Why

[Rokkstar]

My life sucks so bad, I hate myself. My genetics in every category suck so bad, my body is so bitchmade, it’s like I was supposed to be a foid but God changed the script last second. I have always been a weak scrawny bitch but recently, I wanted to improve, so hey! I decided to start going to the gym. Suprisingly, I was able to bench the bar day one, now, 4 months in and my PR is fucking 35 KG. This already shows you I have terrible strength genetics, furthermore, I recently wanted to start boxing because I thought “hey, if I start boxing maybe I can have more confidence”, I get the motivation to start, guess what? My fucking knees don’t work, I hurt them a while back and they’ve never healed, I’ve been begging my parents to book an appointment but they’ve always told me “it’s nothing” or “do stretches” and now I can’t even fucking jump or do anything which uses a lot of knees. So now I can’t box, to make it worse, I stand at a whopping height of 5’4! So obviously I’m a fucking manlet and get ignored by every single person in class along with hundreds of other stuff which I don’t want to go into as this thread would be too long. Also, this is so embarrassing to say but because of my weak body and manlet height, I literally get scared so bad when men are walking behind me, like impulsively, as if I’m the prey and it’s built in my biology, I feel like a woman when I walk down the street. It gets so bad that I even get scared of kids who are 4 years younger than me. I genuinely can’t do anything man, I just want to be normal. One time I tried to play basketball with my friends but obviously, because of my knee injury I couldn’t run, and because of that I tripped over and it was so embarrassing when they all laughed at me, then they passed the ball to me and the pass power alone (which was not a lot) made me shake and “nearly fall” according to them, also they state that I shake all the time apparently, so I guess that makes me even more of a loser. It makes it even worse because I have bad social anxiety so I literally just stare at the floor and avoid people which makes me a bigger pussy in people’s eyes. Speaking of eyes, I can’t even see out of my eyes outside, I told my parents and they told me again, “it’s just you”, “stop overreacting” ect ect so I can’t get glasses because they won’t let me and now I have to stay in Chinese mode for the rest of my youth until I can buy my own glasses and probably look like an even bigger dork. I can’t even gain weight either, I’ve been around 48kg—50kg for the past 4 months, peaking at 52kg.

Please give me advice.

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

dork

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

now I have to stay in Chinese mode for the rest of my youth

thanks for real post

 

[Vireon]

Holy shit dude. How old are you?

 

[Rokkstar]

thanks for real post

Appreciate it for reading

 

[Rokkstar]

Holy shit dude. How old are you?

17, my bone age is around my chronological, like 16

 

[Doom0]

if plates open use every pharmaceutical you can to maximize your height (there are good threads on this,) hop on androgens to try and compensate (especially in the frame, physique and strength but also just general dimo department), you should also already softmax everything you can+look into surgeries, limb lengthening would save you but its expensive, depending on how bad your face is there are also surgeries for that (implants, DJS, etc), i would also suggest geomaxxing, im geniuenly sorry that you've been dealt such unfortunate cards but this is maybe the only option you have for the life you want.

 

[Rokkstar]

if plates open use every pharmaceutical you can to maximize your height (there are good threads on this,) hop on androgens to try and compensate (especially in the frame, physique and strength but also just general dimo department), you should also already softmax everything you can+look into surgeries, limb lengthening would save you but its expensive, depending on how bad your face is there are also surgeries for that (implants, DJS, etc), i would also suggest geomaxxing, im geniuenly sorry that you've been dealt such unfortunate cards but this is maybe the only option you have for the life you want.

thanks bro, I’ll look into it