why does committing cartel torture in my mind calm me down

[PigskinfromPortland]

today i heard construcion sounds which destroyed my sleep, i was thinking of how i would torture him and imagined beautiful blood flowing from head to toe and malforming his organs and sewing him back up. It relaxed me and I got to sleep

 

[ewri]

because you're angry at them, duhhhhh??

 

[PigskinfromPortland]

because you're angry at them, duhhhhh??

yes but Just killing them doesnt do it for me, I need to prolong the torture.