Xangsane
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I'm (23 F) not adjusting well to life after college.
I graduated with a bachelor's degree one year ago, and have been working full-time ever since. I have an office job with an average entry-level salary, a nice supervisor, and friendly colleagues. I even have my own large office with a huge window, a luxury many people don't have.
I know I have it good and am blessed to be in such a situation, but in the back of my mind I'm always thinking: "life was better in college."
In college, I enjoyed learning new things, studying for long hours, and writing papers and such. I enjoyed being able to walk a half mile to a friends house on a weeknight. I enjoyed meeting new men. I enjoyed the schedule being broken up into blocks of time.
Now, I'm too mentally depleted after work to want to learn anything new. Now all my friends are tired after work too, and we hardly see each other. Now I am 20lbs fatter and I don't feel attractive. Now I sit in the same spot in front of a computer for 8 hours.
Work dominates my life, and I am completely disengaged by my work. I have no career ambitions. I dread waking up Sunday through Thursday, because I know I have another day of mundane, pointless work ahead of me. Life is not exciting anymore like it was in college. Just work, work, work, commute.
I think perhaps I should leave my administrative job, and find something better suited. But it doesn't matter what job I'm in, because I'll bring my spoiled attitude with me wherever I go.
I just want to go back to college.
UPDATE: Since I wrote this post, I've been going to the gym everyday. Though I haven't lost any weight yet, my energy level has improved. I also take time in the mornings before work to pray and say thank you for what I have—my family, food on the table, a safe place to live. Doing so puts things in perspective.
Thank you everyone for the kind words and for the advice.