TrueNateJacobs
I just want to be beautiful
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Over the past year, in particular the summer, I have become very popular.
I am a well known and well liked “jock” in my school.
I have always been ND, but by getting out more and being around girls and partying, etc, I have learned how to kind of “mask it” and be NT.
Crazy how the neurodivergence always comes back though.
Whether in short bursts, or week long anxiety attacks.
Tonight I went out to the bar with my friends.
I felt so ND, and self-conscious, and autistic.
Even with people I’ve known for years, I couldn’t make eye contact, I was stuttering, forgetting simple words, making unfunny jokes.
I think it’s why I resort to drinking.
It makes me NT, but without it I usually can’t function in party settings or social gatherings.
Just wanted to share how hellish being a popular ND person can be.
All of this pressure to seem “normal”
One mistake or misstep, and you’re back to being an autistic weirdo with no friends.
I am a well known and well liked “jock” in my school.
I have always been ND, but by getting out more and being around girls and partying, etc, I have learned how to kind of “mask it” and be NT.
Crazy how the neurodivergence always comes back though.
Whether in short bursts, or week long anxiety attacks.
Tonight I went out to the bar with my friends.
I felt so ND, and self-conscious, and autistic.
Even with people I’ve known for years, I couldn’t make eye contact, I was stuttering, forgetting simple words, making unfunny jokes.
I think it’s why I resort to drinking.
It makes me NT, but without it I usually can’t function in party settings or social gatherings.
Just wanted to share how hellish being a popular ND person can be.
All of this pressure to seem “normal”
One mistake or misstep, and you’re back to being an autistic weirdo with no friends.
