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Iron
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I literally have nothing, no interests, no passions, no hobbies, i dont like doing anything and i dont enjoy anything, nothing at all. I try to get on social media so i maybe at least get cheap dopamine hits but that isnt even doing anything anymore, im not even into shit i used to do just for entertainment because no video games or anything to watch is fun , i have no hobbies,i dont even like any music i genuinely like nothing, i have no personality im just a robot , an empty fucking husk of a person.Im 17 turning 18 soon and i just moved to a new city for uni, for over a month ive been trying anything to at least have some friends, since the first day of uni when noone had friends either i initiated and talked to people , ive approached over 10 people overall , people and groups , and I still dont even have friends. I even try to be more laid back with some and let it flow but no nothing, with some i try to say lets hang out on the breaks at least and they just blow me off, and before you say im an autist, im genuinely not i had friends in hs and i talk normally about shit everyone else talks about just about the classes or teachers or whatever else is happening just small talk, and now everyone else has friends and friend groups , going out every other day living the uni experience but for me? no even though i tried , even the same people that blew me off have friends theyre hanging out with ,shit some people even found girls already. The worst part is I cant find any objective reason this is happening, im 187 cm im pretty muscular since ive been lifting for a while ,according to everyone else in my city and people who are brutally honest with me my face is at worst above average and according to them i should easily be getting girls,ive grown my hair out , i have improved my style ,im clean with clean clothes, i dont smell, i groom myself and everything like that, i even got into the best school possible, everything objective i can do but apparently im just a fucking reject when it comes to social life. Oh and to top it off im khhv ive never even had female friends or fucking anything. its so fucking over and i cant do anything about it i always thought if i just tried to initiate it would work but no ,now im just a fucking cockroach unwanted by everyone in my little fucking house all day doing nothing, the worst part is that im actually an extrovert and want to talk to people and hang out but i guess im just an unloveable unwanted little wretch.