Im a fucking loser.

Melnikomplex

Melnikomplex

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I've recently moved to a new area and started attending a new school. All the hard work and progress I had made towards making friends in my old city went to waste. I only have 1 year of school left and still have never dated a girl, been to a party, or have been present at any popular social gathering. I dont know ow the core reason but im sure its because 1. Im ugly. 2. I cant keep a conversation flowing. 3. I have never engaged in mischief or what not. This new school has a crazy party culture, (keep in mind its a high school). Literally every week a party happens at someone's house, and I sit alone at my desk, coping with my social isolation by playing stupid fucking videogames and reading dumb shit about history. The only times I really talk to some people at school is to help them with assignments. When I come back to the class from the bathroom, no one even dares open the door ( it automatically locks after its closed) and I can only get in after I knock several times and the teacher opens the door. I also bike to school, because my parents took all my money and I cant buy a car (and once again, have no friends to drive me). I always arrive to school sweaty. No matter how much deodorant I put on, how good I shower, if I put cologne on, I still have a slight odor. My brother, on the other hand, is decent looking, has great friends who he hangs out with, who drive him, who talk with him. He talks to girls frequently. I do everything I belive I need to do ( I've been working 10~15 hours since I was 14). Im such a fucking loser and im afraid I will never be able to go to homecoming with girl or a group of friends. Im afraid I will not be able to experience prom like everyone else. Im afraid I won't ever attend a party. I hate my stupid fucking life. I did nothing to deserve this while my older brother and little sister get everything handed to them while everything of mine gets taken away.
 
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I've recently moved to a new area and started attending a new school. All the hard work and progress I had made towards making friends in my old city went to waste. I only have 1 year of school left and still have never dated a girl, been to a party, or have been present at any popular social gathering. I dont know ow the core reason but im sure its because 1. Im ugly. 2. I cant keep a conversation flowing. 3. I have never engaged in mischief or what not. This new school has a crazy party culture, (keep in mind its a high school). Literally every week a party happens at someone's house, and I sit alone at my desk, coping with my social isolation by playing stupid fucking videogames and reading dumb shit about history. The only times I really talk to some people at school is to help them with assignments. When I come back to the class from the bathroom, no one even dares open the door ( it automatically locks after its closed) and I can only get in after I knock several times and the teacher opens the door. I also bike to school, because my parents took all my money and I cant buy a car (and once again, have no friends to drive me). I always arrive to school sweaty. No matter how much deodorant I put on, how good I shower, if I put cologne on, I still have a slight odor. My brother, on the other hand, is decent looking, has great friends who he hangs out with, who drive him, who talk with him. He talks to girls frequently. I do everything I belive I need to do ( I've been working 10~15 hours since I was 14). Im such a fucking loser and im afraid I will never be able to go to homecoming with girl or a group of friends. Im afraid I will not be able to experience prom like everyone else. Im afraid I won't ever attend a party. I hate my stupid fucking life. I did nothing to deserve this while my older brother and little sister get everything handed to them while everything of mine gets taken away.
dnr but im sorry/happy for you
 
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if it makes you feel any better, i lost my virginity at 18, my senior year. i also transferred my last year to a completely different school, and had very few friends. i legit was so suicidal i told myself that i atleast cant die a virgin, and just instagrammaxxed until i found some foid willing to fuck with me. you got this bro.
 
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I've recently moved to a new area and started attending a new school. All the hard work and progress I had made towards making friends in my old city went to waste. I only have 1 year of school left and still have never dated a girl, been to a party, or have been present at any popular social gathering. I dont know ow the core reason but im sure its because 1. Im ugly. 2. I cant keep a conversation flowing. 3. I have never engaged in mischief or what not. This new school has a crazy party culture, (keep in mind its a high school). Literally every week a party happens at someone's house, and I sit alone at my desk, coping with my social isolation by playing stupid fucking videogames and reading dumb shit about history. The only times I really talk to some people at school is to help them with assignments. When I come back to the class from the bathroom, no one even dares open the door ( it automatically locks after its closed) and I can only get in after I knock several times and the teacher opens the door. I also bike to school, because my parents took all my money and I cant buy a car (and once again, have no friends to drive me). I always arrive to school sweaty. No matter how much deodorant I put on, how good I shower, if I put cologne on, I still have a slight odor. My brother, on the other hand, is decent looking, has great friends who he hangs out with, who drive him, who talk with him. He talks to girls frequently. I do everything I belive I need to do ( I've been working 10~15 hours since I was 14). Im such a fucking loser and im afraid I will never be able to go to homecoming with girl or a group of friends. Im afraid I will not be able to experience prom like everyone else. Im afraid I won't ever attend a party. I hate my stupid fucking life. I did nothing to deserve this while my older brother and little sister get everything handed to them while everything of mine gets taken away.
As a guy who used to get made fun of by his classmates then went to every party in Senior Year why don't u just try talking to em?

Wut are you doing to looksmax, like ur clearly jealous of ur brother but why are you sweaty?? That means ur prolly out of shape
 
if it makes you feel any better, i lost my virginity at 18, my senior year. i also transferred my last year to a completely different school, and had very few friends. i legit was so suicidal i told myself that i atleast cant die a virgin, and just instagrammaxxed until i found some foid willing to fuck with me. you got this bro.
can you elaborate more on the instagramaxxing and how u escalated with the foid
 
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As a guy who used to get made fun of by his classmates then went to every party in Senior Year why don't u just try talking to em?

Wut are you doing to looksmax, like ur clearly jealous of ur brother but why are you sweaty?? That means ur prolly out of shape
Im sweaty because its a 30 minute bike ride to school ( in morning Texas heat). My brother gets a ride from his friends though. I will admit im not the skinniest and leanest, but I am working on that.
 
read everything just for you truecell🥹
 
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if it makes you feel any better, i lost my virginity at 18, my senior year. i also transferred my last year to a completely different school, and had very few friends. i legit was so suicidal i told myself that i atleast cant die a virgin, and just instagrammaxxed until i found some foid willing to fuck with me. you got this bro.
Instagrammaxxed doesnt work for me (maybe I haven't tried hard enough) but half the time the foids I follow never follow me back
 
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Im sweaty because its a 30 minute bike ride to school ( in morning Texas heat). My brother gets a ride from his friends though. I will admit im not the skinniest and leanest, but I am working on that.
dang that sucks that ur bro gets a ride, I can sympathize with that being sweaty at school sucks and destroys all ur confidence.

I think if u put yourself out there and maybe talked to the nicer people who get invited to those parties u wanna attend. Be friendly and kind to others and I think they'll do the same back.
 
can you elaborate more on the instagramaxxing and how u escalated with the foid
i dont do this anymore since im out of highschool and the dynamics are a bit different, but when i was in highschool "finstas"(fake instagrams) were a very big thing. getting into a girls finsta is literally the easiest way to instagrammaxx without followers, because its normal for those types of accounts to have low followers and be private. so i had a main with like 300-400 followers at the time, and a finsta i used to try and follow other girls on. i angle frauded like hell, in my 3/4s im easily HMTN and I had a long curly hair halo at the time. so I used these fraudmaxxed photos and the finsta technique to find some ltbs-lmtbs with body halos in my area.
 
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Hey man, I really feel what you’re saying. It sounds like you’ve been putting in a lot of effort — working hard, staying disciplined, trying to do the right things — and it’s rough when it feels like none of that pays off socially. You don’t deserve to feel invisible. Moving schools that late in high school is brutal for anyone, even people who seem confident or good-looking.

What you’re feeling doesn’t mean you’re doomed or “a loser.” It just means you’re in a tough chapter — one that will pass. A lot of people who peak later in life were in exactly your spot right now: lonely, overlooked, and wondering if it’ll ever get better. It does. You’re clearly self-aware, intelligent, and willing to work — that’s a combo that will open doors later on.

You might not be able to change everything overnight, but small steps matter. Talk to one person a day, even if it’s just a quick “what’s up.” Join a club or class activity that’s even slightly interesting to you. People remember consistency and kindness more than looks or parties.

You’re not behind — you’re just early in your story. Don’t let this current moment convince you it’s the whole picture.
 
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dang that sucks that ur bro gets a ride, I can sympathize with that being sweaty at school sucks and destroys all ur confidence.

I think if u put yourself out there and maybe talked to the nicer people who get invited to those parties u wanna attend. Be friendly and kind to others and I think they'll do the same back.
I just feel like such an outsider since most of these kids have known eachother since elementary school. I feel like they've already established themselves as groups.
 
Hey man, I really feel what you’re saying. It sounds like you’ve been putting in a lot of effort — working hard, staying disciplined, trying to do the right things — and it’s rough when it feels like none of that pays off socially. You don’t deserve to feel invisible. Moving schools that late in high school is brutal for anyone, even people who seem confident or good-looking.

What you’re feeling doesn’t mean you’re doomed or “a loser.” It just means you’re in a tough chapter — one that will pass. A lot of people who peak later in life were in exactly your spot right now: lonely, overlooked, and wondering if it’ll ever get better. It does. You’re clearly self-aware, intelligent, and willing to work — that’s a combo that will open doors later on.

You might not be able to change everything overnight, but small steps matter. Talk to one person a day, even if it’s just a quick “what’s up.” Join a club or class activity that’s even slightly interesting to you. People remember consistency and kindness more than looks or parties.

You’re not behind — you’re just early in your story. Don’t let this current moment convince you it’s the whole picture.
holy ai slop jfl
 
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Instagrammaxxed doesnt work for me (maybe I haven't tried hard enough) but half the time the foids I follow never follow me back
dont try girls at ur school, do girls from surrounding neighborhoods, if a network of girls notices ur following all of them, its a recipe for absolutely none of them to follow u back if even just one of them doesnt show mild interest in u, because women demonstrate the largest amounts of ingroup bias.
 
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if youre ugly then fix it via looksmaxing, and if you have problem talking to people just progressively overload it every single day, lvl 1- start from asking people directions ,asking where the store is lvl2- slowly start to make short convos with people of 30 secs like whats your name , hows your day going, lvl-3 extend the short convos and just like that keep progressively overload...
 
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I just feel like such an outsider since most of these kids have known eachother since elementary school. I feel like they've already established themselves as groups.
some group would be willing to take you in
 
if u need help finding a group to be accepted into then read my post about convomogging chad where I detail social castes in a hierarchical system. You can most easily at first socialmax with the local losers, according to my theory
 
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I've recently moved to a new area and started attending a new school. All the hard work and progress I had made towards making friends in my old city went to waste. I only have 1 year of school left and still have never dated a girl, been to a party, or have been present at any popular social gathering. I dont know ow the core reason but im sure its because 1. Im ugly. 2. I cant keep a conversation flowing. 3. I have never engaged in mischief or what not. This new school has a crazy party culture, (keep in mind its a high school). Literally every week a party happens at someone's house, and I sit alone at my desk, coping with my social isolation by playing stupid fucking videogames and reading dumb shit about history. The only times I really talk to some people at school is to help them with assignments. When I come back to the class from the bathroom, no one even dares open the door ( it automatically locks after its closed) and I can only get in after I knock several times and the teacher opens the door. I also bike to school, because my parents took all my money and I cant buy a car (and once again, have no friends to drive me). I always arrive to school sweaty. No matter how much deodorant I put on, how good I shower, if I put cologne on, I still have a slight odor. My brother, on the other hand, is decent looking, has great friends who he hangs out with, who drive him, who talk with him. He talks to girls frequently. I do everything I belive I need to do ( I've been working 10~15 hours since I was 14). Im such a fucking loser and im afraid I will never be able to go to homecoming with girl or a group of friends. Im afraid I will not be able to experience prom like everyone else. Im afraid I won't ever attend a party. I hate my stupid fucking life. I did nothing to deserve this while my older brother and little sister get everything handed to them while everything of mine gets taken away.
I feel you brother, it’s a shit situation but all you can do is keep your head up and continue trying to improve your life; I know it’s water but there’s not much benefit on dwelling on your misfortune, it’s a slippery slope that won’t lead to anything helpful. Good luck with everything dude
 
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I read everything and I know what you are feeling. I recommend you to put effort in socializing as much as you can. Learn about it and have exposure to it. It will get easier:)
 
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