I am no one, therefore i am everyone

[BigBallsLarry]

You're like the Ned Flanders of .org

I haven't watched the simpsons, is he cool?

 

[BigBallsLarry]

We are charlie kirk

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I dunno, you never talk about your gooner self when you’re talking to me.

I am no gooner

 

[aryanroidfaper]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @
[/QUOTE]
Honestly feel the same man I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing with my life and my social interactions or lack thereof

 

[Trilogy]

I haven't watched the simpsons, is he cool?

He's known for having a really nice but plain personality

 

[BigBallsLarry]

He's known for having a really nice but plain personality

The comparison makes sense then

 

[Hunter]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @Insomnia

same.
i've alr chose being real

 

[Hunter]

i like to say "i think therefore i am" to be myself

 

[Grievous]

I used to be like this
You've gotta realise it doesn't matter if some dude hates on u hes got a life too and things to deal with rather then js thinking about u
And If ur friends with everyone ur friends with no one like techno said
Stop being a suck up and stop caring so much
Find people u relate too

 

[savage21]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @Insomnia

Be real nigga. Don’t have to try to find some sort of rationale in what everyone is saying. People pleasing isn’t good. Be real.

 

[Daddy's Home]

I can't relate. In real life, most people see me as very cool, precisely because I remain real and down to earth, but also because I can and know how to argue my point of view, regardless of whether someone agrees with it or not..

I tend not to go easy on anyone unless the situation requires it..

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I tend not to go easy on anyone unless the situation requires it..

Same here, i was always a 'people pleaser' but i can be strict when needed..

 

[surgerymaxxingsoon]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @Insomnia

 

[surgerymaxxingsoon]

Ong this thread gave me goosebumps

 

[imontheloose]

And if you're friends with everyone, you're friends with no one.

Exactly. You understand the issue well, because we already talked about it. Aw man.

@wishIwasSalludon @Mainlander down the existential pipeline they go till pessimism

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Why sad mang? This isn't anything particularily bad, it's just an observation about my personality that i noticed.

 

[surgerymaxxingsoon]

Why sad mang? This isn't anything particularily bad, it's just an observation about my personality that i noticed.

Last thread I was on it made me sad so I’m already kinda sad

 

[BigBallsLarry]

@wishIwasSalludon @Mainlander down the existential pipeline they go till pessimism

I was always a pessimist and nihilist.. Recently not as much though, i am trying to see the positives more and more but there aren't many.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Last thread I was on it made me sad so I’m already kinda sad

What thread did you see?

 

[BlondeVoid]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @Insomnia

Nigga thinking out the box

 

[surgerymaxxingsoon]

What thread did you see?

The other thread made me remember the things I regret like giving away

 

[imontheloose]

I was always a pessimist and nihilist.. Recently not as much though, i am trying to see the positives more and more but there aren't many.

You’re probably more an absurdist or existentialist, very few are actually nihilistic. Life has no positives, it’s fundamentally neutral as is everything within it.

 

[Mess]

Have you always been like this? No distinct or grounded personality?

Mirroring is not necessarily a bad thing. You said, "And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person." Can mirroring, itself, not be described as a personality? I mean, everyone's personality is a blend of environment and genetics, so really everyone is an amalgamate of everyone. Everyone is everyone.

I guess you're just genetically coded to be agreeable and observant. Again, not necessarily a bad thing.

 

[Mess]

Life has no positives, it’s fundamentally neutral as is everything within it.

Life is inherently nothing. Gotta make it something.

 

[africel]

isnt this just a personality disorder thing

 

[BigBallsLarry]

You’re probably more an absurdist or existentialist, very few are actually nihilistic. Life has no positives, it’s fundamentally neutral as is everything within it.

Absurdism sounds accurate, yes.

I could talk for hours with peakincels or other users about meaninglessness. Back when he was still active i'd talk with SaSu users aswell.. But i try to not think about it nowadays.

Sad to see him gone.

 

[imontheloose]

Life is inherently nothing. Gotta make it something.

I rebuke this absurdism cope. I enjoy pessimism with my cup of tea. I’m going to write a book on my beliefs which no one will read

 

[BigBallsLarry]

isnt this just a personality disorder thing

What personality disorder could it be? I have aspergers but that counts towards the autism spectrum.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

I rebuke this absurdism cope. I enjoy pessimism with my cup of tea. I’m going to write a book on my beliefs which no one will read

I'll read it bhai, i love reading books like these.

 

[Mess]

I rebuke this absurdism cope. I enjoy pessimism with my cup of tea.

Can't we just all hold hands and get along?
I honestly don't even want equality, fuck equality. I want hierarchy, and I want to be at the top of this hierarchy.

I’m going to write a book on my beliefs which no one will read

 

[imontheloose]

Absurdism sounds accurate, yes.

I could talk for hours with peakincels or other users about meaninglessness. Back when he was still active i'd talk with SaSu users aswell.. But i try to not think about it nowadays.

Sad to see him gone.

Sasu users are retarded. I use the site myself with the same name as here. They want comfort, not death. Nothing wrong with that, but don’t take their posts serious unless they’ve booked their tickets. Even then, from my interactions on there, the problems are all about life’s unfairness and overall sadness instead of life’s meaninglessness.

@PeakIncels and I are the same. We are one and always will be.

 

[africel]

What personality disorder could it be? I have aspergers but that counts towards the autism spectrum.

depends on if you actually meet criteria but probably something cluster b, it could be that you don't have a stable sense of self and that shows up in bpd and npd, but if you don't have any other cluster b traits its probably just neurodivergence

 

[Gengar]

I am no gooner

See. I made you be you.

 

[imontheloose]

Can't we just all hold hands and get along?
I honestly don't even want equality, fuck equality. I want hierarchy, and I want to be at the top of this hierarchy.

Life is unfair. Everything within it is a hierarchy since it is perfectly natural. The strong kill the weak, such is life.

 

[imontheloose]

I'll read it bhai, i love reading books like these.

Thank you. I’ll translate it to German. Wille zum Tode.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

Sasu users are retarded. I use the site myself with the same name as here. They want comfort, not death. Nothing wrong with that, but don’t take their posts serious unless they’ve booked their tickets. Even then, from my interactions on there, the problems are all about life’s unfairness and overall sadness instead of life’s meaninglessness.

@PeakIncels and I are the same. We are one and always will be.

I'm glad to see him and you were so close, he was easily one of the best people i've met on here. An amazing and intelligent man. I hope he found his peace.

And yes, most sasu users are copers that haven't accepted reality or just don't want to accept it, but some are genuine down to earth people.

 

[BigBallsLarry]

See. I made you be you.

 

[Mess]

Life is unfair. Everything within it is a hierarchy since it is perfectly natural. The strong kill the weak, such is life.

Yeah, the whole idea of empathy in contemporary times has been warped into the idea of equality. I'm not sure on why that's happened, humanity is cruel and must remain cruel. Cruelty has always been survival.

 

[imontheloose]

Yeah, the whole idea of empathy in contemporary times has been warped into the idea of equality. I'm not sure on why that's happened, humanity is cruel and must remain cruel. Cruelty has always been survival.

I try be kind to everyone. Eventually with enough of their struggles removed, they will see how pointless life is. I will write about this extensively.

 

[greycel]

I feel this. I was like you too:

my only social interaction is from looksmax.org - I will not have enough looks to go outside until ~2030

I am a 20 years oldcel and DBDR patreon donator. I talk irl but only when needed, so “sup, good how are you, yup, got it, alright, sure, that’s cool” are the only things I say on a typical week day. i haven’t had discord in 2 years. I haven’t had instagram, Snapchat, any social media for 3...

looksmax.org

You need to remind yourself to:
1. enforce boundaries
2. don't bend the knee to what you know to be right

 

[Mess]

I try be kind to everyone. Eventually with enough of their struggles removed, they will see how pointless life is. I will write about this extensively.

So you say that kindness brings about nihilism? Quite a contrast to the modern view.
Do you think that malevolence also brings about nihilism? Is life just an all roads lead to Rome journey to hate?

 

[TechnoBoss]

@wishIwasSalludon @Mainlander down the existential pipeline they go till pessimism

 

[imontheloose]

So you say that kindness brings about nihilism? Quite a contrast to the modern view.
Do you think that malevolence also brings about nihilism? Is life just an all roads lead to Rome journey to hate?

If you remove one’s struggles, he has no reason to live. You persist in life because you’re battling a struggle of sorts; once your struggles are removed, you are left in solitude to, finally for once, think. The moment you have no struggle to overcome is the moment you realise life is pointless. This would occur in everyone.

If communism could be executed perfectly, it would cause mass-suicide because of this. Most are too preoccupied with struggles to have to think or remain in solitude for long enough for this to happen.

Malevolence is more likely to give one reason to live instead of make them a doomer. They have something/someone to hate and that is their life fuel. If one truly has nothing to hate and is sufficient how he is, he will certainly commit suicide. No doubt about it.

 

[Mess]

If you remove one’s struggles, he has no reason to live.

That's true. Many retirees are depressed after they're left to their own devices.

You persist in life because you’re battling a struggle of sorts; once your struggles are removed, you are left in solitude to, finally for once, think. The moment you have no struggle to overcome is the moment you realise life is pointless. This would occur in everyone.

I remember when you said that consciousness was a grave mistake. I get what you mean. The key reason as to why there was no term for suicide in ancient tribes is because they were majorly concerned with physical struggles. Getting food, tending to children, etc. But, once you can live past basic substance, you begin to think of greater questions.

You soon progress past the questions of the body, and start asking questions of the soul and existence (I don't really believe in a soul, I'm quite a physicalist). The two big questions are these. "Why do I exist?" and, "What happens when I die?" Once you come to the conclusion that you come from inexistence and return to inexistence, you realise that life is inherently meaningless.

This is where I differ from your point of view. If this is my brief moment of existence, then I want to make the most with it. Sadly, my entire body, soul, and mind are physical. I can't exist for some false God, nor can I exist for fear of death. My whole experience dies with my decaying flesh.

If communism could be executed perfectly, it would cause mass-suicide because of this. Most are too preoccupied with struggles to have to think or remain in solitude for long enough for this to happen.

So you believe that life is struggle? With no struggle, there is no life.

 

[imontheloose]

This is where I differ from your point of view. If this is my brief moment of existence, then I want to make the most with it. Sadly, my entire body, soul, and mind are physical. I can't exist for some false God, nor can I exist for fear of death. My whole experience dies with my decaying flesh.

It’s all neutral. Happiness is an electric impulse in your brain primitively existing to act as a reward system for acts you should repeat. You’re no different than Skinner’s rat who was electrically shocked till it learnt how to prevent the shock. You’re in a constant stimulus-response game and that is all it is. I don’t chase happiness at all (anymore than any human can since we both share the same mechanism in our brains). Happiness is just one big reminder that I’m trapped in a shitty game.

So you believe that life is struggle? With no struggle, there is no life.

No. Life is death. Without death, you’re just in a constant horizontal line of meaningless events. Struggle is merely what preoccupies the brain as you detailed very well in the paragraphs before: humans were not meant to reason the complexities of life and the universe; left to itself, sentience ruins man, he needs struggle lest he be destroyed.

That isn’t to say life is struggle nor is the converse true. Life is death, as is its converse. Death is the ultimate perfection, a beautiful thing, it remains life’s only certainly.

 

[Mess]

It’s all neutral.

And neutrality is neither good nor bad, it's meaningless.

No. Life is death. Without death, you’re just in a constant horizontal line of meaningless events. Struggle is merely what preoccupies the brain as you detailed very well in the paragraphs before: humans were not meant to reason the complexities of life and the universe; left to itself, sentience ruins man, he needs struggle lest he be destroyed.

Boredom kills. You especially notice it as a child, you object from boredom. You do anything to keep the boredom at bay, or completely ignore the boredom. For example, when a child is done playing with a toy, he grows bored and leaves it. Likewise, a person who grows bored of his life will soon leave his life behind.

I see that everything in life is supposed to push you away from the looming boredom. Hedonism (as life was mostly intended) keeps your human desires always filled. Food, sex, etc. These activites are rewarded with positive brain chemicals, as they are generally the furthest things away from boredom. That's why criminals love the thrill of crime, boredom is gone.

As a human, you will always be bored. In death, you will never be bored. You won't be able to be bored.

Death is the ultimate perfection, a beautiful thing, it remains life’s only certainly.

How exactly do you interpret death? Is death a glorious end, an ultimate flatline to life's inevitable decline? Is death just release from suffering? Or is our death nothing to fear, as it is only apparent when we do not exist?

 

[CantStopTheMog]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, aswell as had many people like @TechnoBoss point it out to me.

I don't really have a particular personality. It always mirrors or adjusts based on who i am talking to. I mirror people and i adapt to their behavior. I act in whatever way feels safest at the moment.

I am quieter around people that are confident
I am understanding and patient around people that are sad
I laugh around people that are funny and outgoing
I act small and lenient around people that act dominant.

And it's not because I'm fake or because I'm selfish, it's only because i want to be liked. The uncomfortable truth in this is, that the more you try to be loved, the more personality you lose, and the more of 'yourself' you actually erase.

I am loved by many, but I'm not close to anyone except a select few.

I don't have or share strong opinions unless i know they'll be accepted by everyone.

I never fully disagree with anyone, unless i know what I'm saying is 100% the truth. I avoid conflict like it's the plague, i want no part of it.

I don't want anyone to think 'this larry guy is stupid', because it breaks me and my illusion of self worth.

So after all of this, i end up being no one.

But what i noticed with being 'no one', is that paradoxically, by being no one, you're also everyone.

I can fit anywhere, i can belong in most groups, speak any language, share any hobby. I can be relatable to everyone, but at the same time ignored by everyone.

And when I'm not watched by anyone, when there's no one to mimic or cling to - i am simply a sad excuse of a person. Rotting away, living day by day, with no one to appeal to and no one to compliment my behavior.

It's strange realizing, that being liked by everyone can feel lonelier than being disliked by a few.

Maybe i need to act upon that realization

At some point in life, i need to choose between being liked or being real.

@Daddy's Home @Orka @Jason Voorhees @Insomnia

DNR but if it’s abt being a different person with everyone u meet based on how u wanna be perceived in their eyes
Then that’s me also

 

[imontheloose]

Boredom kills. You especially notice it as a child, you object from boredom.

Your parents may have told you the common proverb, “the devil makes work for idle hands”.

How exactly do you interpret death? Is death a glorious end, an ultimate flatline to life's inevitable decline? Is death just release from suffering? Or is our death nothing to fear, as it is only apparent when we do not exist?

Yes, I think death is beautiful, the ultimate perfection. We should not fear death at all, death is life and its converse.

 

[Brazilec]

teenager ramblings ahhh