Of course, I understand and agree.
Ugly growing up and constantly humiliated, shit mom, cuck dad and naturally i’m just weird.
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The thing is now I receive 95% positive reinforcement for looks, but both foids and guys cold approaching me and telling me i’m good looking. I still see myself as trash and forever will.read thisNormies view Victim as Bully - The truth about "Just Punch The Bully in the Face"
Normies always say "I got bullied but then I punched the bully really hard and they stopped." Anyone who has been bullied knows this is bullshit. Bullies usually punch down and it's usually multiple bullies. If you get bullied, it's probably all of society bullying you (looks work...
yeah people initiate conversations, compliment me and shit. They are really receptive, i distance from people constantly. I dont think their is any fixing this either, its like your whole life is shaped around your childhood trauma. I think the validation can heal your brain with time and you can become more low inhib and eventually become sort of NT. Even people like david laid are a bit spergy, but their low inhib. Im praying this fixes with time but i really dont know anymore. PTSD is uncurable in most cases.
I am 23 and I went from being treated like an abused dog to being treated well starting at 17. Hasn’t helped. Idk if it’s curable in my case. My life has just been too shit. I stutter like a bitch and can barely even make eye contact with people unless i’m in one of my rare narcy moods.
There is this drug called vorinostat, which permanatly removes old memeroes and anxiety associated with those memories. Its a gamble though because it can have serios side effects but ive been getting desperate as of late. If i didnt have an abusive stepdad i wouldnt have found this shithole. I sometimes have wishes of going ER honestly on those who ruined my life.
Yeah I get what you’re saying. If I reach my breaking point, I might roid hardcore, take every drug under the sun, schizomaxx etc. my ideal life after 30 is to live in a small cabin in the woods away from society though.
