Homeschooling ruined my life, I can never recover. goodbye thread

[Deleted member 17791]

Being homeschooled caused catastrophic damage to my mental and physical health.

If you ever have kids, DO NOT HOMESCHOOL THEM

I was looking at some old pictures my family took of me (there are hardly any) and I'm always awkward and out of place. I should black out my face in every image taken, so there are no records of my worthless existence.

If I'm not a pathetic retard, this should be my last thread I will ever make. I have taken the ultimate blackpill, all hope is gone now, I hate myself more than anything. I don't want help.

Just remember one thing, homeschooling is death. If you are homeschooled, it is over for you. It's over for me, never began actually.

I'm sorry if I ever lashed out at you before.

 

[Baldingman1998]

Cuz no social development?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Cuz no social development?

Yes. I'm completely socially impaired.

 

[Unhuman]

What hobbies do you have?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

What hobbies do you have?

i have none, nothing is enjoyable anymore

 

[Deleted member 17791]

I'm taking a bath right now.

I was watching an old youtube video of a channel that I used to watch. I can barely remember it now.

I can't remember back when I was actually happy. I don't even have my memories left.

 

[height]

Do something else

 

[Bipedal Dog]

Makes sense tbh

 

[Nims]

Cuz no social development?

Yeah thats 100% what it is I was educated quite well in public and private schools and yet I am exactly the same as OP because of being a mentalcel which stopped me from making friends.

I can't remember back when I was actually happy. I don't even have my memories left.

Are you depressed because you have no friends or smth?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Makes sense tbh

will you heed my advice?

Yeah thats 100% what it is I was educated quite well in public and private schools and yet I am exactly the same as OP because of being a mentalcel which stopped me from making friends.


Are you depressed because you have no friends or smth?

Im depressed because I realised just how shit my life is so far and that I can only look forward to autism and isolation

 

[190cm90kg]

sport and extracurricular would have helped

 

[Deleted member 17791]

sport and extracurricular would have helped

too late now

 

[Over]

all hope is gone now

Blast 500mg T you have nothing to lose and turn yourself into a fucking unit

 

[Unhuman]

will you heed my advice?


Im depressed because I realised just how shit my life is so far and that I can only look forward to autism and isolation

This is my life too.

 

[Mediterranean]

too late now

Stop letting temporary emotions cause you to make the permenant decision of ending your life. You gain nothing from suicide. Just keep living cuz chances are life will get better. Btw you rlly dont wanna risk being reincarnated as a 5 foot 2 curry in the slums of mumbai

 

[Fxdzcki]

See you tomorrow

 

[Deleted member 22126]

Same im roping goodbye

 

[Gonthar]

Where are you going?

 

[Deleted member 18840]

Being homeschooled caused catastrophic damage to my mental and physical health.

If you ever have kids, DO NOT HOMESCHOOL THEM

I was looking at some old pictures my family took of me (there are hardly any) and I'm always awkward and out of place. I should black out my face in every image taken, so there are no records of my worthless existence.

If I'm not a pathetic retard, this should be my last thread I will ever make. I have taken the ultimate blackpill, all hope is gone now, I hate myself more than anything. I don't want help.

Just remember one thing, homeschooling is death. If you are homeschooled, it is over for you. It's over for me, never began actually.

I'm sorry if I ever lashed out at you before.

Don’t do me this bhai

 

[JBcollector]

Die

 

[balding17yomanletcel]

kill yourself.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Where are you going?

Im going to disappear. I know exactly how I will do it. I'm going to sleep and have a never ending dream.

Don’t do me this bhai

Get stroma and ascend for me.

Stop letting temporary emotions cause you to make the permenant decision of ending your life. You gain nothing from suicide. Just keep living cuz chances are life will get better. Btw you rlly dont wanna risk being reincarnated as a 5 foot 2 curry in the slums of mumbai

my struggles have plagued me for my entire life and I've never been happy.

I don't give a shit about that saying from people who have zero idea of what it's like.

muh you're just temporarily sad bro.

Blast 500mg T you have nothing to lose and turn yourself into a fucking unit

that's worse than death

 

[Gonthar]

Im going to disappear. I know exactly how I will do it. I'm going to sleep and have a never ending dream.

How exactly would you do that?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

How exactly would you do that?

a plastic bag. I'm sitting with it in my room. I plan on using it when I get tired so I fall asleep.

Unfortunately I have insomnia so it'll take several hours for me to get tired.

 

[Deleted member 22124]

Please cuddle me to sleep instead mjau mjau

 

[Pharmaceutic]

Being homeschooled caused catastrophic damage to my mental and physical health.

If you ever have kids, DO NOT HOMESCHOOL THEM

I was looking at some old pictures my family took of me (there are hardly any) and I'm always awkward and out of place. I should black out my face in every image taken, so there are no records of my worthless existence.

If I'm not a pathetic retard, this should be my last thread I will ever make. I have taken the ultimate blackpill, all hope is gone now, I hate myself more than anything. I don't want help.

Just remember one thing, homeschooling is death. If you are homeschooled, it is over for you. It's over for me, never began actually.

I'm sorry if I ever lashed out at you before.

I'll let you know if Chris Ulmer accepted our generous mentorship in the afterlife, bro. Godspeed

Seriously speaking tho, this seems like pretty fatalistic thinking. You're probably around 20-24, your brain in all likelihood is not even done maturing as of yet. You should be a little more optimistic about what the future has to hold, and not give up on yourself

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Please cuddle me to sleep instead mjau mjau
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I'm dressed as my fav character now. Watching it felt like having actual friends
The show actually is part of why I going to do it now but Im happy I saw it. It's very important to me.

nya!

one last cuddle!

*hugs

I'll let you know if Chris Ulmer accepted our generous mentorship in the afterlife, bro. Godspeed

Seriously speaking tho, this seems like pretty fatalistic thinking. You're probably around 20-24, your brain in all likelihood is not even done maturing as of yet. You should be a little more optimistic about what the future has to hold, and not give up on yourself

Im not even 20 yet.

I've been unable to improve, I'm too defective.

 

[Pharmaceutic]

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nya!

one last cuddle!

*hugs

Im not even 20 yet.

I've been unable to improve, I'm too defective.

Not even 20, yeah. Your personality isnt even done forming yet, youre biologically still a teenager. Give yourself time and start thinking in terms of solutions rather than problems. Turn "I'm defective" into "how can I be less defective?". Meditate and be at peace with yourself. That's all the general advice someone could give you in your context. May sound a little cliche or uninspired but it works, trust. Godspeed with your journey

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Not even 20, yeah. Your personality isnt even done forming yet, youre biologically still a teenager. Give yourself time and start thinking in terms of solutions rather than problems. Turn "I'm defective" into "how can I be less defective?". Meditate and be at peace with yourself. That's all the general advice someone could give you in your context. May sound a little cliche or uninspired but it works, trust. Godspeed with your journey

I'd hate to grow up.

I'll make sure not to walk into the light. I'll avoid all the entities like the plague.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

@Eriot Lodger alright, I'm going to leave when it reaches 9:00.

 

[Pharmaceutic]

I'd hate to grow up.

I'll make sure not to walk into the light. I'll avoid all the entities like the plague.

You say that now, but it's very possible for your perspective to do a 180 degree turn in the future. You still have a long while until your brain is even done developing fully. Moreover, basically everyone finds their social niche sooner or later, so you're likely to be quite happy once you do find it

 

[Deleted member 17791]

You say that now, but it's very possible for your perspective to do a 180 degree turn in the future. You still have a long while until your brain is even done developing fully. Moreover, basically everyone finds their social niche sooner or later, so you're likely to be quite happy once you do find it

I'm not going to rapidly develop social skills. I haven't improved since I was 14

 

[Pharmaceutic]

I'm not going to rapidly develop social skills. I haven't improved since I was 14

Key word "rapidly". No war is won overnight. Yes, you'll need to put in a whole lot of willpower and to get yourself out of your comfort zone quite a bit. That's not the problem here, because given enough time you definitely will develop those finer social skills (it's literally just a matter of longer term exposure, because we are hardwired for these kinds of social dynamics, your instinct will help along the way given enough time).

The real problem here is the degree to which you are willing to commit. It's not that you're unfixable, it's that you're depressed and couldn't imagine yourself going through the long uncomfortable process of fixing your flaws, let alone actually doing it. Too much overthinking and too much time spent in sameness is what I imagine is the problem. Start by building confidence in yourself and your body. Read up on meditation techniques, pick up some more intensive sports and get out there and switch between many types of environments. You will definitely notice how your entire perceptional framework in regards to your personal issues shifts

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Key word "rapidly". No war is won overnight. Yes, you'll need to put in a whole lot of willpower and to get yourself out of your comfort zone quite a bit. That's not the problem here, because given enough time you definitely will develop those finer social skills (it's literally just a matter of longer term exposure, because we are hardwired for these kinds of social dynamics, your instinct will help along the way given enough time).

The real problem here is the degree to which you are willing to commit. It's not that you're unfixable, it's that you're depressed and couldn't imagine yourself going through the long uncomfortable process of fixing your flaws, let alone actually doing it. Too much overthinking and too much time spent in sameness is what I imagine is the problem. Start by building confidence in yourself and your body. Read up on meditation techniques, pick up some more intensive sports and get out there and switch between many types of environments. You will definitely notice how your entire perceptional framework in regards to your personal issues shifts

I'll tell you what. If it ends up failing. I'll take your advice.

 

[Pharmaceutic]

I'll tell you what. If it ends up failing. I'll take your advice.

May the watchful gaze of Chris Ulmer guide you

 

[Deleted member 20631]

If you survive hopefully you don’t go brain dead so you can atleast learn and move on from this. Your social development is just stunted it’s not something that can’t be fixed.

I wish I could help you man, it would be sad if you died you’re one of the funniest users here

 

[Deleted member 17791]

May the watchful gaze of Chris Ulmer guide you

I have one more cope.

before



after


Do you notice any actual significant change in eye colour?

If you survive hopefully you don’t go brain dead so you can atleast learn and move on from this. Your social development is just stunted it’s not something that can’t be fixed.

I wish I could help you man, it would be sad if you died you’re one of the funniest users here

Im funny to laugh at.

 

[ihatereddit]

I feel the same. I forgot what it's like to be happy. It was so long ago. Now I'm old and it's over. At least you are young though.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

I feel the same. I forgot what it's like to be happy. It was so long ago. Now I'm old and it's over. At least you are young though.

Ten more minutes

 

[Corleone]

Yes. I'm completely socially impaired.

who would have thought that the gay anime girl avi guy was socially crippled.

Homeschooling and then letting their deranged dorky kids freely roam the internet is a recipe for disaster.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

Ten more minutes

It’s sad that it’s come to this hopefully there’s an afterlife waiting for you

 

[Deleted member 17791]

who would have thought that the gay anime girl avi guy was socially crippled.
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Homeschooling and then letting their deranged dorky kids freely roam the internet is a recipe for disaster.

they fucked up bad when raising me

It’s sad that it’s come to this hopefully there’s an afterlife waiting for you

maybe I'll go to a happier universe.

 

[reborn]

too late now

How old are you bro? 80?

 

[reborn]

they fucked up bad when raising me


maybe I'll go to a happier universe.

Just get a job where you can train social interactions. It will take a while but eventually you will become a normal human being.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

How old are you bro? 80?

what does it matter?

I'm 19

 

[reborn]

what does it matter?

I'm 19

It's not too late when you are 19 man!

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Just get a job where you can train social interactions. It will take a while but eventually you will become a normal human being.

I've already learnt just how evil people are. I cannot unlearn that.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

they fucked up bad when raising me


maybe I'll go to a happier universe.

Goodbye friend

 

[Pharmaceutic]

I have one more cope.

before
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after
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Do you notice any actual significant change in eye colour?


Im funny to laugh at.

It's a little greener but nothing unexpected for differing lighting conditions

 

[reborn]

I've already learnt just how evil people are. I cannot unlearn that.

Yeah some of them are evil motherfuckers for real. Still as you get more and more experienced you'll learn how to deal with them and how to find the ones that are ok.