What the fuck is the point of anything?

[suicidemonkey]

Here I am sat in my car, alone in some parking lot.

I feel like I have been in this same situation 1000X before but honestly it doesn't matter anymore, most of my youth has passed me by anyway.

20 years old, my life has been plagued by low self esteem and social anxiety, things that I never spoke about because I felt ashamed of myself.

I can't even convince myself that things went somewhat well, I feel deep guilt for isolating myself over long periods of time. I come from a privileged background, but it feels like there is something fundamentally wrong with me. Even when people attempt to relate to me, everything is completely undermined by the opportunities that I was given, my potential.

I feel like a complete nobody, worse I feel like shell of a person.

 

[WaterGod]

dont do it

 

[×OneBird×]

Are you okay? I'm here if you want to talk.

 

[nobodylovesme]

Drive a bit faster. It feels great.

 

[suicidemonkey]

Are you okay? I'm here if you want to talk.

I don't think so

 

[Deleted member 43828]

There is no point boyo. There is no wholesome advice. Killing yourself is pretty based.

 

[ss$$]

Brutal

 

[ss$$]

Don't commit though

 

[yex]

syfm and get to work

 

[suicidemonkey]

Don't commit though

Everyone thinks I'm about to rope for some reason

 

[ss$$]

Everyone thinks I'm about to rope for some reason

Your username suggests

 

[ss$$]

Your username suggests

Along with the sad thread

 

[ss$$]

Along with the sad thread

Only makes sense.

 

[Deleted member 122761]

we’re doing all of this stuff just to die