I HAVE to -maxx my last year before college

[slaviccel migrant]

Spoiler: serious, wordswordswords, holy yap

Greetings niche community of looksmax.org lul:),

I'm a new member, and I haven't been here before, so please treat me with understanding.

I doubt that anyone from my acquaintances will recognize or seek me out here, so here's some (boring) information information about me.

I come from Ukraine and I moved to Poland 9 years ago with my parents when I was a kiddo. I speak Polish, Ukrainian, and Russian fluently. Low income family.


Now, to the topic of the thread. I'm in my last high school year, the last one before college.
Sadly, I don't have any friends or a girlfriend. Before moving from my original place of residence, I was a very social kid (and quite popular too).

But then, I've lost my ability to socialize and gain friends, primarily due to moving from one place to another (switched 4 primary schools in 2 countries in 5 years during my very formative years), experiencing covid (being locked down away from others), and from being unfamiliar with the Polish culture and religion (although I must mention that I was not treated differently or discriminated at all).
On top of that, my family moved to a village where there weren't a lot of children, reducing my chances to resocialize.


I went to a primary school in Poland for 4 years, started the high school, then and switched location again. Now, I'm in theatnd of the 5-years high school (the graduation will be in May).

Now, I am frustrated. Deeply frustrated. As an 18, almost 19 years old guy, I don't know what true friendship is. Or what love is. And I'm not even ugly. I'm sporty (an ectomorph, though) and of above average height.
I can't enjoy normie things, music and other things that is considered popular. Even my political beliefs (which are far-right) dont allign with any major system, and because of that, I'm considered a jew servant and what not online.


But the thing is, I long for the beforementioned things. I don't want to give up and ropemaxx. I feel like I have a higher purpose in my life. Some people I know say that I'm intelligent and a deep thinker. I'm not deeply religious, but I'm a moral person and I wish to bring a good change to this hellish world.
But most importantly, I know that if I will not regain my socializing skills before college, it will be most probably over for me. But I don't know how to progress.

Therefore, I'm asking you for advice. How do I do this? I live in the nearby of the 40k city.

 

[V4MPIR3]

Greetings niche community of looksmax.org lul:),

 

[3pslnoharmony]

Dnr cool story lil bro

 

[slaviccel migrant]

Dnr cool story lil bro

Then y bother replying with this to a post with a serious tag?

 

[3pslnoharmony]

Then y bother replying with this to a post with a serious tag?

mental retardation

 

[xzylecrey]

Best way to get better at something is do it, its the absolute truth just exposure therapy. But treat it like a game with like easier missions at the start then progress. For example Go out by yourself if you have no friends and just ask questions first. Example at the mall or on the street "Excuse me whats the time"
" hey is there anything to eat around here"
You gotta build up sort of like progressive overload because exposure therapy will allow you to rebuild or build up your social skills through talking with people and getting better at cues, timing, eye contact etc. You cant not do this its the only and most effective way dont cope watching yt vids or whatever unless you apply them and they end up working out