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What are your stories, folks? How has being ugly/below average looking affected your lives? At which point did you swallow the :redpill:/:blackpill: and get into looksmaxxing and (how) did it change your life? What sucks the most in your life?
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I want to be loved, but it isn’t possible
 
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Always been fat and very ugly. Very few women are attracted to me. Played numbers game and it sometimes works. Life would be so much better if I wasn't so ugly.
 
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LondonVillie said:
Always been fat and very ugly. Very few women are attracted to me. Played numbers game and it sometimes works. Life would be so much better if I wasn't so ugly.
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Losing weight is easy and free, fortunately! :)
 
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LondonVillie said:
Always been fat and very ugly. Very few women are attracted to me. Played numbers game and it sometimes works. Life would be so much better if I wasn't so ugly.
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Bewusst said:
Losing weight is easy and free, fortunately! :)
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Easy? I think in theory it is. But cravings in my experience are horrible :(
 
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i'm just autistic, my parents didn't really socialize me properly, they didn't force me to play sports or have playdates with other 3 year olds
i'm not really ugly and so it hasn't affected me in any real way
my life has just been pretty boring because of my moderate autism levels, but it's never been hard tbh
 
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idk im just rotting
dont care about women and sex which is sad
 
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LondonVillie said:
Easy? I think in theory it is. But cravings in my experience are horrible :(
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Well at least compared to risky surgeries. Try finding an alternative source of pleasure other than food.
 
was skinny and ugly most my life. girls made fun of me and guys took advantage of me being smaller and weaker. grew to 6'3 gymcelled and face changed a lot the past year and i get treated like a completely different person. still ldaring tho.
 
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obesecel said:
idk im just rotting
dont care about women and sex which is sad
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It's actually good imo. I don't care about that as well and I have to admit it makes life a little bit easier.
 
Bewusst said:
Well at least compared to risky surgeries. Try finding an alternative source of pleasure other than food.
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Like what? Sex? That’s the only thing on par with food as a dopamine source
 
Bewusst said:
It's actually good imo. I don't care about that as well and I have to admit it makes life a little bit easier.
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i am always conflicted because im getting peer pressured into these thoughts that i should get girls and fuck them..
life without caring about women is truly a blessing but there is a very deep reason/trauma why it happend (for me atleast it was)
 
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obesecel said:
i am always conflicted because im getting peer pressured into these thoughts that i should get girls and fuck them..
life without caring about women is truly a blessing but there is a very deep reason/trauma why it happend (for me atleast it was)
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Bro, I know that feel. Always feel like shit after my best buddy tries talking me into women and says I should approach them. You gotta make clear they should stop and respect your decision.
 
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ZyzzReincarnate said:
was skinny and ugly most my life. girls made fun of me and guys took advantage of me being smaller and weaker. grew to 6'3 gymcelled and face changed a lot the past year and i get treated like a completely different person. still ldaring tho.
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Can you expand on how different you're treated in everyday life?
 
Saranghae said:
Like what? Sex? That’s the only thing on par with food as a dopamine source
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Like music, a hobby or chewing gum if nothing helps silence those cravings. It's important to teach yourself differentiate between appetite and real hunger. Just a question of discipline and patience.
 
Severe mentalcel
 
Sperglord who wants nothing more in life than to live a normie lifestyle. I want friends parties and drugs, every weekend. I sometimes get lucky enough to score some 4-6 pussy but it’s not enough to fill the void of my underdeveloped social skills that seem to form an abyss-like chasm in my chest that makes me want to LDAR or ER

I was naturally redpilled and now I’m blackpilled. Life is bleak and I feel very unenthralled and depressed after learning that I am a normie tier looks wise at best
 
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jock and nerd in catholic HS with onitis best friend whom i was too high inhib to ask out cause (religious parents who brainwashed me with fear). plenty of friends and sane mentality until onitis asks younger guy to prom. she moves to a uni far away to chase some instafaggot shes been following (likely).. I suffer from onitis syndrome for 4 years as i find out she dates a nigger in her first semester. I go through uni, rejecting foids, and ons, and avoiding social invitation/interation and coping with overwatch/league. studying for exams 2 days before. Suicidal and depressed most days but its become like a state of being. 21, too old for authetic interation. currently coping with work, not playing games, gyming, trying to be NT and social maxing but its not the same anymore. life ends at 18 ded srs.
 
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i could have stolen that horse and been halfway across hammerfell
 
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Bewusst said:
Can you describe in more detail?
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Idk how to socialise at all. Im incapable of having fun with people. This happened since I was 16. I developed Paranoid personality disorder. I can't trust anyone.
I was redpilled since 14. Blackpilled at 18. I think the redpill caused me to become a bit of an outcast ngl
 
Vitruvian said:
jock and nerd in catholic HS with onitis best friend whom i was too high inhib to ask out cause (religious parents who brainwashed me with fear). plenty of friends and sane mentality until onitis asks younger guy to prom. she moves to a uni far away to chase some instafaggot shes been following (likely).. I suffer from onitis syndrome for 4 years as i find out she dates a nigger in her first semester. I go through uni, rejecting foids, and ons, and avoiding social invitation/interation and coping with overwatch/league. studying for exams 2 days before. Suicidal and depressed most days but its become like a state of being. 21, too old for authetic interation. currently coping with work, not playing games, gyming, trying to be NT and social maxing but its not the same anymore. life ends at 18 ded srs.
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Holy shit dude, you're wasting the possibly best time of your life for a girl that managed to move on and live hers. You failed at her. Okay. You were young, unexperienced and inhibited. But you need to let her go. Start meeting people, date many women (from what I've read you are able to at least from a looks standpoint) and make yourself happy. You'll probably not even give a second fuck about your oneitis after fucking another girl or two. Sitting around in grief will not get her back. Or is your inhibitions what's really holding you back from living your life and not 'losing' that girl (that you didn't even win)?
 
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Accutane ruined me. Had to take it at age 16.5 and everything went downhill after that. Got depressed and just didn’t feel right in my head anymore. a few years later I find out at that this drug literally inhibits growth hormones and other hormones and directly acts on growth plates. It also shrinks the oil glands in your eyes so you have dry eyes for the rest of your life. Approaching the end of my second course (yes I had to do two) my hair started falling out which kickstarted my male pattern baldness
 
i have been blackpilled since i was born and my life didnt change at all since i found lookism
 
Yahyeet said:
Accutane ruined me. Had to take it at age 16.5 and everything went downhill after that. Got depressed and just didn’t feel right in my head anymore. a few years later I find out at that this drug literally inhibits growth hormones and other hormones and directly acts on growth plates. It also shrinks the oil glands in your eyes so you have dry eyes for the rest of your life. Approaching the end of my second course (yes I had to do two) my hair started falling out which kickstarted my male pattern baldness
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Damn dude, how tall are you? Using Minox for hair loss?
 
Bewusst said:
Holy shit dude, you're wasting the possibly best time of your life for a girl that managed to move on and live hers. You failed at her. Okay. You were young, unexperienced and inhibited. But you need to let her go. Start meeting people, date many women (from what I've read you are able to at least from a looks standpoint) and make yourself happy. You'll probably not even give a second fuck about your oneitis after fucking another girl or two. Sitting around in grief will not get her back. Or is your inhibitions what's really holding you back from living your life and not 'losing' that girl (that you didn't even win)?
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No I was ugly. I did everything right and innocently but I was ugly so it didn't matter. IDC as much anymore , but my wasted youth will torment me until I somehow get female attention again
 
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Can you expand on how different you're treated in everyday life?
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A lot of people are intimidated by me (not people who know me because in person im super chill laid back and goofy tbh) a lot of girls hit me up on snap/insta/tinder/yubo, people treat me with respect and look up to me. before i was talked down to by everyone, nobody would hesitate to say shit to my face, girls passive aggressively bullied me.
 
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Vitruvian said:
No I was ugly. I did everything right and innocently but I was ugly so it didn't matter. IDC as much anymore , but my wasted youth will torment me until I somehow get female attention again
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I see. But you said you'd "reject foids and ons". That sounds like women were interested and approach you but you reject them. If you were ugly to begin with you didn't lose anything and the attention you got was of platonic nature anyway. So even less to be unhappy about.
 
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Damn dude, how tall are you? Using Minox for hair loss?
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Im 5'9, no i don’t use anything just yet. I’ll use minox when it gets too bad. It’s a lifetime commitment and I just recently turned 22 so not that tempted to start it yet
 
Yahyeet said:
Im 5'9, no i don’t use anything just yet. I’ll use minox when it gets too bad. It’s a lifetime commitment and I just recently turned 22 so not that tempted to start it yet
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5'9 isn't too bad. Wouldn't wait to use Minox for too long though because it takes some time to reverse hairloss anyway. If your hairloss isn't genetic (runs in your family) and just a result of Accutane, you probably don't even need to use it forever. Have a look at nutrient deficiencies, especially vitamin D, as Accutane might have depleted those and caused hairloss and other things this way.
 
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5'9 isn't too bad. Wouldn't wait to use Minox for too long though because it takes some time to reverse hairloss anyway. If your hairloss isn't genetic (runs in your family) and just a result of Accutane, you probably don't even need to use it forever. Have a look at nutrient deficiencies, especially vitamin D, as Accutane might have depleted those and caused hairloss and other things this way.
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I did. I have No deficiencies at all. I have 6 bottles of minox but the expiry date is January 2020. do u think I could still use it after that?
 
Only getting kpop fans gooks. Gymcelling currently
 
Yahyeet said:
I did. I have No deficiencies at all. I have 6 bottles of minox but the expiry date is January 2020. do u think I could still use it after that?
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Why do you buy Minox when you plan using it years later?
Dn know, you probably could. At least you won't die from it because it's topical. Google will know better than I.
 
Bewusst said:
Why do you buy Minox when you plan using it years later?
Dn know, you probably could. At least you won't die from it because it's topical. Google will know better than I.
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I got it for free lol I didn’t buy it
 
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Bodydysmorphia, mentalcel + emotionally treated like trash since childhood and living in rather poor conditions.
 
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I can't get laid and I'm invisible to 6+ woman
 
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The Evils of the world have destroyed me. i'm unable to Cope anymore.
 
In kindergarden I would never talk. I wanted the least amount of attention possible. I wanted to be invisible.
In primary school I would always look at the ground. I would never talk. I was a beta that got hit in the balls by a friend and just accepted it.
In high-school I would turn red whenever I had to speak in class. I was never able to initiate a conversation. Funnily, I liked talking to women more.

My life is ruled by my inferiority to other men. All of that because of my fucking height. I have to look up to other men and even some women.

I feel so physically inferior.

I discovered incels and swallowed the blackpill. Before that I tried coping with PUA redpill stuff, but I never tried it out because deep down I knew the blackpill was real.
Since I got blackpilled my anxiety faded away slowly. I discovered this stuff through ER and FACEANDLMS.
I just don't give a fuck about life that much anymore. I hate a lot of people nowadays and I won't accept being humiliated and degraded.

I'm looking forward to getting leg lengthening. My life would seriously be very good if this crucial part, my height, wasn't missing.

TLDR: The blackpill solved some issues regarding my anxiety but it also let me realize that it's completely over for me. This mindset however leads to a idgaf mindset
 
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