All i want is freedom from my mind

[barettrealrx]

So few years ago i was becoming abused dog, in middle scol constantly picked on, even had my pants pulled down once and my shirt ripped, could never fucking catch a break, and i started thinking that al the bullies were christians (theyre slavs) and i realized that under christianity, they would be the ones going to heavn while i would be the one going to down , so i realized tgats not fair, and i said "If u cant beat them, then join em", so I became a christian, keep in mind this was also because i was a gymcel , and was a big follower of redpilled content (Keep in mind most of these redpilled libertarian white guys would prob cuck me thru jbw)
Anyways i became a christian, developed ocd, im atheist now but i constantly keep wottying whether christianity is true, after all all of my prayers were answered in one way or anotger, at leadt the ones i remember, and its difficult to cknvert back since i am convinced that if there is a true religion it iss probably christianity, but if i convert back "just to be safe" i will always have it on my mind that i will the only ine going to hevaen in my family, and i cannot live with that on my conscious, now it is reason why i am planning to use psychedelics to rid me of ocd, i cannot even fucking di something productive or do something enjoyable without thinking "oh what if christianity is true, then u are doung all this in vain"
No matter how much i try i will never be truly free, whether it be from picking on from otgher people or my thoughts, i will never have real peace again tbh

 

[Lynxress]

 

[Variety Jones]

god doesn't exist.

 

[barettrealrx]

god doesn't exist.

Unknowable but i think it is possible to know whether a religion is true or false, i will study christianity a lot

 

[barettrealrx]

god doesn't exist.

It is what i tell myself all the time, but my brain always tells me "You are coping what if god exists then what will you do"

 

[Variety Jones]

Unknowable but i think it is possible to know whether a religion is true or false, i will study christianity a lot

any claim without any proof is false. the only reason you think the existence of god is unknowable is because you're brainwashed. google russell's teapot.

 

[barettrealrx]

any claim without any proof is false. the only reason you think the existence of god is unknowable is because you're brainwashed. google russell's teapot.

I cannot brainwash myself out i know it is irrational i will take pscyhedelics to force myself ouy chance i will get skme christian bs in the trip and delve in deeper into rabbit hole but hey its worth a shot tbh tbh

 

[starvecell]

not even a single word, subhuman potato

 

[northern mogger]

even had my pants pulled down once

did someone see your pp

 

[barettrealrx]

did someone see your pp

Nah shirt covered it tbh

 

[northern mogger]

Nah shirt covered it tbh

was that lucky or do you have big dick halo

 

[barettrealrx]

was that lucky or do you have big dick halo

Im asian its small

 

[barettrealrx]

Im asian its small

Well average like 5.5 inches - 6 inches bonepressed

 

[northern mogger]

Well average like 5.5 inches - 6 inches bonepressed

do you believe its over for your dick
and do you do martial arts

 

[barettrealrx]

do you believe its over for your dick
and do you do martial arts

No

 

[barettrealrx]

do you believe its over for your dick
and do you do martial arts

Nooo

 

[northern mogger]

Nooo

beat up the bullies

 

[northern mogger]

No

so your size dont even matter then

 

[barettrealrx]

beat up the bullies

Differetn high school

 

[northern mogger]

Differetn high school

become the bully

 

[barettrealrx]

become the bully

Im manley

 

[northern mogger]

Im manley

nigga stop rotting here and go beat someone up

 

[barettrealrx]

nigga stop rotting here and go beat someone up

Im in break

 

[northern mogger]

Im in break

its over
do you have friends in school

 

[barettrealrx]

its over
do you have friends in school

Ye

 

[northern mogger]

Ye

you socialmog me, over
by the way, i looked at your profile pic and noticed you have big asymmetry, go to the dentist and tell him to check for asymmetrical bite/upper-lower teeth

 

[barettrealrx]

you socialmog me, over
by the way, i looked at your profile pic and noticed you have big asymmetry, go to the dentist and tell him to check for asymmetrical bite/upper-lower teeth

Just the pic also i dont hang out with any of my friends

 

[northern mogger]

Just the pic also i dont hang out with any of my friends

go get it checked
and same tbh i hang out once a month
do you just rot or play games or do you gymmax and shut

 

[aesthetic beauty]

So few years ago i was becoming abused dog, in middle scol constantly picked on, even had my pants pulled down once and my shirt ripped, could never fucking catch a break, and i started thinking that al the bullies were christians (theyre slavs) and i realized that under christianity, they would be the ones going to heavn while i would be the one going to down , so i realized tgats not fair, and i said "If u cant beat them, then join em", so I became a christian, keep in mind this was also because i was a gymcel , and was a big follower of redpilled content (Keep in mind most of these redpilled libertarian white guys would prob cuck me thru jbw)
Anyways i became a christian, developed ocd, im atheist now but i constantly keep wottying whether christianity is true, after all all of my prayers were answered in one way or anotger, at leadt the ones i remember, and its difficult to cknvert back since i am convinced that if there is a true religion it iss probably christianity, but if i convert back "just to be safe" i will always have it on my mind that i will the only ine going to hevaen in my family, and i cannot live with that on my conscious, now it is reason why i am planning to use psychedelics to rid me of ocd, i cannot even fucking di something productive or do something enjoyable without thinking "oh what if christianity is true, then u are doung all this in vain"
No matter how much i try i will never be truly free, whether it be from picking on from otgher people or my thoughts, i will never have real peace again tbh

Follow God.

 

[barettrealrx]

Follow God.

idc