i can leanmaxx without problems, BUT it wrecks me psychologically

[SchizoParanoid_]

less libido, less motivation, more fatigue, less competitiveness, more emotional thinking, less inhibition (this can come in handy sometimes tho) less self steem, its not that i feel like shit while cutting, its that i feel so much better when in a slight surplus, its like my brain switches to female mode , but the thing is, seeing my face getting leaner, more veins, more muscle definition etc makes me want to keep cutting, but what use is it to look good if i get such negative side effects? inb4 inject T