i am having some issues of my mental health

[normal boy]

after my grand mother died i am having some thoughts about killing my family subconsciously one night i i had knife andi wanted to kill myself too but i came to my senses i dont know what is wrong with me i feel extremely guilty and want to cry every time i have thought of harming my familyi feel like i am the worst of all but i have a mechanism u seei would kill myself way before i would hurt my family i hate lookism i hate foids but i have a loving mother and sister so i dont know what to do how can i stop these thoughts i lockk myself in my room for12 hours a day scrolling on org and doing other rotter work asi am unemployed now i have forgot how to even talk correctly i have been disconnected from my family i am seriously having nightmares about my future

 

[normal boy]

bump

 

[thonstuff]

after my grand mother died i am having some thoughts about killing my family subconsciously one night i i had knife andi wanted to kill myself too but i came to my senses i dont know what is wrong with me i feel extremely guilty and want to cry every time i have thought of harming my familyi feel like i am the worst of all but i have a mechanism u seei would kill myself way before i would hurt my family i hate lookism i hate foids but i have a loving mother and sister so i dont know what to do how can i stop these thoughts i lockk myself in my room for12 hours a day scrolling on org and doing other rotter work asi am unemployed now i have forgot how to even talk correctly i have been disconnected from my family i am seriously having nightmares about my future

dnr

 

[justaloser]

after my grand mother died i am having some thoughts about killing my family subconsciously one night i i had knife andi wanted to kill myself too but i came to my senses i dont know what is wrong with me i feel extremely guilty and want to cry every time i have thought of harming my familyi feel like i am the worst of all but i have a mechanism u seei would kill myself way before i would hurt my family i hate lookism i hate foids but i have a loving mother and sister so i dont know what to do how can i stop these thoughts i lockk myself in my room for12 hours a day scrolling on org and doing other rotter work asi am unemployed now i have forgot how to even talk correctly i have been disconnected from my family i am seriously having nightmares about my future

dnr but if u wanna kill people just kill random foids at night

 

[Nebelix28]

First Piece of advice: leave this forum

 

[CookiekingFAN]

after my grand mother died i am having some thoughts about killing my family subconsciously one night i i had knife andi wanted to kill myself too but i came to my senses i dont know what is wrong with me i feel extremely guilty and want to cry every time i have thought of harming my familyi feel like i am the worst of all but i have a mechanism u seei would kill myself way before i would hurt my family i hate lookism i hate foids but i have a loving mother and sister so i dont know what to do how can i stop these thoughts i lockk myself in my room for12 hours a day scrolling on org and doing other rotter work asi am unemployed now i have forgot how to even talk correctly i have been disconnected from my family i am seriously having nightmares about my future

Hey man, I can tell you’re in a really dark place right now, and I’m really sorry you’re going through this. What you’re describing sounds terrifying and painful — losing someone, feeling disconnected, and having those kinds of thoughts can really mess with your mind.

Please hear this: the fact that you feel guilty about those thoughts means you still have a good heart. You’re not evil or broken — you’re just in a lot of pain, and your mind is trying to make sense of it. That pain can twist into scary thoughts, but they don’t define who you are.

You don’t have to keep fighting this battle alone. There are people who can help you feel safe again — not just “professionals,” but real humans who care. If you’re in danger or ever close to hurting yourself, please call your local emergency number or reach out to 988 (if you’re in the U.S.), or visit findahelpline.com for free, private support anywhere in the world.

 

[kahi]

Tell your family and see a therapist if this is serious affecting you I can tell you from experience and try to relax man

 

[kahi]

Deadass wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone people will laugh but this shit doesn't feel good