I have nothing and nobody its actually over

[gorie]

dw bro, i know how you feel. (and im serious) But im gonna tell you and just peep in, you have until age 25 until it really starts getting over. you are turning 18!!! its not over, you are deadass putting yourself in a shitty mood, probably repost sad tik toks and get sad tik toks and you came in here which let me tell you!! all of these people will not make you feel better. They will litereally just make you feel shit and that is gonna make your mood even worse and what i am trying to say is that YOU SHOULD RELIGIONMAX, TAKE ANTI DEPRESSANT OR GET OF MEDIA AND FIND A HOBBY!!!!

and if you know what you are doing is wrong and you know what you can do to fix it but willing not too because you like feeling sad but hate it

just find God then im being so serious

and go check doctors if you have any neuro divergesions or any type of mental sickness, depression, ADD, ADHD, autism, or idfk just seek help please.

i want to agree, i really do but uni has already started,circles have already formed, if i wasnt able to find anyone at the start when it was easiest even with putting in effort then its futile,after uni it will be even worse, everything,from jobs to fulfillment is achieved through people,a plane of existence i seem to live outside of , also i dont repost any tiktoks i try to still be cheerful irl and avoid interacting with sad content but just thinking makes me realize so much of the truth in whats happening that i cant stand it, i cant even stop it by doing something else or keeping busy or being outside for obvious reasons, also about finding a hobby, i have tried sports,geeky hobbies, even just watching movies or whatever but nothing gets anything out of me, im in the same neutral state i always am through all of it.

for the second message, i know something is wrong, something is deeply wrong in my brain or something but i am unable to grasp it, i have tried fixing my life as it is by attempting hobbies , sociality and everything that would make me a person but nothing ever works, i cant even make fake friends. I dont think i have any neurodivergence like autism or anything though

 

[gorie]

Idk that’s uni freshman age. Isn’t it normal for people to start doing different activities when they go to college

Music is super important for socialising with NTs I think, if you don’t have a real music taste it’s shameful

maybe it is in america or the uk or something but here it isnt all that common, people who did sports just keep doing them and the others at most start the gym
also i know that everyone cares about music but i really am not lying when i say i dont enjoy it, i dont like any of it and none of it makes me hyped up or excited or happy or even sad, its like im just waiting for the song to end to say i listened to it

 

[Pikabro]

maybe it is in america or the uk or something but here it isnt all that common, people who did sports just keep doing them and the others at most start the gym
also i know that everyone cares about music but i really am not lying when i say i dont enjoy it, i dont like any of it and none of it makes me hyped up or excited or happy or even sad, its like im just waiting for the song to end to say i listened to it

I agree man, it’s too hard to get into music. Just feels like a chore

 

[hopecel]

I literally have nothing, no interests, no passions, no hobbies, i dont like doing anything and i dont enjoy anything, nothing at all. I try to get on social media so i maybe at least get cheap dopamine hits but that isnt even doing anything anymore, im not even into shit i used to do just for entertainment because no video games or anything to watch is fun , i have no hobbies,i dont even like any music i genuinely like nothing, i have no personality im just a robot , an empty fucking husk of a person.Im 17 turning 18 soon and i just moved to a new city for uni, for over a month ive been trying anything to at least have some friends, since the first day of uni when noone had friends either i initiated and talked to people , ive approached over 10 people overall , people and groups , and I still dont even have friends. I even try to be more laid back with some and let it flow but no nothing, with some i try to say lets hang out on the breaks at least and they just blow me off, and before you say im an autist, im genuinely not i had friends in hs and i talk normally about shit everyone else talks about just about the classes or teachers or whatever else is happening just small talk, and now everyone else has friends and friend groups , going out every other day living the uni experience but for me? no even though i tried , even the same people that blew me off have friends theyre hanging out with ,shit some people even found girls already. The worst part is I cant find any objective reason this is happening, im 187 cm im pretty muscular since ive been lifting for a while ,according to everyone else in my city and people who are brutally honest with me my face is at worst above average and according to them i should easily be getting girls,ive grown my hair out , i have improved my style ,im clean with clean clothes, i dont smell, i groom myself and everything like that, i even got into the best school possible, everything objective i can do but apparently im just a fucking reject when it comes to social life. Oh and to top it off im khhv ive never even had female friends or fucking anything. its so fucking over and i cant do anything about it i always thought if i just tried to initiate it would work but no ,now im just a fucking cockroach unwanted by everyone in my little fucking house all day doing nothing, the worst part is that im actually an extrovert and want to talk to people and hang out but i guess im just an unloveable unwanted little wretch.

you're just an NPC aspie mentalcel

 

[gorie]

you're just an NPC aspie mentalcel

i dont even know what this means

 

[hopecel]

i dont even know what this means

go back to Discord

 

[gorie]

go back to Discord

what would it cost you to at least tell me something that could help? or at least give me better understanding?I know im a mentalcel but im trying to figure out why exactly, also i dont have autism or anything

 

[hopecel]

what would it cost you to at least tell me something that could help? or at least give me better understanding?I know im a mentalcel but im trying to figure out why exactly, also i dont have autism or anything

you're an NPC, you have no personality, it's not like I know what would you like to do when you don't like anything by your own words

if you're not a subhuman and supposedly not autistic, it's all about your personality and social awkwardness... find some interesting hobbies, do dopamine detox (that's how you're going to reset dopamine receptors for music, movies, niche hobbies etc) and leave this shithole before it ruins you even further

 

[gorie]

you're an NPC, you have no personality, it's not like I know what would you like to do when you don't like anything by your own words

if you're not a subhuman and supposedly not autistic, it's all about your personality and social awkwardness... find some interesting hobbies, do dopamine detox (that's how you're going to reset dopamine receptors for music, movies, niche hobbies etc) and leave this shithole before it ruins you even further

i agree that this is not the way to improve but i already said that i have nothing in terms of personality or liking things ,its not like i chose it or it is my fault as a result of not trying or anything, it just is, i want to improve, i want to be better, i want to be normal, if i knew how i would have done it long ago, also i have no probelm approaching people and theres not really akwardness in my interactions so idk if thats realy the problem

 

[hopecel]

i agree that this is not the way to improve but i already said that i have nothing in terms of personality or liking things ,its not like i chose it or it is my fault as a result of not trying or anything, it just is, i want to improve, i want to be better, i want to be normal, if i knew how i would have done it long ago, also i have no probelm approaching people and theres not really akwardness in my interactions so idk if thats realy the problem

I told you, your problem is that you're an NPC by what you described yourself

you have to be interesting to be around with other people

 

[gorie]

I told you, your problem is that you're an NPC by what you described yourself

you have to be interesting to be around with other people

then how do i become interesting? i get that you become interesting through your experiences but you need to have something to get experience in like a hobby or friends or some simmilar environment

 

[hopecel]

then how do i become interesting? i get that you become interesting through your experiences but you need to have something to get experience in like a hobby or friends or some simmilar environment

I'm a no lifer and I barely have any friends but I'm kinda interesting to the normies because I'm special and different from others

listen, read, watch, learn, experience - that's how you'll become more interesting

 

[depressionmaxxing]

what are you talking about, getting what out of you specifically

Knowledge, methods, things i had to figure out and others still can‘t

 

[gorie]

I'm a no lifer and I barely have any friends but I'm kinda interesting to the normies because I'm special and different from others

listen, read, watch, learn, experience - that's how you'll become more interesting

i appreciate you trying to help but i really dont get it, i mean i doubt just consuming more content is going to help at all, i want to go outside and experience the world im tired of being trapped in these virtual world man i just want to experience the outside, could you maybe be more specific maybe that would help

 

[gorie]

Knowledge, methods, things i had to figure out and others still can‘t

if youre talking about talking methods i think that trying to learn it from a book is going to just isolate me even more but thats just my thought idk

 

[hopecel]

i appreciate you trying to help but i really dont get it, i mean i doubt just consuming more content is going to help at all, i want to go outside and experience the world im tired of being trapped in these virtual world man i just want to experience the outside, could you maybe be more specific maybe that would help

you simply can't not listen to music in 2024, it's extremely weird to normies... even if you dislike mainstream music it's better to listen to something alternative rather than nothing... how can you socialize with someone when you have nothing to speak about? I have a friend irl who's also extremely shy and on top of that he has no other topics to speak about except uni/studying... it's just boring and inauthentic

if you want to find friends irl, you must have something interesting to talk about, you must follow the trends, you better should know everything that's popular... otherwise, you're not NT (not in autistic way), they see you as an NPC... so just be authentic, and you can find new people wherever including uni, gym/sports, insta etc

 

[HighLtn]

I literally have nothing, no interests, no passions, no hobbies, i dont like doing anything and i dont enjoy anything, nothing at all. I try to get on social media so i maybe at least get cheap dopamine hits but that isnt even doing anything anymore, im not even into shit i used to do just for entertainment because no video games or anything to watch is fun , i have no hobbies,i dont even like any music i genuinely like nothing, i have no personality im just a robot , an empty fucking husk of a person.Im 17 turning 18 soon and i just moved to a new city for uni, for over a month ive been trying anything to at least have some friends, since the first day of uni when noone had friends either i initiated and talked to people , ive approached over 10 people overall , people and groups , and I still dont even have friends. I even try to be more laid back with some and let it flow but no nothing, with some i try to say lets hang out on the breaks at least and they just blow me off, and before you say im an autist, im genuinely not i had friends in hs and i talk normally about shit everyone else talks about just about the classes or teachers or whatever else is happening just small talk, and now everyone else has friends and friend groups , going out every other day living the uni experience but for me? no even though i tried , even the same people that blew me off have friends theyre hanging out with ,shit some people even found girls already. The worst part is I cant find any objective reason this is happening, im 187 cm im pretty muscular since ive been lifting for a while ,according to everyone else in my city and people who are brutally honest with me my face is at worst above average and according to them i should easily be getting girls,ive grown my hair out , i have improved my style ,im clean with clean clothes, i dont smell, i groom myself and everything like that, i even got into the best school possible, everything objective i can do but apparently im just a fucking reject when it comes to social life. Oh and to top it off im khhv ive never even had female friends or fucking anything. its so fucking over and i cant do anything about it i always thought if i just tried to initiate it would work but no ,now im just a fucking cockroach unwanted by everyone in my little fucking house all day doing nothing, the worst part is that im actually an extrovert and want to talk to people and hang out but i guess im just an unloveable unwanted little wretch.

 

[depressionmaxxing]

if youre talking about talking methods i think that trying to learn it from a book is going to just isolate me even more but thats just my thought idk

Lmao we‘re two diffrent people, i don‘t think you‘d understand what i mean