Whenever I’m around black people or interact with black people I feel trapped

[macbookpro_2015]

I feel like I can’t be myself, I can’t think straight, and I have to live out a super tight script because I feel like I’m going to hurt their feelings and make them explode and they’re always watching me down to the last micro-gesture and they’re going to pin me as a horrible person and that’s all I’ll ever be to them. And then I feel like I have to do their bidding and swallow their shit because they say that other POC are just as bad or worse than white people and are complicit in white supremacy. The worst thing about all of this is that the discomfort mainly comes from feeling like black people are ugly and primitive so I’m forced to accept how shallow and racist I am on top of everything else. It’s so embarrassing and emasculating to feel this way and the whole dynamic makes me feel like someone’s pet or like someone’s stripping me naked and ripped my balls off in the middle of the street. Even the women are so fucking emasculating. I know it sounds pathetic to you guys and if you’re black maybe it makes you feel alpha but I don’t who else to say this to. I know it’s not just me.

 

[Jgns]

yeah agreed, most of them are just not worth even looking much less interacting with tbh

 

[macbookpro_2015]

yeah agreed, most of them are just not worth even looking much less interacting with tbh

The worst part is they can always use their history and current events to make you feel like you’re obligated to them. And the automatic ego you get from feeling more appealing than them which they can always rip into.

 

[Jgns]

The worst part is they can always use their history and current events to make you feel like you’re obligated to them. And the automatic ego you get from feeling more appealing than them which they can always rip into.

i mean the first part doesnt really matter original sin doesnt work espc when ur not adding on to history. I mean hierarchy is natural, just cause we've created a society where men are cucked doesnt mean it isnt. Black people are unfortunately at the bttm of the totem pole or very close

 

[macbookpro_2015]

i mean the first part doesnt really matter original sin doesnt work espc when ur not adding on to history. I mean hierarchy is natural, just cause we've created a society where men are cucked doesnt mean it isnt. Black people are unfortunately at the bttm of the totem pole or very close

But they can say how someone directly continues original sin for being a certain kind of person and living a certain way and that makes you anxious all over again. And hierarchy in that sense isn’t really a hierarchy of how dominant someone is as an individual. There’s a reason why some black people say “they had to keep us locked up or else they’d piss their pants”. Societal hierarchy aside no one is as naturally existentially dominant as black people are (someone else on org said that not me). Literally everywhere black people go other people are scared of them.

 

[Jgns]

But they can say how someone directly continues original sin for being a certain kind of person and living a certain way and that makes you anxious all over again. And hierarchy in that sense isn’t really a hierarchy of how dominant someone is as an individual. There’s a reason why some black people say “they had to keep us locked up or else they’d piss their pants”. Societal hierarchy aside no one is as naturally existentially dominant as black people are (someone else on org said that not me). Literally everywhere black people go other people are scared of them.

lol thats true, existentially dominant being the lowest population in every society. No matter where they go they objectively bring it down as a society. Thats why its best not to even interact with most of them. I didnt understand the first part btw mb

 

[lowinhibragecel]

what kinda black people r u hanging around

i swear they aren't that bad

 

[macbookpro_2015]

lol thats true, existentially dominant being the lowest population in every society. No matter where they go they objectively bring it down as a society. Thats why its best not to even interact with most of them. I didnt understand the first part btw mb

They'll say something (at least online) like "you've been this way your whole life and that means you're carrying on systemic racism, self-hatred, and white dominion" or "you're a part of this demographic which is a pawn of white supremacy" or how other races are bad to them and a lot of it turns out to be true.

 

[macbookpro_2015]

what kinda black people r u hanging around

i swear they aren't that bad

r/cptsd_bipoc and just browsing around on lipstick alley

When sexually frustrated black women are angry at you it feels like being burned at the stake (but I'm also hypersensitive)

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

Irl black people ive been around have been regular dudes, people online have been psychos, I get what you mean

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

r/cptsd_bipoc and just browsing around on lipstick alley

When sexually frustrated black women are angry at you it feels like being burned at the stake (but I'm also hypersensitive)

Black people feel weirdly entitled to being the most oppressed

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Black people feel weirdly entitled to being the most oppressed

Being legally considered as oppressed actually guarantees power especially if your appearance and ambience is inherently very imposing

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Irl black people ive been around have been regular dudes, people online have been psychos, I get what you mean

I was made to be attached to a so-called friend who acts really racist and it rubbed off on me so now I'm all fucked up. Getting flamed by black people in subreddits didn't help with how I've come to feel about them either.

 

[pleasevanity]

r/cptsd_bipoc and just browsing around on lipstick alley

When sexually frustrated black women are angry at you it feels like being burned at the stake (but I'm also hypersensitive)

bro femcel black women are as volatile as far right incel men they don't represent black men

 

[Whatever]

I honestly don't have this problem with them, nor with any kind of ethnics, there is one ethnicity that my lived personal experience with is extremely negative and that is Jews.

 

[Jgns]

They'll say something (at least online) like "you've been this way your whole life and that means you're carrying on systemic racism, self-hatred, and white dominion" or "you're a part of this demographic which is a pawn of white supremacy" or how other races are bad to them and a lot of it turns out to be true.

too bad im turkish so those arguements dont work on me. But yeah thats gt be annoying for white brah. Irregardless its pointless to argue with people who are so boneheaded ykwim just dnr them or agree with them for the sake of cutting time.

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

I honestly don't have this problem with them, nor with any kind of ethnics, there is one ethnicity that my lived personal experience with is extremely negative and that is Jews.

Jews were always chill with me until the Palestine Israel conflict started gaining attention online

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

Being legally considered as oppressed actually guarantees power especially if your appearance and ambience is inherently very imposing

Being dark skinned curry is like being black with all of the negatives and none of the positives, being medium brown or lightskin can still suck though but not as much, especially if you live in a Latino heavy area you go unnoticed

 

[macbookpro_2015]

bro femcel black women are as volatile as far right incel men they don't represent black men

They seemed like good people (I know it sounds stupid but I was really feeling a lot of sympathy for them)

Also in my original post I was talking about black people altogether not just men

 

[macbookpro_2015]

I honestly don't have this problem with them, nor with any kind of ethnics, there is one ethnicity that my lived personal experience with is extremely negative and that is Jews.

Maybe I'm just a shit person. I've been okay with Jews but they're cliquey

 

[frentanyl]

DNR whiteboy. now run ya pockets

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Being dark skinned curry is like being black with all of the negatives and none of the positives, being medium brown or lightskin can still suck though but not as much, especially if you live in a Latino heavy area you go unnoticed

Come to Edison, NJ

 

[macbookpro_2015]

too bad im turkish so those arguements dont work on me. But yeah thats gt be annoying for white brah. Irregardless its pointless to argue with people who are so boneheaded ykwim just dnr them or agree with them for the sake of cutting time.

In your case they would say "anti-blackness is worldwide" or something like that. At this point I know a lot of their rhetoric is ego maintenance

I'm Asian but have lived in a mostly white town for most of my life so I'm all fucked up inside

 

[macbookpro_2015]

DNR whiteboy. now run ya pockets

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Leave me alone

 

[Whatever]

Maybe I'm just a shit person. I've been okay with Jews but they're cliquey

Honestly I think your problem might be something with your internal dialogue, in your first post you talk about not saying how you feel and now you call yourself a “shit person”. You sound unnecessarily hard on yourself. Also maybe ask how you ended up in some of these situations, getting flamed by blacks on Reddit means you had to go to Reddit and start talking about race with them.

 

[Jgns]

In your case they would say "anti-blackness is worldwide" or something like that. At this point I know a lot of their rhetoric is ego maintenance

I'm Asian but have lived in a mostly white town for most of my life so I'm all fucked up inside

jfl im of royal blood so my ancestors had black slaves LOL, but yeah id just laugh. Dont feed into their rhetoric, its just the best thing normal people can do. The more we feed into it the more entitled and self aggrandizing they become.

Whys are u fucked up inside from that.

 

[macbookpro_2015]

jfl im of royal blood so my ancestors had black slaves LOL, but yeah id just laugh. Dont feed into their rhetoric, its just the best thing normal people can do. The more we feed into it the more entitled and self aggrandizing they become.

Whys are u fucked up inside from that.

Being a whitewashed Asian person comes with its own problems

 

[Jgns]

Being a whitewashed Asian person comes with its own problems

yeah thats fair, i grew up in an area with alot of asians like that they seemed pretty chill tbh. Asians are a good people from what I know, I mean my ancestors were asian lol

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Honestly I think your problem might be something with your internal dialogue, in your first post you talk about not saying how you feel and now you call yourself a “shit person”. You sound unnecessarily hard on yourself. Also maybe ask how you ended up in some of these situations, getting flamed by blacks on Reddit means you had to go to Reddit and start talking about race with them.

I'm naturally unkind and impulsive so I have to constrain myself a lot. I was on a bipoc trauma subreddit.

 

[macbookpro_2015]

yeah thats fair, i grew up in an area with alot of asians like that they seemed pretty chill tbh. Asians are a good people from what I know, I mean my ancestors were asian lol

There's a good amount of family problems behind closed doors

Believe it or not this is the kind of comment that would enrage the black people I interacted with online (they'd day something like "You're dismissing MY own view of MY own life! What do you know about people like me!?")

 

[horseman]

jfl

 

[macbookpro_2015]

jfl

Fuck you

 

[horseman]

Fuck you

Love you too bro

 

[Jgns]

There's a good amount of family problems behind closed doors

Believe it or not this is the kind of comment that would enrage the black people I interacted with online (they'd day something like "You're dismissing MY own view of MY own life! What do you know about people like me!?")

man who gives a fuck about some negros life, u shouldnt feel responsable just cause some retard said u should. Noone else gets to decide how u should feel about shit, dont let some cuck who isnt in control of their life try to have some over urs. And yeah thats fair, everyone has horrible problems behind close doors so i get what u mean.

 

[horseman]

Fuck you

Love you too bro

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

Being a whitewashed Asian person comes with its own problems

Just wanna say man I always really enjoy hearing from you, I relate to your mental struggles a lot as well, I’m a very self conscious and self critical person. You are a good man, just based on what I’ve heard from you, or at least a man who wants to do right

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Just wanna say man I always really enjoy hearing from you, I relate to your mental struggles a lot as well, I’m a very self conscious and self critical person. You are a good man, just based on what I’ve heard from you, or at least a man who wants to do right

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

I'm naturally unkind and impulsive so I have to constrain myself a lot. I was on a bipoc trauma subreddit.

Asians are usually considered less valuable poc in those types of communities, there is a hierarchy, with black people at the top of the oppression ladder, hence why the term bipoc replaced just poc

 

[macbookpro_2015]

man who gives a fuck about some negros life, u shouldnt feel responsable just cause some retard said u should. Noone else gets to decide how u should feel about shit, dont let some cuck who isnt in control of their life try to have some over urs. And yeah thats fair, everyone has horrible problems behind close doors so i get what u mean.

They just come off as really strong and wise/mature (sometimes). I'll try not to get swept up by that. If I'm not what they want then oh well.

 

[Jgns]

They just come off as really strong and wise/mature (sometimes). I'll try not to get swept up by that. If I'm not what they want then oh well.

if they were then theyd be in a better position, id say asian people come off as wise and mature, I mean look at how well chinas doing rn they own the world. Listen to ur kind rather than any of theirs

 

[macbookpro_2015]

if they were then theyd be in a better position, id say asian people come off as wise and mature, I mean look at how well chinas doing rn they own the world. Listen to ur kind rather than any of theirs

Yeah

 

[macbookpro_2015]

Asians are usually considered less valuable poc in those types of communities, there is a hierarchy, with black people at the top of the oppression ladder, hence why the term bipoc replaced just poc

True. I have a lot to learn.

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

yeah thats fair, i grew up in an area with alot of asians like that they seemed pretty chill tbh. Asians are a good people from what I know, I mean my ancestors were asian lol

You’re like 90% Anatolian if you’re Turkish

 

[Jgns]

You’re like 90% Anatolian if you’re Turkish

nah im of royal blood im more oghuz, my great grandma was straightup chinese looking lol. tbh i dont know my bloodline well at all I just know some parts but I do know I dont have the mixture of a common turk nigga

 

[americanpakitruvcel]

nah im of royal blood im more oghuz, my great grandma was straightup chinese looking lol. tbh i dont know my bloodline well at all I just know some parts but I do know I dont have the mixture of a common turk nigga

Oh interesting, you ever consider getting a dna test? I’d be interested to hear the results

 

[Jgns]

Oh interesting, you ever consider getting a dna test? I’d be interested to hear the results

i acc am, though im too lazy for it rn, if i were to ever ill let u know what they are, out of everyone on this forum i prolly have some of the most ambigous and weird dna ever. Shits genuinely so weird