What is wrong with me. Why am I so ugly

[Shammed]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

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Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

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[AgentAngularity]

Mogs me

 

[AgentAngularity]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

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You are not ugly if you had exes, dnr

 

[patrikos.psl]

 

[esoterik]

kid laroi with close ipd

 

[Swarthy Knight]

 

[Shammed]

You are not ugly if you had exes, dnr

Never claimed to be an incel, but I'm still objectively ugly

 

[devi0us_jester]

ipd + stop sucking ur cheeks in

 

[AgentAngularity]

Never claimed to be an incel, but I'm still objectively ugly

you are 6'5

 

[Shammed]

ipd + stop sucking ur cheeks in

2nd photo not sucked, but first photo hullo frauded and 3rd was sucked. What I'm looking for is structural problems with my actual face

 

[eㅤㅤ]

unfortunate

 

[sub5tripleT]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

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Dnr

 

[true.perso.chad]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

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dnr this fag

 

[vxfx]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

​

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bro gave us his whole life story

 

[devi0us_jester]

you are 6'5

height doesnt effect ugliness. u can be 7'12 and still have an ugly face

 

[Shammed]

you are 6'5

That doesn't mean I'm not ugly, it just "boosts my stats."

 

[sub5tripleT]

height doesnt effect ugliness. u can be 7'12 and still have an ugly face

But then you heightmog so its alright

 

[devi0us_jester]

2nd photo not sucked, but first photo hullo frauded and 3rd was sucked. What I'm looking for is structural problems with my actual face

bad ipd and ur nose is fukked up ngl, deviated septum maybe... also u have a very long face and short ramus innit

 

[Shammed]

But then you heightmog so its alright

Clearly height wasn't enough for the ltbs

 

[Shammed]

bad ipd and ur nose is fukked up ngl, deviated septum maybe... also u have a very long face and short ramus innit

So there's no saving me or can I just cope with the fact my puberty isn't over

 

[sub5tripleT]

Clearly height wasn't enough for the ltbs

Rape them

 

[Shammed]

Rape them

alr bro

 

[devi0us_jester]

But then you heightmog so its alright

I mean its alright if you only care about your standing when surrounded by men but women will b repulsed. Roids + devious OGRE MAXX is only option. Start eating raw meat and hitting people on the subway.

 

[AgentAngularity]

height doesnt effect ugliness. u can be 7'12 and still have an ugly face

idc, hes 6'5 and white

 

[Shammed]

bad ipd and ur nose is fukked up ngl, deviated septum maybe... also u have a very long face and short ramus innit

Not a deviated septum js bad angle, but yh my nose is fucked. Idk what's wrong w it but I know something else is off

 

[AgentAngularity]

That doesn't mean I'm not ugly, it just "boosts my stats."

my stats:

sub3, manlet, ethnic

your stats

lltn, hieghtslayer, white

 

[devi0us_jester]

idc, hes 6'5 and white

Brah hes still sub5 facially I swear people on here act like height/race is some magick spell. Face is still most important

 

[AgentAngularity]

Brah hes still sub5 facially I swear people on here act like height/race is some magick spell. Face is still most important

if this nigga went to east Asia or sotuh America, he could easily get any girl he wants

 

[Shammed]

my stats:

sub3, manlet, ethnic

your stats

lltn, hieghtslayer, white

Ethnicity really got nun to do w this, only the fact that some ethnicities are prone to have features we don't find attractive. Other than that nothing is wrong w ur skin tone

 

[AgentAngularity]

Brah hes still sub5 facially I swear people on here act like height/race is some magick spell. Face is still most important

plus he can get surgery an become average looking. The other 2 copouts are much harder to change

 

[AgentAngularity]

Ethnicity really got nun to do w this, only the fact that some ethnicities are prone to have features we don't find attractive. Other than that nothing is wrong w ur skin tone

being an ethnic isnt a nerf if your actually good looking and tall, I agree. Its the least important of the 3 pillers

my brother is 6'1 and is htn and slays girls of every race, height, dimo, and face is law than race

 

[HappyCake07]

you aren’t that ugly bro

 

[Shammed]

bro gave us his whole life story

idk the context needed and I feel like everything in the past I've done to improve my looks has inadvertently ruined me

 

[Shammed]

you aren’t that ugly bro

I don't wanna js be "not THAT ugly" I want it to be outright disbelief that I believe I'm ugly. I need help ascending to that position, can you please give insight on how I can get there

 

[HappyCake07]

I don't wanna js be "not THAT ugly" I want it to be outright disbelief that I believe I'm ugly. I need help ascending to that position, can you please give insight on how I can get there

grow hair out, fix skin, hit the gym

 

[russianlarpcel]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

​

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Close enough, welcome back ER

 

[lowestlowltn]

My name is Elijah. I'm 16, 230lbs, and 6'5-6'6 and I've been a part of the community since April 2025, but I've never posted on .org or made an account until recently. The photos I have are me currently and I have a google drive linked that shows me over the years. I need help

My journey with the obsession of my looks:

My face pictures will be in chronological order from past-to-present. My whole life I've struggled with my looks through multiple ways, when I was 12 I became anorexic and was so until 14, at the peak of my anorexia I was 130lbs and 6 foot and I eventually developed a BED induced by the severity of my anorexia which led me to gain 90lbs. From there on I constantly fought against my BED by not eating all day or going back to methods from my anorexic days which further exacerbated my mental health. Eventually when I was 15 I re-united with a girl who I previously dated a 2 years before that instance and I kept trying and trying to win her back--she left because I couldn't give her attention since I was anorexic and always had no energy--and I spent 6 months trying to get with her while she manipulated me, talked with other guys, always obsessed over K-pop stars, and even left me for another guy who cheated on her within a month which made her come running back for my attention and during that time period of obsession and infatuation I developed severe cystic acne which I would place blame upon her for since she caused me so much stress and plunged me into a pit of nihilism, misanthropy, and apathy. For months I couldn't feel anything, I ditched what little friends I had left and was drifting through school, not talking to anyone at all and always wearing a hoodie whilst girls laughed and shouted "NICE SKIN CARE ROUTINE!!" But eventually I found the courage to leave her and was able to completely disconnect all emotions I held for her--mostly due to my stress-induced apathy, not courage. So I left her and started to work on my looks even more, I got on accutane and worked even harder in the gym--I've been going since I was 14. Eventually my acne cleared up and school was coming back up so when I got back I had an "ascension," but I was still brutally unconfident and insecure, eventually I met another girl who I recently broke up with again due to similar issues as my previous ex: she played games w her exes and lied to me about it until I kept pressing further on, she always flipped arguments onto me where I would be begging for her attention and she would always have the last word like "k" or "thumbs up," she was in constant contact with one of her exes even though I expressed discomfort with it, and at one point I found out she didn't want kids so I broke up with her but she told me she would get back with an abusive ex if I left her which forced me to stay with her because I cared about how she was treated and her mental health and then later on she said she would be open to just one kid. And now we're broken up due to me getting mad she was ignoring me and playing with another dude. And that's the encapsulated my life, although some details are missing and other events.​

​

Question:​

What is wrong with my face? Am I really that ugly? I've put years into trying to look better but no matter what I do I still get left and manipulated, and I know that if I looked better none of these events would've happened, specifically the cheating and treatment from my past exes. How do I improve? I've gained weight and started getting more acne and got progressively uglier when I was with my 2nd ex. I don't want to fall down like I once did.​

​

Photos Google Drive:​

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1bLIdOtZ2RoPvlovffNikDhnjDSclNhqS?usp=sharing​

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dnr fag