
suicidemonkey
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Here I am sat in my car, alone in some parking lot.
I feel like I have been in this same situation 1000X before but honestly it doesn't matter anymore, most of my youth has passed me by anyway.
20 years old, my life has been plagued by low self esteem and social anxiety, things that I never spoke about because I felt ashamed of myself.
I can't even convince myself that things went somewhat well, I feel deep guilt for isolating myself over long periods of time. I come from a privileged background, but it feels like there is something fundamentally wrong with me. Even when people attempt to relate to me, everything is completely undermined by the opportunities that I was given, my potential.
I feel like a complete nobody, worse I feel like shell of a person.