am i going insane?

[tristanbongo]

i am completely serious.

everything worsened this week.
big mood swings to the point where i would be writing a post about self-acceptance and mindset and deleting my ig account an hour later

extreme paranoia. i cant have people in my blind zone, my heartbeat skyrockets every time i walk in my dorm as i check all the closets and behind the doors. literally 15 minutes ago i got a panic attack in the shower while having shampoo on my head and had too look and keeps my eyes open through pain because i had a feeling something non-human was approaching me.

everyone in public looks suspicious and uncanny to me. i have a feeling that people are going in my direction to kill me with a knife. i no longer use public transportation because there are too many blindspots.

even my brother who is my closest friend and has all my trust seemed off today. i had a feeling that he found out something dark about me and is going to do something to me even though i am not hiding anything.

i dont sleep anymore because i cant have my eyes closed, but i know that my symptoms are not caused by the lack of sleep.

please if you know how to deal with it help me. i cant alert the university and go to the doctors because they will test brain switch-off drugs on me and drop me without documents and money as a homeless person in another city.

i have no history of schizophrenia in my relatives

 

[Psychophilly]

dnr

 

[Ranjeet Dipshit]

YES

 

[tristanbongo]

YES

i understood that my initial question is pointless as the answer is obvious.

now i have to figure out how to block the window and increase door protection and im good

 

[Aypo129]

Are you serious bhai?
Holy shit

 

[Bojack]

You = schizo my boi. Use some optimal/tapping eft to lessen the strain on your mind

 

[tristanbongo]

You = schizo my boi. Use some optimal/tapping eft to lessen the strain on your mind

will try, thank you.

 

[tristanbongo]

You = schizo my boi. Use some optimal/tapping eft to lessen the strain on your mind

i dont think i am schizo though

 

[Bojack]

i dont think i am schizo though

you may be having an episode, i've been dealing with intrusive thoughts too for the past few years. All that helped is the optimal eft and bringing in the holy spirit/god to heal my illness.

 

[Deleted member 2832]

I'm just like you blud

 

[Deleted member 2832]

At least be sure you arr not alone in this

 

[tristanbongo]

you may be having an episode, i've been dealing with intrusive thoughts too for the past few years. All that helped is the optimal eft and bringing in the holy spirit/god to heal my illness.

damn am i going to be like this for years

 

[Bojack]

damn am i going to be like this for years

yea unless you can find a way to fix it through medicine or alternative means. Schizophrenia is no joke. Even after years of me like meditating/medicating I still get hallucinations. But, I think I am at the tail end of it, pray to god/jesus

 

[tristanbongo]

yea unless you can find a way to fix it through medicine or alternative means. Schizophrenia is no joke. Even after years of me like meditating/medicating I still get hallucinations. But, I think I am at the tail end of it, pray to god/jesus

i dont see things, these are only thoughts and instincts.
the problem is that they are not human. they look like humans, but something is off - their mimics and motions are uncanny.
it may be a one singular thing changing bodies, but it only has access to latest and fundamental memories so i crack them pretty easily

 

[Bojack]

i dont see things, these are only thoughts and instincts.
the problem is that they are not human. they look like humans, but something is off - their mimics and motions are uncanny.
it may be a one singular thing changing bodies, but it only has access to latest and fundamental memories so i crack them pretty easily

yeh that's schizophrenia bro, I'm no doctor but I still see stuff like that too. You can say it's spiritual, but they kind of faded away with time. Fek idk, maybe ur haunted bro !

 

[Deleted member 33108]

i dont see things, these are only thoughts and instincts.
the problem is that they are not human. they look like humans, but something is off - their mimics and motions are uncanny.
it may be a one singular thing changing bodies, but it only has access to latest and fundamental memories so i crack them pretty easily

Bro is haunted by demons

 

[Deleted member 27635]

dnr

 

[tristanbongo]

yeh that's schizophrenia bro, I'm no doctor but I still see stuff like that too. You can say it's spiritual, but they kind of faded away with time. Fek idk, maybe ur haunted bro !

idk i realise pretty quickly that it is a product of my imagination and im in no real danger, but it still scares the fuck out of me

 

[Bojack]

idk i realise pretty quickly that it is a product of my imagination and im in no real danger, but it still scares the fuck out of me

hopefully it fades away, mine stuck around for a long time until i started using optimal eft. Even then i still get weird sights, like videos keep buggin out on me in weird ways.

 

[tristanbongo]

hopefully it fades away, mine stuck around for a long time until i started using optimal eft. Even then i still get weird sights, like videos keep buggin out on me in weird ways.

upd: it was just a very long comedown from hash. im like 80% ok now