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Thanks bhai.ure a sensible person
ADE? Who was spinning at this party?
What made u decide not to lie to her and admit u were going solo?Went to a rave yesterday evening in Amsterdam.
Rave started out good at the train-station already. I met a hot blonde girl who was going to the same rave and was really friendly towards me.
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This is her (from whatsapp profile picture)
It was raining a bit and she shared her umbrella with me, so we walking together real close under the umbrella on the way to the rave. We started talking about our drugs use, whom we were going with, and we hit it off because we were both SOLO.
First time I didn't feel judged by other people for the fact I went raving solo. She was excited about the fact I was going solo like her.
We had a lot more good vibes on the way, eventually we arrived at the rave, I got her phone number, and we split up. Didn't meet her again later, but doesn't matter.
Also funny: Because I was vibing with her all the way to the entrance, I forgot to hide all my candy, small bottle of alcohol, some chocolate I brought and some other stuff that would be confiscated when being searched.
The guard that checked me, saw all this illegal shit, looked at me for a second, and just let me go anyways.
Wouldn't have cared much if I lost that stuff, but it's another nice turn of events.
I did my drugs and waited for them to kick-in. Vibe in the mean-time:
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Took 2 hours before they kicked in. Mostly because I have a mentally ill abused dog brain. (For normal people it generally takes an hour or less)
I have to separate myself and really focus my mind on good emotions, let go of my anxiety and fears, before I can really start feeling the euphoria. When I don't do this there's a chance I have a bad trip and I feel terrible the whole night.
Luckily this didn't happen tonight, the drugs came through, and I was ROLLING.
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Eventually met a cool shirtless asian dude who I danced with for ~30minutes. We kept coming up with new dance-moves and then copying the one who made it up for a while. Before it was the other person's turn to make up a new dance move.
Like, one of his dance-moves was him doing the motion of pumping up a tire.
Which I copied, so we were both doing this for like 20 seconds on the rhythm of the beat.
And then I would come up with a new move. I was a barber cutting someone's hair fanatically
Which he would then copy and dance like that for 20 seconds. Rinse and repeat.
Never had such a good time with some random stranger I just met.
On the way back home from the rave, in the train, I noticed a cute girl a few seats across from me who fell asleep (It was like ~8AM). Meanwhile we were arriving at the next train station. I didn't want her to miss her stop, so I went up to her and gently woke her up.
She acted really flustered and was blushing, and made clear to me in an overly shy/difficult way that it wasn't her stop, she needed the next stop.
I noticed her staring at me a few times afterwards.
Then when she arrived at the next stop, before getting off the train she came up to me and hugged me. Thanking me for waking her up.
Absolute life-fuel NGL.
Best life-experience I've had in months. Past raves/parties were somewhat disappointing ngl, I am happy to experience another mogger night once again.
Drug-use isn't as easy as I thought. They generally work as really strong mood-enhancers. So if your mood/vibe is shit, you are not going to have a good time.
im same height as you, 6ft.got it, never go to chaderlands ever in my entire life . Even if i bleach myself and get a bunch of surgeries, im only 6ft and still curry so it would be over. How tall are you btw?
No. Not at all. You are making assumptions about drugs that don't hold in reality.What I hated about acid was feeling like my brain was getting fried. Doesn’t all drugs give you that feeling?
I am severely mentally ill and below average height for dutch standards (6'0)U got good personality and height?
I haven't had sex in the last 6 months. How does that not make me incel.LMAO op claims “incel” btw.
I asked her first who she was with. She responded with being solo. After which I confessed also being solo.What made u decide not to lie to her and admit u were going solo?
Might be doing 2-CB, shrooms or ketamine someday. Where do you get your stuff from?No. Not at all. You are making assumptions about drugs that don't hold in reality.
Shrooms don't whatsoever (did it 4 times now).
Ketamine doesn't. If you use A LOT in an evening, it doesn't feel like your brain is fried, but like your brain is dead. It's a different feeling.
I told my friend once when I used a lot of ketamine: 'I could be fucking the hottest chick ever right now, or get run over by a fucking truck, I would feel the exact same thing: Nothing.'
MDMA only fries your brain if you use A LOT. (More than me at this rave, and that was already a way above average amount).
3-mmc/mephedrone doesn't fry your brain unless you use RIDICULOUS amounts. I've done this in the past and you will get nose-bleeds, heart palpitations and other shit before your brain starts feeling 'fried'.
LSD does fry your brain
2-CB (only did it 3 times) never fried my brain.
shrooms u can buy legally in local store on the streetMight be doing 2-CB, shrooms or ketamine someday. Where do you get your stuff from?
But you’re MuslimMight be doing 2-CB, shrooms or ketamine someday. Where do you get your stuff from?
mirin but im not talking about slaying girls at raves. mdma in private settings would probably work no?mdma makes you hornier indeed. Idk about slaying though, I've been to about ~40 raves so far now and I have never slayed a girl from a rave ever.
I made out with about 10 girls though, but it usually doesn't progress any further than that. But might just be me and my mental illnesses that are the reason for that.
Your circadian rhythm gets completely fucked up for 24-36hours.And how badly do these events fuck up your circadian rhythm?
Dealers? 2-cb and ketamine aren’t legal?shrooms u can buy legally in local store on the street
2-cb and ketamine u need dealers.
WASOOWBut you’re Muslim
Btw last time I did 2cb my brain felt fried. Never got that from acid thoshrooms u can buy legally in local store on the street
2-cb and ketamine u need dealers.
Yeah, that would probably work way better.mirin but im not talking about slaying girls at raves. mdma in private settings would probably work no?
StrangeBtw last time I did 2cb my brain felt fried. Never got that from acid tho
Because you’re using the definition of incel created by a woman. Incel means virgin when excluding hookers.I haven't had sex in the last 6 months. How does that not make me incel.
they are illegal.Dealers? 2-cb and ketamine aren’t legal?
WASOOW
We All Sin Our Own Way
Most of your 'incels' are virgin 'by choice' though.Because you’re using the definition of incel created by a woman. Incel means virgin when excluding hookers.
ropefuel for me, lifefuel for uIt was an insane lifefuel moment. Not ropefuel.
I haven't hugged or touched another human-being intimately in 6 months.
I wrote this interaction down on paper so I can discuss it with my therapist next week ngl.
whether it is ropefuel for you, depends on your own mental interpretation and the conclusions you draw yourself.ropefuel for me, lifefuel for u
Massive cope.Soft-maxxed people can fuck LTB, even with 0 social skills, through online dating apps.
I met a hot blonde girl who was going to the same rave and was really friendly towards me.
This is her (from whatsapp profile picture)
It was raining a bit and she shared her umbrella with me, so we walking together real close under the umbrella on the way to the rave.
On the way back home from the rave, in the train, I noticed a cute girl a few seats across from me who fell asleep (It was like ~8AM). Meanwhile we were arriving at the next train station. I didn't want her to miss her stop, so I went up to her and gently woke her up.
She acted really flustered and was blushing, and made clear to me in an overly shy/difficult way that it wasn't her stop, she needed the next stop.
I noticed her staring at me a few times afterwards.
Then when she arrived at the next stop, before getting off the train she came up to me and hugged me. Thanking me for waking her up.
What a mogger location. Sounds like a great time, I should go solo partying more often too.Your browser is not able to display this video.
molly, then once the highs started wearing off, 3mmc and ketamineWhat a mogger location. Sounds like a great time, I should go solo partying more often too.
What were you taking? Just molly?
Ben and Marcel B2B must have been insane. And yes pan pot is really good too. NICE
didnt see myra.
joyhauser was nice.
enrico was okay.
loved pan-pot.
ben klock & marcel dettmann were nice.
didnt like indira paganotto
Imagine had bad I wouldve felt if sex was the most important thing in my life.View attachment 2507462
Holy fuck OP talked to a women got number didn’t fuck
Danced with a half naked man
AND got a … HUG
Sex is the most important thing in life, it creates more life and every animals strives to have it.Imagine had bad I wouldve felt if sex was the most important thing in my life.
Luckily I felt amazing instead
cant relate to your negativity so not gonna replySex is the most important thing in life, it creates more life and every animals strives to have it.
U can cope with drugs that destroy ur brain all u want but it doesn’t compare lol. Every man chooses stacy pussy over drugs
U will soon, just wait for the comedown lolcant relate to your negativity so not gonna reply
If I fall back into depression, I will just use more drugs and cure it again.
Kill yourself chadWent to a rave yesterday evening in Amsterdam.
Rave started out good at the train-station already. I met a hot blonde girl who was going to the same rave and was really friendly towards me.
View attachment 2505972
This is her (from whatsapp profile picture)
It was raining a bit and she shared her umbrella with me, so we walking together real close under the umbrella on the way to the rave. We started talking about our drugs use, whom we were going with, and we hit it off because we were both SOLO.
First time I didn't feel judged by other people for the fact I went raving solo. She was excited about the fact I was going solo like her.
We had a lot more good vibes on the way, eventually we arrived at the rave, I got her phone number, and we split up. Didn't meet her again later, but doesn't matter.
Also funny: Because I was vibing with her all the way to the entrance, I forgot to hide all my candy, small bottle of alcohol, some chocolate I brought and some other stuff that would be confiscated when being searched.
The guard that checked me, saw all this illegal shit, looked at me for a second, and just let me go anyways.
Wouldn't have cared much if I lost that stuff, but it's another nice turn of events.
I did my drugs and waited for them to kick-in. Vibe in the mean-time:
View attachment 2505997
Took 2 hours before they kicked in. Mostly because I have a mentally ill abused dog brain. (For normal people it generally takes an hour or less)
I have to separate myself and really focus my mind on good emotions, let go of my anxiety and fears, before I can really start feeling the euphoria. When I don't do this there's a chance I have a bad trip and I feel terrible the whole night.
Luckily this didn't happen tonight, the drugs came through, and I was ROLLING.
View attachment 2506000
Eventually met a cool shirtless asian dude who I danced with for ~30minutes. We kept coming up with new dance-moves and then copying the one who made it up for a while. Before it was the other person's turn to make up a new dance move.
Like, one of his dance-moves was him doing the motion of pumping up a tire.
Which I copied, so we were both doing this for like 20 seconds on the rhythm of the beat.
And then I would come up with a new move. I was a barber cutting someone's hair fanatically
Which he would then copy and dance like that for 20 seconds. Rinse and repeat.
Never had such a good time with some random stranger I just met.
On the way back home from the rave, in the train, I noticed a cute girl a few seats across from me who fell asleep (It was like ~8AM). Meanwhile we were arriving at the next train station. I didn't want her to miss her stop, so I went up to her and gently woke her up.
She acted really flustered and was blushing, and made clear to me in an overly shy/difficult way that it wasn't her stop, she needed the next stop.
I noticed her staring at me a few times afterwards.
Then when she arrived at the next stop, before getting off the train she came up to me and hugged me. Thanking me for waking her up.
Absolute life-fuel NGL.
Best life-experience I've had in months. Past raves/parties were somewhat disappointing ngl, I am happy to experience another mogger night once again.
Drug-use isn't as easy as I thought. They generally work as really strong mood-enhancers. So if your mood/vibe is shit, you are not going to have a good time.
docile animal hooked on drugs to run away from and mask his problems. Find the root of ur problems and pull it outIf I fall back into depression, I will just use more drugs and cure it again.
gotta have that happy hitler energy. Don't trust the generals.
I feel a hormonal comedown today. Lack of serotonin/dopamine in my brain.How long does it take for you to come down to baseline dopamine after bingeing meph (nosebleed tier amounts)? Stim binges make me unable to do anything except rot and lacrimate in my bed for days as I come down.
You seem kinda clueless about drugs. Some actually help you find the root of your problem, not hide it or mask it. They don't all work the same.docile animal hooked on drugs to run away from and mask his problems. Find the root of ur problems and pull it out
noKill yourself chad
I guess that's what happens when you use drugs to go out and dance with stacys instead of coom in your basementBut my mind is still in positivity mode, and it keeps a lot of my normal negative thought patterns away, which normally suck far more energy out of me than a lack of hormones.
you are right.I guess that's what happens when you use drugs to go out and dance with stacys instead of coom in your basement
Bet she costs the same as the entire night per visitIt was an insane lifefuel moment. Not ropefuel.
I haven't hugged or touched another human-being intimately in 6 months.
I wrote this interaction down on paper so I can discuss it with my therapist next week ngl.
no, 6'0 is the average height of male Dutch zoomers.I am severely mentally ill and below average height for dutch standards (6'0)
includes ethnics/foreigners/immigrantsno, 6'0 is the average height of male Dutch zoomers.
would you say your height affects the quality of your social life there? Dating, respect from men etc.?includes ethnics/foreigners/immigrants
native dutch average is 6'2 tbh
its neutral for me most of the time.would you say your height affects the quality of your social life there? Dating, respect from men etc.?
and what do you think is the minimum good height (and I mean good, not bare minimum to be acceptable) is there?its neutral for me most of the time.
But in highly competitive environments, like trendy clubs/bars etc. it's a disadvantage for me.