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I keep seeing some worthy candidates every day but i cant stop pinpointing their flaws which stops me from developing feelings for them. That old oneitis of mine looks so angelic, i get stabbing pain in the chest looking at her pics.
I thought i became a noboby that i couldnt feel, yet the first surge of emotions i had in months is pain and anger, angry at my sefl betraying mind. I can uderstand being subhuman, i can understand not being gl, its against the odds, but your brain developing an oneitis on a girl it shouldnt is so enraging. You cuck yourself.
And i try hard to get over her but it just comes back in the end and i end up liking her more even though i shouldnt cause she despises me. She looks so inoocent and awakward you could never guess she is slut. I will never escape it, fuck, its a mental illness at this point.
I thought i became a noboby that i couldnt feel, yet the first surge of emotions i had in months is pain and anger, angry at my sefl betraying mind. I can uderstand being subhuman, i can understand not being gl, its against the odds, but your brain developing an oneitis on a girl it shouldnt is so enraging. You cuck yourself.
And i try hard to get over her but it just comes back in the end and i end up liking her more even though i shouldnt cause she despises me. She looks so inoocent and awakward you could never guess she is slut. I will never escape it, fuck, its a mental illness at this point.
