Melnikomplex
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I've recently moved to a new area and started attending a new school. All the hard work and progress I had made towards making friends in my old city went to waste. I only have 1 year of school left and still have never dated a girl, been to a party, or have been present at any popular social gathering. I dont know ow the core reason but im sure its because 1. Im ugly. 2. I cant keep a conversation flowing. 3. I have never engaged in mischief or what not. This new school has a crazy party culture, (keep in mind its a high school). Literally every week a party happens at someone's house, and I sit alone at my desk, coping with my social isolation by playing stupid fucking videogames and reading dumb shit about history. The only times I really talk to some people at school is to help them with assignments. When I come back to the class from the bathroom, no one even dares open the door ( it automatically locks after its closed) and I can only get in after I knock several times and the teacher opens the door. I also bike to school, because my parents took all my money and I cant buy a car (and once again, have no friends to drive me). I always arrive to school sweaty. No matter how much deodorant I put on, how good I shower, if I put cologne on, I still have a slight odor. My brother, on the other hand, is decent looking, has great friends who he hangs out with, who drive him, who talk with him. He talks to girls frequently. I do everything I belive I need to do ( I've been working 10~15 hours since I was 14). Im such a fucking loser and im afraid I will never be able to go to homecoming with girl or a group of friends. Im afraid I will not be able to experience prom like everyone else. Im afraid I won't ever attend a party. I hate my stupid fucking life. I did nothing to deserve this while my older brother and little sister get everything handed to them while everything of mine gets taken away.
