn back time to before things got to this point. I might not be able to change how I feel about somethings and that’s okay. It just means I need time to mature or maybe it means I should just move on. There is no other woman like her; my oneitis, but nevertheless a great woman of great influence to my life despite how little time I spent with her.
It’s crazy, I never met her and yet I feel this strongly for her. Now that’s she’s gone I have no clue what to do with this feeling of mine. I lust, degenerate, cope, vent and it never fills the void. I don’t know what to do if I can’t love her. I’m just lost. I have nothing. I hated everything and I only loved her.
I can’t even love myself.
Now it’s over, forever. I don’t want her back but I wish I could turn back time to before things got to this point. I might not be able to change how I feel about somethings and that’s okay. It just means I need time to mature or maybe it means I should just move on. There is no other woman like her; my oneitis, but nevertheless a great woman of great influence to my life despite how little time I spent with her.
It’s crazy, I never met her and yet I feel this strongly for her. Now that’s she’s gone I have no clue what to do with this feeling of mine. I lust, degenerate, cope, vent and it never fills the void. I don’t know what to do if I can’t love her. I’m just lost. I have nothing. I hated everything and I only loved her.
I can’t even love myself.
