Nerug
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I'm 5'9 and a half, I know it's not much but I've never felt that unhappy with my height, I know that so far I did everything I could to be this height (I started at around 5'7 about a year ago, years apart from my last growth spurt, I'm 18 for the record) and I'm constantly aware that people have it way worse than me, so sure, I've been insecure about it but never severely unhappy. today I asked her some stuff about my appearance, I'd like to point out that she's pretty short, about 5'4-5'5, I've been seeing her for a while but we've never discussed about how we feel about eachother, but this time I asked her jokingly how she felt about the way I look, (I'd say facially I'm MTN) although she never explicitly told me if she thought I looked good or not, she did call me cute sometimes and that's more than enough for me, this time I specifically asked if there's some things about me she doesn't like physically, I was expecting her to mention most of the stuff she did end up mentioning, for example, she said my skin tone looked a bit feminine, which is true, and isn't that much of a flaw after all, she also mentioned my hair but not in a directly negative way, either way I did agree with most of the stuff she said, and I was okay with that, until she just straight up ended the quote with "oh and you're short" and in that moment my whole expression just dropped and I just felt the biggest stomach ache of my life, I've never felt so empty inside by something somebody said about me, I genuinely wanted to throw up in that moment as all the times where I found myself stressing about my height flashed Infront of my eyes, while she just casually kept talking to be as she didn't just ruin my entire day with a single sentence, I've been crying my eyes out for the last 30 minutes and I just don't know why it hurts so much, I guess it really hurts when it comes from someone you care about, at the end of the day it's really just about looks and every time I try to convince myself it's not like that and that maybe I have a chance at a normal life everything just falls apart and I'm reminded of how ruthless the world can be, from now on all my looks improvement journey will be only focused on gaining the most height possible, I don't care what it takes, I just want to be worth something to someone for a single moment in my life, feel free to help me out if you have any advice, I'd do anything. Literally.