Sexually Disabled
Kraken
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The guilt for what I have done I cannot hold onto any longer, I have become a monster, I have never shared this information with anyone else before up until recently. I have especially been careful not to leak this information onto the bodybuilding industry fearing they would just steal this knowledge and use it for money without even giving me a cut of it.
Not even my own mother knows, well I am actually physically unable to tell her. You see when she was a baby she went mysteriously missing and was never seen since, and her body was never found. I don't know what happened to her, I feel so guilty about it as if I was the reason for her disappearance.
I kinda blew up a couple days ago, I couldn't hold onto this guilt any longer. I recently told a friend of mine who I met at the hospital waiting for his wife to deliver his baby (known him for about a week to this day) about my problem.
This is how he responded: "Whoa man that is pretty messed up, I think you need therapy".
I am telling you about this here now to get your input on this advice, I do not know if I should go a long with it knowing I might jailed having the therapist snitch on me. I just wouldn't be able to survive in a prison, I wouldn't be able to sustain my mass eating prison food and following a normal training plan. You know what I mean, I know what I need to sustain this mass and it would not be available in jail.
What should I do I am heartbroken, please what should I do? And yes I am also addicted to smoking crack.
Not even my own mother knows, well I am actually physically unable to tell her. You see when she was a baby she went mysteriously missing and was never seen since, and her body was never found. I don't know what happened to her, I feel so guilty about it as if I was the reason for her disappearance.
I kinda blew up a couple days ago, I couldn't hold onto this guilt any longer. I recently told a friend of mine who I met at the hospital waiting for his wife to deliver his baby (known him for about a week to this day) about my problem.
This is how he responded: "Whoa man that is pretty messed up, I think you need therapy".
I am telling you about this here now to get your input on this advice, I do not know if I should go a long with it knowing I might jailed having the therapist snitch on me. I just wouldn't be able to survive in a prison, I wouldn't be able to sustain my mass eating prison food and following a normal training plan. You know what I mean, I know what I need to sustain this mass and it would not be available in jail.
What should I do I am heartbroken, please what should I do? And yes I am also addicted to smoking crack.
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