Orc
diagnosed autist
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Childhood labeled autism destroyed my chances to find happiness through marriage and kids. At the age of 41 I'm resigning myself to be an old maid.
My dream is to be a working class Conservative Christian wife with multiple kids who can make a silk purse out of a sows ear and is a balabusta of household management.
Involved in church, the kids school, and in everything the way I am already. Involved and social and a good parent.
But no guy I ever met in sped ever attained full employment. I don't agree with feminism, but male disinvestment hardened me. Moreover, the next violent police involved tantrum I have, the kids will be taken from me by CPS.
I'm even afraid to marry a man with kids because I will be given a restraining order, for tantrumming, to stay away from any house containing his 19 year old son.
Every single employed guy NT or ND that likes me and is ok with dating an autist is completely different from me. They have an extensive sexual past and often a drug past. I do not and it makes me mad uncomfortable.
Mentally challenged women aren't seen as appropriate for marriage or serious relationships for guys without a past. As soon as they find out I'm Christian and not having premarital sex the acceptance turns to anger.
The question becomes are there any non masking autists women with violent tantrumming on this forum who are religious or a good girl, and have married a guy with high socio sexuality, a drug past, a reformed party animal?
Do you find that's a good fit for you to marry a high body count guy who has been around the block, or do you feel like a fish out of water for being with someone like that? Cuz I really cringe about this guy's past but at the same time he's a nice person.
What are your thoughts?