will i end up like my father?

[ethnical]

I always wonder if I would end up like my father aka an abusive asshole. I dont want to but I wonder if I will because my brain has been wired a certain way? I would never lay my hands on a woman no matter what she does but what if I change over time? what if I become the person I hate with all of my heart? I really hope I dont. im just worried, therapy doesn't help me i dont have motivation for anything, I haven't left my room in the past 3 days apart from getting my food and showering each day (yes my ankle is sprained but I could at least try make an effort?)

 

[ethnical]

bump

 

[jgrey080]

There's a higher chance that you might be abusive but you seem aware of it so I doubt it

 

[Thief]

Your testosterone is too low to ever be a high T woman beater

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

I always wonder if I would end up like my father aka an abusive asshole. I dont want to but I wonder if I will because my brain has been wired a certain way? I would never lay my hands on a woman no matter what she does but what if I change over time? what if I become the person I hate with all of my heart? I really hope I dont. im just worried, therapy doesn't help me i dont have motivation for anything, I haven't left my room in the past 3 days apart from getting my food and showering each day (yes my ankle is sprained but I could at least try make an effort?)

If your father is someone u looked up to then yeah but considering how your speaking abt him u should be Igh

 

[ethnical]

Your testosterone is too low to ever be a high T woman beater

I have high T like my father but that doesn't have to do with anything, I just wonder if ill end up the same as him. I dont want to, I dont plan on it but what if I do? what if I become a piece of shit? I won't. ill give my child the best life possible no matter my conditions, I want him to know that he is loved.

 

[ethnical]

If your father is someone u looked up to then yeah but considering how your speaking abt him u should be Igh

I dont look up to him but I do love him even after everything he's done

 

[ethnic subhuman]

You are ethnic, right?
If so, you are high T insured
If you roleplay as an ethnic, you are a low t pigsking

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

I dont look up to him but I do love him even after everything he's done

And that’s okay man my mom was also abusive when I was younger and she still sometimes is and I still love her but ik I’ll never become her u feel me

 

[ethnical]

And that’s okay man my mom was also abusive when I was younger and she still sometimes is and I still love her but ik I’ll never become her u feel me

im sorry to hear that and im glad you also dont want to end up like her, I just wonder that if I dont get help now all this anger and pain will resurface once I start living a happy life

 

[Draak77]

I don’t think so
Unless it really took your brain when u were small
I hope u don’t have any mental illness

 

[ethnical]

You are ethnic, right?
If so, you are high T insured
If you roleplay as an ethnic, you are a low t pigsking

no im white thankfully, I chose this name when I made my account because it looked simple and clean

 

[ethnical]

I don’t think so
Unless it really took your brain when u were small
I hope u don’t have any mental illness

I dont think I do, im always extremely happy when I get to meet up with my friends and I always try to expand our friend group when it's possible

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

im sorry to hear that and im glad you also dont want to end up like her, I just wonder that if I dont get help now all this anger and pain will resurface once I start living a happy life

Key word “happy” once u live a happy life you’ll heal bro and that starts with tryna get more NT friends u feel me

 

[ethnical]

Key word “happy” once u live a happy life you’ll heal bro and that starts with tryna get more NT friends u feel me

yeah true but "nt" people here are wannabe gangsters so I think ill stick with the alternative people

 

[iblamegen3tics]

I always wonder if I would end up like my father aka an abusive asshole. I dont want to but I wonder if I will because my brain has been wired a certain way? I would never lay my hands on a woman no matter what she does but what if I change over time? what if I become the person I hate with all of my heart? I really hope I dont. im just worried, therapy doesn't help me i dont have motivation for anything, I haven't left my room in the past 3 days apart from getting my food and showering each day (yes my ankle is sprained but I could at least try make an effort?)

dont become a alcoholic or a drug addict then you should be fine

 

[ethnical]

dont become a alcoholic or a drug addict then you should be fine

yeah the only drugs ill ever do is weed and I dont do it often to keep it in moderation cuz I know it fucks with your brain

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

yeah true but "nt" people here are wannabe gangsters so I think ill stick with the alternative people

Nah wdym bro nt ppl are like the ppl who go out partying on the weekends and tryna hook up with girls and always jestermaxxing

 

[ethnical]

Nah wdym bro nt ppl are like the ppl who go out partying on the weekends and tryna hook up with girls and always jestermaxxing

not in Ireland, they all carry knives and whatnot

 

[iblamegen3tics]

yeah the only drugs ill ever do is weed and I dont do it often to keep it in moderation cuz I know it fucks with your brain

honestly think carts a bit better
weeds a bit too expensive for my liking

 

[ethnical]

honestly think carts a bit better
weeds a bit too expensive for my liking

my aunt grows it so I have very easy access to pure weed

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

not in Ireland, they all carry knives and whatnot

Shit I live in the US bro ig it’s dif here. But still try to fw those ppl bro I started to fw those type of ppl during the summer and im less depressed and less ND

 

[iblamegen3tics]

my aunt grows it so I have very easy access to pure weed

lucky asf if id buy weed instead of cart id be broke otherwise

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

honestly think carts a bit better
weeds a bit too expensive for my liking

Depends I carry a cart everywhere and I finish it in 3 days so I’m spending 30 bucks every 3 so it adds up JFL

 

[iblamegen3tics]

Depends I carry a cart everywhere and I finish it in 3 days so I’m spending 30 bucks every 3 so it adds up JFL

how tf are you using one up every 3 days for me it takes like 2 months and where u getting cart for 30 bucks i pay 60 eur everytime

 

[ethnical]

Shit I live in the US bro ig it’s dif here. But still try to fw those ppl bro I started to fw those type of ppl during the summer and im less depressed and less ND

never, those are the same people that would rob u on the street. I try maintain a good relationship with them but none of them every really wanna fw someone who's different in style or anything really, underground rap scene is growing here though so I might have a chance to meet even more

 

[iblamegen3tics]

Depends I carry a cart everywhere and I finish it in 3 days so I’m spending 30 bucks every 3 so it adds up JFL

u use 0.5 or 1g?

 

[zuffensons]

I always wonder if I would end up like my father aka an abusive asshole. I dont want to but I wonder if I will because my brain has been wired a certain way? I would never lay my hands on a woman no matter what she does but what if I change over time? what if I become the person I hate with all of my heart? I really hope I dont. im just worried, therapy doesn't help me i dont have motivation for anything, I haven't left my room in the past 3 days apart from getting my food and showering each day (yes my ankle is sprained but I could at least try make an effort?)

Yea theres a change just try to limit urself, my dad wasnt necessarly abusive but he got mad at alot of stuff and now the same is happening to me

 

[CorinthianLOX]

No if you sort those mental problems out

 

[ethnical]

Yea theres a change just try to limit urself, my dad wasnt necessarly abusive but he got mad at alot of stuff and now the same is happening to me

yeah, I get mad at my mom a LOT but never with people who are outside of my family, I dont feel empathy for her when she cries. she did do a lot of horrible stuff but she doesn't deserve the hatred I show towards her, do you think this could be all the sadness and pain built up over the short period of my life resurfacing as anger?

 

[ethnical]

No if you sort those mental problems out

Im on anti depressants and adhd medication right now, I dont think they do anything for me though

 

[CorinthianLOX]

Im on anti depressants and adhd medication right now, I dont think they do anything for me though

Go to therapy. Do you live alone?

 

[ethnical]

Go to therapy. Do you live alone?

im in therapy and no i live with my mother but I try minimize contact with her because most of the time when I speak to her she has something to say about how bad of a son I am

 

[zuffensons]

yeah, I get mad at my mom a LOT but never with people who are outside of my family, I dont feel empathy for her when she cries. she did do a lot of horrible stuff but she doesn't deserve the hatred I show towards her, do you think this could be all the sadness and pain built up over the short period of my life resurfacing as anger?

i mean prob , my dad is cool sometimes but if hes pissed he can be a pain in the ass. I used to spar w him and i told him he hits like a bitch and he hit me so hard in the liver i couldnt stand up , wanted to deadass beat his ass later but i deserved it lmao

 

[ethnical]

i mean prob , my dad is cool sometimes but if hes pissed he can be a pain in the ass. I used to spar w him and i told him he hits like a bitch and he hit me so hard in the liver i couldnt stand up , wanted to deadass beat his ass later but i deserved it lmao

nah u didnt deserve that, ur dad just doesn't know how to take a joke imo, uncontrolled reactions like that could also leak into his work life, imagine if he knocked out his boss because he didnt want to give him a raise

 

[zuffensons]

nah u didnt deserve that, ur dad just doesn't know how to take a joke imo, uncontrolled reactions like that could also leak into his work life, imagine if he knocked out his boss because he didnt want to give him a raise

Na we joke around like that he was lauging his ass off when i said the bitch stuff lmao

 

[ethnical]

Na we joke around like that he was lauging his ass off when i said the bitch stuff lmao

ah okay I read it as him getting pissed off lmao my bad

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

how tf are you using one up every 3 days for me it takes like 2 months and where u getting cart for 30 bucks i pay 60 eur everytime

Idk I cheef my shit all day JFL

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

never, those are the same people that would rob u on the street. I try maintain a good relationship with them but none of them every really wanna fw someone who's different in style or anything really, underground rap scene is growing here though so I might have a chance to meet even more

Fair fair

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

u use 0.5 or 1g?

2 grams

 

[iblamegen3tics]

2 grams

my dealer doesnt sell anything above 1g

 

[iblamegen3tics]

Idk I cheef my shit all day JFL

i only get high on the weekends

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

my dealer doesnt sell anything above 1g

Lucky for me I live in US Michigan so I get my shit from the dispensary nigga

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

i only get high on the weekends

I feel u

 

[CorinthianLOX]

im in therapy and no i live with my mother but I try minimize contact with her because most of the time when I speak to her she has something to say about how bad of a son I am

try to move out from her house asap

 

[iblamegen3tics]

Lucky for me I live in US Michigan so I get my shit from the dispensary nigga

damn im in europe and underage dealers most of the time avoid trying to sell to me since im underage

 

[ethnical]

try to move out from her house asap

im only 15, I cant get a job. I really want a fucking job I've volunteered in over 8 different coffee shops and I fucking love it bcs I get to interact with people, dont care if i dont get paid for it it's fun

 

[The Grinch]

Cuck

 

[Tigermoggerlol]

damn im in europe and underage dealers most of the time avoid trying to sell to me since im underage

Brutal nigga I’m 17 and I can STILL get my shit from the dispo JFL but my area is kinda ghettoh

 

[iblamegen3tics]

Brutal nigga I’m 17 and I can STILL get my shit from the dispo JFL but my area is kinda ghettoh

damn atleast you can get it easy