What's wrong with me?

[mvp2v1]

I have this horrible issue where after I decided that i want to do something I just literally cant get myself to do anything else. One not-so-great recent example is for the past 2 weeks I have done so little, basically have not done any work, because I just want to get the dam ADHD med issue resolved and out of my mind (waiting for an appointment where they will prescribe). Its always like this, there is always something which needs to get done and I wont do anything else until it is done. often times i will even procrastinate on that thing not because I dont want to do it but because the idea that its important idk it just blocks me. Honestly no idea whats wrong with me. I have no focus either, NONE! I never organise and I constantly forget what I need to do. Like right now I know there is a ton that I need to do, but I can barely remmeber most of it, and I for whatever reason dont want to have to think about it, just like this invisible wall blocking my mind.

Also its like I won't do anything unless everything is perfect. idk if you know what I mean

 

[fruitgunpop]

Yeah its the same for me. Everything must be in perfect order for me to start something. I believe I have undiagnosed OCD
Journaling and better organization definitely helps.
I have 3 note apps on my phone which I quickly fire up when I have something important in my mind or to better organize my thoughts and priorities.
I also use this app/web app called "Habitica". Its basically a gamified To-Do list, daily tasks, habit correction app.

Habitica - Gamify Your Life

Habitica is a free habit and productivity app that treats your real life like a game. Habitica can help you achieve your goals to become healthy and happy.

habitica.com

Here's some

 

[anticel]

buy a booklet. write up EVERYTHING that you need to do. all your plans etc.
I personally have stuff for the far future, for example: fuck my ex
then things i wanna get done by the end of the year: starting learning a new language, looksmax etc.
things i should do asap: pay bills, email surgeon, make list of markets where i can buy fresh meat, etc.

 

[Need2Ascend]

Low hormones/neurotrasmitter caused by craniofacial dystrophy. I have a note app where I organize everything important, but nothing like that really fixes the root problem. Procrastinating ruins your life

 

[trey123]

i feel u man. got similar issues. we need meds asap.

 

[Gaygymmaxx]

Loser do your homework. Adhd is not an excuse to sit on your ass.

 

[trey123]

Maybe u should try modafinil or weed too.

 

[mvp2v1]

Maybe u should try modafinil or weed too.

Tried it for 2 days at sub 200mg, first day was fine but second gave me crazy anxiety and insomnia for a few nights.

Loser do your homework. Adhd is not an excuse to sit on your ass.

 

[anticel]

how s ur diet? try carnivore/diet/paleo and eat lots of animal fats for energy. it ll take a bit but if u adapt it should fix a lot

 

[mvp2v1]

how s ur diet? try carnivore/diet/paleo and eat lots of animal fats for energy. it ll take a bit but if u adapt it should fix a lot

I dont eat enough.

made a thread about my diet here: https://looksmax.org/threads/cant-a...to-how-can-i-up-my-calories-by-700-1k.543433/

I'll look into that diet good chance im currently on it

 

[anticel]

I dont eat enough.

made a thread about my diet here: https://looksmax.org/threads/cant-a...to-how-can-i-up-my-calories-by-700-1k.543433/

I'll look into that diet good chance im currently on it

i had the same and turned out i had some kind of carb intolerance so ye try to cut the carbs completely. https://looksmax.org/threads/most-nutritious-foods-to-eat-if-you-are-short-on-money.539353/
for vitamins either offal / raw meat and or veggies. you prob dont even need that much muscle meat a day so it wont be that expensive. an example of what you could have for breakfast is 3-4 raw eggs mixed with together with milk and very little honey and salt. tastes rly good and is nutritious asf. that s what i have been doin for a week now and at the start not much changed but now i feel better than ever.

oh and fat. u need lots of animal fats because thats where ur energy comes from. literally take 2 bites of butter or 2 spoons of ghee. also get the stuff organic if u can.

 

[anticel]

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[Sigmamale]

I think it is just a symptom of ADHD

 

[Crusile]

caused by craniofacial dystrophy.

this would be 1000% conclusively proven if this was true. Its likely pollution / heavy metal / eipgientic degeneration. Misaligned bites probably improves cognition on avg

 

[wollet2]

i do a similar thing where if i focus on sth i have to be 100% there and i cant do other stuff

its maybe because if theres any chance for me to succeed at something i got to be 100% interested and motivated about it and be around the object 24/7. i have to be fascinated by it

otherwise i cant function

for example if i choose to play league again i have to look up to a role model pro and imagine me being him, or watch pro scene and league related vids all day.

when i studied i consumed related content all day, not necessarily 'hard educational' but also on the geekish side of it, i wasted so much time of actually studying like this. before i get to uni movies like a beautiful mind and the theory of everything motivated me to study. i cant do such stuff casually or out of a necessity my brain completely turns off

that doesnt have to do anything with my capability to succeed at the thing once i focus. its more of : if im not 100% immersed i will function 0 of what i can

i also have the tendency to get 100% absorbed in things i enjoy my mother says i am a person of extremes which is not good

 

[TUSSELEIF]

Have you tried mewing

 

[mvp2v1]

i do a similar thing where if i focus on sth i have to be 100% there and i cant do other stuff

its maybe because if theres any chance for me to succeed at something i got to be 100% interested and motivated about it and be around the object 24/7. i have to be fascinated by it

otherwise i cant function

for example if i choose to play league again i have to look up to a role model pro and imagine me being him, or watch pro scene and league related vids all day.

when i studied i consumed related content all day, not necessarily 'hard educational' but also on the geekish side of it, i wasted so much time of actually studying like this. before i get to uni movies like a beautiful mind and the theory of everything motivated me to study. i cant do such stuff casually or out of a necessity my brain completely turns off

that doesnt have to do anything with my capability to succeed at the thing once i focus. its more of : if im not 100% immersed i will function 0 of what i can

i also have the tendency to get 100% absorbed in things i enjoy my mother says i am a person of extremes which is not good

Dam people describe me the same way. A person of extremes. We are very similar.

 

[mvp2v1]

Dam people describe me the same way. A person of extremes. We are very similar.

Do u knwo if your autistic or something else? ADHD? Dyslexic?

i do a similar thing where if i focus on sth i have to be 100% there and i cant do other stuff

its maybe because if theres any chance for me to succeed at something i got to be 100% interested and motivated about it and be around the object 24/7. i have to be fascinated by it

otherwise i cant function

for example if i choose to play league again i have to look up to a role model pro and imagine me being him, or watch pro scene and league related vids all day.

when i studied i consumed related content all day, not necessarily 'hard educational' but also on the geekish side of it, i wasted so much time of actually studying like this. before i get to uni movies like a beautiful mind and the theory of everything motivated me to study. i cant do such stuff casually or out of a necessity my brain completely turns off

that doesnt have to do anything with my capability to succeed at the thing once i focus. its more of : if im not 100% immersed i will function 0 of what i can

i also have the tendency to get 100% absorbed in things i enjoy my mother says i am a person of extremes which is not good

 

[wollet2]

Do u knwo if your autistic or something else? ADHD?

prolly not autistic. i make fun of adhd but y i prolly have it.

i could focus easier in the past also im a bit of perfectionist.

but its impossible for me to focus on an 'intellectual' task out of neccesity, its just my brain will wander around or i will get depression and i cant control it. also my brain completely shuts down under anxiety/depression

so y i can say my emotional state/shifts impact my function a lot.

 

[mvp2v1]

prolly not autistic. i make fun of adhd but y i prolly have it.

i could focus easier in the past also im a bit of perfectionist.

but its impossible for me to focus on an 'intellectual' task out of neccesity, its just my brain will wander around or i will get depression and i cant control it. also my brain completely shuts down under anxiety/depression

so y i can say my emotional state/shifts impact my function a lot.

perhaps its bipolar disorder?

 

[wollet2]

perhaps its bipolar disorder?

i dont know my mood can change very rapidly by a trigger or even a thought. but its not unjustifiable mood change thats why i think its a joke calling people "just bipolar" . nowadays i dont get mood changes i always feel like shit but sometimes i feel even shittier when i remember some stuff

i wanted to say that the moment i felt depressed or anxious i would give up on studying i couldnt do it at all. and such thing could kickstart a big period of me not wanting to study its not just 1 day thing

 

[anticel]

quick update on what I think u should do: either try keto rn or go full carnivore and watch frank tufanos "how to get started with carnivore" on youtube, he has like 4-5 vids that are useful.

 

[mvp2v1]

i dont know my mood can change very rapidly by a trigger or even a thought. but its not unjustifiable mood change thats why i think its a joke calling people "just bipolar" . nowadays i dont get mood changes i always feel like shit but sometimes i feel even shittier when i remember some stuff

i wanted to say that the moment i felt depressed or anxious i would give up on studying i couldnt do it at all. and such thing could kickstart a big period of me not wanting to study its not just 1 day thing

dam, whatever is going on with you its the same with me. what you describe regarding mood is exactly how I experience it. You should get your sex hormones tested. My only other explanation is very high testosterone. Very high T results in stronger emotions which can be somewhat similar to bipolarism when it comes to extremism. Also very high T would also cause you to always want to dominate in any area (be the best), and thus you may develop a tendency to go all in on things.

Do you know if people consider you a risk taker? Do you take excessive risks at least compared to others?

 

[anticel]

or go to a gut specialist. if ur bacteria is fucked up it will fuck with ur hormones as well.

 

[Deleted member 16683]

same i feel like i can't live my life or be productive until i get bimax and perfect my face. but that's probably impossible anyways

 

[wollet2]

dam, whatever is going on with you its the same with me. what you describe regarding mood is exactly how I experience it. You should get your sex hormones tested. My only other explanation is very high testosterone. Very high T results in stronger emotions which can be somewhat similar to bipolarism when it comes to extremism. Also very high T would also cause you to always want to dominate in any area (be the best), and thus you may develop a tendency to go all in on things.

Do you know if people consider you a risk taker? Do you take excessive risks at least compared to others?

i think my neurotransmitters are completely fucked and im in not good health, i was always "perfectionist" and extremist from what i remember but only in the sense that i 100% immersed in the thing i enjoyed at the moment. i didnt have extremist beliefs for example. i mean i did but in regards to how i wanted to live in my life and get my pleasures, not related with other ppl

but i had a hormonal panel recently and everything was in check, androgens high both test and dht. brutal its over

 

[mvp2v1]

i think my neurotransmitters are completely fucked and im in not good health, i was always "perfectionist" and extremist from what i remember but only in the sense that i 100% immersed in the thing i enjoyed at the moment. i didnt have extremist beliefs for example.

but i had a hormonal panel recently and everything was in check, androgens high both test and dht. brutal its over

Yep my androgens oscillate between 1.5x and 2.5x above the normal range. If you want dn me a pic of your forhead or cranium shape. I think perhaps the extremism in the sense we discuss is a mix of adhd and high Male sex hormones. I also think our skull sizes being what they are is the result of earlier than average suture closure which is caused (I believe by dht)

 

[wollet2]

dam, whatever is going on with you its the same with me. what you describe regarding mood is exactly how I experience it. You should get your sex hormones tested. My only other explanation is very high testosterone. Very high T results in stronger emotions which can be somewhat similar to bipolarism when it comes to extremism. Also very high T would also cause you to always want to dominate in any area (be the best), and thus you may develop a tendency to go all in on things.

Do you know if people consider you a risk taker? Do you take excessive risks at least compared to others?

my androgens are high and im borderline asexual and even worse. that says all about the state of my destroyed brain.

some years ago i was a fap addict (Sex addict if i would get sex i was too shy to fuck women). lol i would cum at the thought of taking cialis and booking an escort for a weekend and fucking her all day. id get stomach cramps from excitement.

i lost my virginity after my sex drive was lost so i didnt really enjoy it or wanted to get it again

 

[wollet2]

Yep my androgens oscillate between 1.5x and 2.5x above the normal range. If you want dn me a pic of your forhead or cranium shape. I think perhaps the extremism in the sense we discuss is a mix of adhd and high Male sex hormones. I also think our skull sizes being what they are is the result of earlier than average suture closure which is caused (I believe by dht)

oh mine dont go above the limit.

test was 8.2 ng/ml with range being 0.5-10 iirc

dht was 900 pg/ml with range 200-1000