I hate everything including myself (rant)

[Mvgnums]

I'm just here to rant and let this out, or whatever this is boiling within me. I know I seem like a bitch, I probably am. My family sees me as a fucking joke, and I hate it. I hate myself. My dad is successful but still very hardworking; everyone but me has jobs; I just feel like a disappointment. I'm given that golden spoon, but it's just there for display. Am I just retarded? Not good-looking, antisocial, short; I'm a fucking waste of life. I'm semi-decent at games, and that's about it. Don't want to sound like a pick-me, but I'm a fucking loser. Even though I try to better myself, I feel like it's never enough to the standards the world has set. Why am I so greedy and selfish? I have no plans for the future; I don't even know what I want to be at 19. Everyone else around me seems so motivated and hopeful for their career. Does hope only stick to those who are destined for it? I'm trying to do better, be better, but I can't. I probably sound retarded asf, and who knows, most likely that's the case.

 

[Matt Fat]

I'm just here to rant and let this out, or whatever this is boiling within me. I know I seem like a bitch, I probably am. My family sees me as a fucking joke, and I hate it. I hate myself. My dad is successful but still very hardworking; everyone but me has jobs; I just feel like a disappointment. I'm given that golden spoon, but it's just there for display. Am I just retarded? Not good-looking, antisocial, short; I'm a fucking waste of life. I'm semi-decent at games, and that's about it. Don't want to sound like a pick-me, but I'm a fucking loser. Even though I try to better myself, I feel like it's never enough to the standards the world has set. Why am I so greedy and selfish? I have no plans for the future; I don't even know what I want to be at 19. Everyone else around me seems so motivated and hopeful for their career. Does hope only stick to those who are destined for it? I'm trying to do better, be better, but I can't. I probably sound retarded asf, and who knows, most likely that's the case.

twin

 

[veryplump67]

I'm just here to rant and let this out, or whatever this is boiling within me. I know I seem like a bitch, I probably am. My family sees me as a fucking joke, and I hate it. I hate myself. My dad is successful but still very hardworking; everyone but me has jobs; I just feel like a disappointment. I'm given that golden spoon, but it's just there for display. Am I just retarded? Not good-looking, antisocial, short; I'm a fucking waste of life. I'm semi-decent at games, and that's about it. Don't want to sound like a pick-me, but I'm a fucking loser. Even though I try to better myself, I feel like it's never enough to the standards the world has set. Why am I so greedy and selfish? I have no plans for the future; I don't even know what I want to be at 19. Everyone else around me seems so motivated and hopeful for their career. Does hope only stick to those who are destined for it? I'm trying to do better, be better, but I can't. I probably sound retarded asf, and who knows, most likely that's the case.

Some people need more time to figure out their career. Your still young, ur only 19. And for you own good, stop comparing yourself to others. Ur not them and their not you. We are all diffrent people. I feel like right now you have bad thoughts eating up on you and u have to relax. If you are truly ugly nothings stopping you from doing what yoy can to atleast make yourself feel better. Kep you head up your strong and we all go through tuff shit