blonde slayer
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One of the last copes I have. I've been depressed my whole life and I am 19 right now and it's getting worse each year.
I have almost everything locked in, i study looksmax gymcell do hobbies maximise sleep limit toxic dopamine etc etc etc. I've really tried everything.
I have reached htn and I have an aesthetic physique and I get interest from girls and can get laid from time to time.
I feel empty, the only emotions I feel are anger and sadness. The hedonistic pleasures last for a few seconds.
I've always felt utter loneliness, with friends, with my ex with my parents.
I've went to a therapist who tried to bluepill me so I stopped going to him.
I've always heard the saying that when ur a teenager ur hormones are unstable and ur bound to be depressed and it will pass and so on. But it sound copeish.
It seems to me the more I grind the less happy I become
I have almost everything locked in, i study looksmax gymcell do hobbies maximise sleep limit toxic dopamine etc etc etc. I've really tried everything.
I have reached htn and I have an aesthetic physique and I get interest from girls and can get laid from time to time.
I feel empty, the only emotions I feel are anger and sadness. The hedonistic pleasures last for a few seconds.
I've always felt utter loneliness, with friends, with my ex with my parents.
I've went to a therapist who tried to bluepill me so I stopped going to him.
I've always heard the saying that when ur a teenager ur hormones are unstable and ur bound to be depressed and it will pass and so on. But it sound copeish.
It seems to me the more I grind the less happy I become