Kei_TheTrueAdam
Kei_TrueAdam
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When my grandfather died my entire family was crying and stuff, but I genuinely didn’t give a shit which made me feel like a bad person so I put on a sad face and comforted them.
After that I started thinking about what’d happen if my parents were to die. I wouldn’t feel sad about their deaths, I’d be more sad about the fact that I no longer have providers and would pity myself. And I also worried about how I’d survive if they did die.
However if a dog were to die in a movie I’d instantly feel sad for it, and if I were to watch an innocent man getting killed by cops on youtube I’d feel sad for him as well.
And if a school shooter were to kill a buncha kids in my school, I wouldn’t give a shit about those kids and would pity myself for being there. And I thought about what’d happen if one of the dead kids were a friend of mine, and instantly I thought I’d exploit the situation to stay out of school as long as possible.
I don’t understand why I feel this way, why is my empathy so misdirected.
After that I started thinking about what’d happen if my parents were to die. I wouldn’t feel sad about their deaths, I’d be more sad about the fact that I no longer have providers and would pity myself. And I also worried about how I’d survive if they did die.
However if a dog were to die in a movie I’d instantly feel sad for it, and if I were to watch an innocent man getting killed by cops on youtube I’d feel sad for him as well.
And if a school shooter were to kill a buncha kids in my school, I wouldn’t give a shit about those kids and would pity myself for being there. And I thought about what’d happen if one of the dead kids were a friend of mine, and instantly I thought I’d exploit the situation to stay out of school as long as possible.
I don’t understand why I feel this way, why is my empathy so misdirected.