Kazura_
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I genuinely don't see how I am benefiting from looksmaxing. The endpoint is confidence, but all it does is increase my insecurities, knowingthat the only real way I can look better is if I get expensive surgeries ( that may go wrong ) and even if I looked better rn, would it matter if I can't even converse with others or make eye contact at 24? , my growth plates are closed, so I can't get any taller and due to never exercising and a poor diet, my frame is so far off what it could be.
Maybe if I looked better, people would speak to me, and it would make things 'easier', but I just can't see how I make it from this and succeed. I do a bunch of shitty part-time jobs so it's hard to have any consistency; none of them will give me permenant hours. I have done full-time work before for a year and quit then wasted all my money on gambling, went from having 10k to -6k debt because I guess I couldn't see any purpose to it, buy a car? to get a better job? get a flat ? that i need a job to keep? is trhe only way of living waking up to work and never truly making anything.
Do I work more? make more money? Is that really all there is? The obvious answer seems to be to make a business so you're not bound to a life like that, but I don't see how someone like me can make it that far when I can't even speak to people
I can feel my already low IQ diminishing further as well, even the way I type disgusts me, like how you can tell how retarded someone is often from the way they speak or type. I don't even care about women atp, I could never sustain a relationship even if I wanted to. All I wanted was to make the world a better place. I don't care if no one remembers me but I could accept that type of death. Instead, my greatest challenge is being ugly and in debt, unable to talk to people, something a toddler can do with ease? Where did I go so wrong to end up like this ...
Maybe if I looked better, people would speak to me, and it would make things 'easier', but I just can't see how I make it from this and succeed. I do a bunch of shitty part-time jobs so it's hard to have any consistency; none of them will give me permenant hours. I have done full-time work before for a year and quit then wasted all my money on gambling, went from having 10k to -6k debt because I guess I couldn't see any purpose to it, buy a car? to get a better job? get a flat ? that i need a job to keep? is trhe only way of living waking up to work and never truly making anything.
Do I work more? make more money? Is that really all there is? The obvious answer seems to be to make a business so you're not bound to a life like that, but I don't see how someone like me can make it that far when I can't even speak to people
I can feel my already low IQ diminishing further as well, even the way I type disgusts me, like how you can tell how retarded someone is often from the way they speak or type. I don't even care about women atp, I could never sustain a relationship even if I wanted to. All I wanted was to make the world a better place. I don't care if no one remembers me but I could accept that type of death. Instead, my greatest challenge is being ugly and in debt, unable to talk to people, something a toddler can do with ease? Where did I go so wrong to end up like this ...
