Will I ever have confidence in myself

[Deepfossa.]

I know a lot of you have followed my crazy ascension, and next I’ll be getting a Lefort I, canthoplasty, and lower lid retraction. But something I’ve been wondering is whether I’ll ever actually feel confident in myself.

Right now, I genuinely feel physically sick if someone suddenly pulls out a phone to take a photo. If my hair isn’t perfect or my eyebrows aren’t freshly dyed, I immediately become self-conscious. It’s exhausting constantly feeling like I have to control every little detail before I can be seen.

Do you think that mindset ever goes away? Is there a point where you stop obsessing over every angle and every photo, and just exist comfortably? I look at male models who seem to get photographed from the weirdest angles and still look effortlessly good, and I can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever reach that kind of confidence—or if I’ll always be chasing perfection.

 

[youcouldbetheone]

I know a lot of you have followed my crazy ascension, and next I’ll be getting a Lefort I, canthoplasty, and lower lid retraction. But something I’ve been wondering is whether I’ll ever actually feel confident in myself.

Right now, I genuinely feel physically sick if someone suddenly pulls out a phone to take a photo. If my hair isn’t perfect or my eyebrows aren’t freshly dyed, I immediately become self-conscious. It’s exhausting constantly feeling like I have to control every little detail before I can be seen.

Do you think that mindset ever goes away? Is there a point where you stop obsessing over every angle and every photo, and just exist comfortably? I look at male models who seem to get photographed from the weirdest angles and still look effortlessly good, and I can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever reach that kind of confidence—or if I’ll always be chasing perfection.

never enough theory

 

[Gen1leman]

Idk but I wish you good luck you suffer from success

 

[Deepfossa.]

Idk but I wish you good luck you suffer from success

I make good money, I get with htbs, and honestly hhtbs I have a social media presence I just don’t know what’s going to bring me my happiness

 

[Gen1leman]

I make good money, I get with htbs, and honestly hhtbs I have a social media presence I just don’t know what’s going to bring me my happiness

Good then you need to figure out what makes you genuinely happy if you don't mind asking what you do

 

[Deepfossa.]

Good then you need to figure out what makes you genuinely happy if you don't mind asking what you do

I sell peptides it’s literally free money man, pepole are always gonna want to lose weight have better skin etc etc you already know, but yeah boxing makes me happy but I have to many complications

 

[mangotimer]

I plan on getting my entire face reconstructed

 

[Gen1leman]

I sell peptides it’s literally free money man, pepole are always gonna want to lose weight have better skin etc etc you already know, but yeah boxing makes me happy but I have to many complications

See

 

[Deepfossa.]

See

Yeah but I don’t care about money

 

[Gen1leman]

Yeah but I don’t care about money

Well of course everything important but health firstly at the end of they day different things depend on current situation matter

 

[jeremyy]

Being one of the top boxers in your country could’nt fulfill the void huh

 

[MOGGER4562]

I know a lot of you have followed my crazy ascension, and next I’ll be getting a Lefort I, canthoplasty, and lower lid retraction. But something I’ve been wondering is whether I’ll ever actually feel confident in myself.

Right now, I genuinely feel physically sick if someone suddenly pulls out a phone to take a photo. If my hair isn’t perfect or my eyebrows aren’t freshly dyed, I immediately become self-conscious. It’s exhausting constantly feeling like I have to control every little detail before I can be seen.

Do you think that mindset ever goes away? Is there a point where you stop obsessing over every angle and every photo, and just exist comfortably? I look at male models who seem to get photographed from the weirdest angles and still look effortlessly good, and I can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever reach that kind of confidence—or if I’ll always be chasing perfection.

Take a picture with ur head down and a vid with u talking if u look good then stop being self-conscious and just live