uglyretardednigga
you always kill yourself too late.
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Everyday, whether I like it or not, my brain actively tries to convince me that I have certain fetishes and sexual desires. I get some of the most unimaginably horrible intrusive thoughts and cannot sleep at night because I’m so disturbed by what my mind forces me to imagine. I start obsessively “checking” whether I have certain kinks or fetishes by looking at them and testing if I’m aroused, just because of a single intrusive thought I had months or even years earlier. My brain actively tricks me into believing I’m a monster, since sexual OCD targets the things that go most strongly against your morals and makes you think you’re attracted to them. I cannot explain this situation to my parents or normies, and it's really affecting my life.