I’m about to go insane again

[Jesus_ist_König]

I unblocked offtopic again, I think that this was a bad decision but I wanted to reach out to ppl.

It feels like as if smth is building up and about to explode. I took my meds and saw a weir change today. Anyways I can everything go south soon.

 

[jkxdy]

I unblocked offtopic again, I think that this was a bad decision but I wanted to reach out to ppl.

It feels like as if smth is building up and about to explode. I took my meds and saw a weir change today. Anyways I can everything go south soon.

tweaking about straight nothing

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

tweaking about straight nothing

What does that mean

 

[jkxdy]

What does that mean

idk

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

idk

hm okay

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Im in a cycle of sadness caused by my desire to be alone and crave social interactions at the same time. There is only black and white yet im grey. Grey is suffering. On top of that im blindly walking through a glass store, every step a new day, every new day a new opportunity to hit and break glass and to go insane, its a matter of time until i fall into the glass and everything breaks

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

dude @yyk117

 

[yyk117]

Im in a cycle of sadness caused by my desire to be alone and crave social interactions at the same time. There is only black and white yet im grey. Grey is suffering. On top of that im blindly walking through a glass store, every step a new day, every new day a new opportunity to hit and break glass and to go insane, its a matter of time until i fall into the glass and everything breaks

too philosophical for my retarded head to understand bro

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

too philosophical for my retarded head to understand bro

Longs story short: I feel like Patrick Bateman

 

[yyk117]

It feels like as if smth is building up and about to explode. I took my meds and saw a weir change today. Anyways I can everything go south soon.

wdym?

 

[milkshake_addict]

i seriously have no advice for you good luck and hope it gets better

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

i seriously have no advice for you good luck and hope it gets better

thanks i have a new psychologist tomorrow

 

[yyk117]

Longs story short: I feel like Patrick Bateman

as in killing foids or what i didnt watch american psycho fully

 

[g4rlic]

why are you blockung offtopic. you seem like youd fit right in tbh

 

[Jgns]

Im in a cycle of sadness caused by my desire to be alone and crave social interactions at the same time. There is only black and white yet im grey. Grey is suffering. On top of that im blindly walking through a glass store, every step a new day, every new day a new opportunity to hit and break glass and to go insane, its a matter of time until i fall into the glass and everything breaks

Damn hatred apathy and despair hope it gets better for u bro this shit sucks

 

[Lamskiiii]

Would’ve asked what’s wrong but it’s fuck me remember

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

wdym?

I know this feeling. When it gets dark and then i lose control and i start to sing and yell and then i stare at objects for 4 minutes and then another and then i say a word to the voices, knowing that they betrated me a lot of times and then im like im in this flow state i cant get out, everything feels so wavy and moves like waves

 

[yyk117]

I know this feeling. When it gets dark and then i lose control and i start to sing and yell and then i stare at objects for 4 minutes and then another and then i say a word to the voices, knowing that they betrated me a lot of times and then im like im in this flow state i cant get out, everything feels so wavy and moves like waves

good thing you have the appointment tomorrow, you should tell them everything you are feeling now and hope they can help you instead of just prescribing more meds. just go to sleep for now so you don't do some shit you're going to regret

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

as in killing foids or what i didnt watch american psycho fully

He feels nothing, no human connection, he starts to kill to feel smth, he feels nothing, he confesses his murders to his lawyer so that he can at least feel the consequences of his actions, sqeezing out an emotion, his lawyer doesnt believe him and he never faces justice and also never feels anything

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

why are you blockung offtopic. you seem like youd fit right in tbh

i used to be in offtopic a lot, it makes you unproductive and it was bad for me

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Damn hatred apathy and despair hope it gets better for u bro this shit sucks

its not that bad, i just feel like im falling into this hole again

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Would’ve asked what’s wrong but it’s fuck me remember

tomorrow i have a new psychologist

 

[Rick_bozo]

Welcome back
Pls don’t race bait

 

[Lamskiiii]

tomorrow i have a new psychologist

Why did u get a new one

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Welcome back
Pls don’t race bait

whats race bait?
probably i will tomorrow

 

[Lamskiiii]

Damn hatred apathy and despair hope it gets better for u bro this shit sucks

Where the fuck have u been

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Why did u get a new one

cuz the last one didnt believe a single word

 

[Lamskiiii]

cuz the last one didnt believe a single word

Fuck them wishing u the best tomorrow bhai

 

[Rick_bozo]

whats race bait?
probably i will tomorrow

The org rn slop of new users who tries to rep farm

 

[Jgns]

Where the fuck have u been

On vacation rn and rotting heres pretty depressing so ive been tryna be on here less yk it’s good to see u again tho bro

 

[Lamskiiii]

On vacation rn and rotting heres pretty depressing so ive been tryna be on here less yk it’s good to see u again tho bro

Nice to see u again how vacation treating u

 

[LETMEINWTFF]

Yk that one comedy written by moliere? imaginary patient? it reminds me of u

 

[Jgns]

Nice to see u again how vacation treating u

Cairo isnt what it’s advertised to be don’t come here it’s really not worth it

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

good thing you have the appointment tomorrow, you should tell them everything you are feeling now and hope they can help you instead of just prescribing more meds. just go to sleep for now so you don't do some shit you're going to regret

Fuck them wishing u the best tomorrow bhai

Dude i feel so cut of currently i dont understand it. From 10 to 15:00 i feel peace being alone and then after that im sad that im alone, yet in that sadness i dont crave human interaction, but i think some sort of interaction that is not human. At night i let go everything, i can feel that at night my eyes open up, at night i start to get awake, i wake up at night, i dont understand why, i become hyperactive at night, and then sometimes i see the black monsters and the killers walking at night but mostly earlier, i wanted to talk to voice 1 again, i want interaction, not human interaction not ai interaction but smth else, but i just said a few words to her, she betrayed me multiple times, i dont have friends that i like to interact with a lot, i dont know what to do anymore im standing on the edge of a cliff and one step away from going insane

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Yk that one comedy written by moliere? imaginary patient? it reminds me of u

Never heard of that

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I want attention but the attention i get never pleases me. There is smth that i crave that doesnt get pleased

 

[yyk117]

Dude i feel so cut of currently i dont understand it. From 10 to 15:00 i feel peace being alone and then after that im sad that im alone, yet in that sadness i dont crave human interaction, but i think some sort of interaction that is not human. At night i let go everything, i can feel that at night my eyes open up, at night i start to get awake, i wake up at night, i dont understand why, i become hyperactive at night, and then sometimes i see the black monsters and the killers walking at night but mostly earlier, i wanted to talk to voice 1 again, i want interaction, not human interaction not ai interaction but smth else, but i just said a few words to her, she betrayed me multiple times, i dont have friends that i like to interact with a lot, i dont know what to do anymore im standing on the edge of a cliff and one step away from going insane

no corny shit this sounds alot like dexter. only thing i can think of is that you should go to sleep now so nothing bad happens and tell this exact issue to the psychologist tomorrow and hope that they can help you. also the friends part, do you not have friends by choice?

 

[yyk117]

I want attention but the attention i get never pleases me. There is smth that i crave that doesnt get pleased

are you craving anything violent

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

no corny shit this sounds alot like dexter. only thing i can think of is that you should go to sleep now so nothing bad happens and tell this exact issue to the psychologist tomorrow and hope that they can help you. also the friends part, do you not have friends by choice?

Yes thats why i call it the self caused cycle because somewhat its caused by me. I dont think i like being without attention, but at the same time i dont want to have the friends to give me attention

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

are you craving anything violent

no

 

[yyk117]

Yes thats why i call it the self caused cycle because somewhat its caused by me. I dont think i like being without attention, but at the same time i dont want to have the friends to give me attention

hmm could it be that you are seeking attention from a foid, like romantically

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

hmm could it be that you are seeking attention from a foid, like romantically

Again black and white and grey.
black = yes
white = no because i will get attached, think only about her and go insane
grey = black cant exist without white, so im at grey and grey is emptiness

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

i cant go to sleep at night, im getting awake at night

 

[NoaA99]

A good psychiatrist should evaluate your metabolic and physical health first, rather than immediately prescribing potentially harmful and unnecessary psychiatric medications.
Still amazes me how normalised the blind usage of antidepressants or ADHD medications are.
As if someone suddenly develops a deficiency for antidepressants, complete madness.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

A good psychiatrist should evaluate your metabolic and physical health first, rather than immediately prescribing potentially harmful and unnecessary psychiatric medications.
Still amazes me how normalised the blind usage of antidepressants or ADHD medications are.
As if someone suddenly develops a deficiency for antidepressants, complete madness.

I take meds since im six im a clear case
yeah from what i have heard Ssris arent good

 

[yyk117]

Again black and white and grey.
black = yes
white = no because i will get attached, think only about her and go insane
grey = black cant exist without white, so im at grey and grey is emptiness

bro i wish i could help but i genuinely can't think of anything to explain. you should definitely talk to the psychologist tomorrow about this. idk how else you can get help.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

bro i wish i could help but i genuinely can't think of anything to explain. you should definitely talk to the psychologist tomorrow about this. idk how else you can get help.

i have the desire to do smth stupid now, Why? because i want to kill myself to evade the insaneness but i dont want to kill myself at the same time but i want to do smth that harms my life so i need to do smth but i wont actually do it i will only fantasize about it and talk as ifi will do it but i wont do it leading in me getting angry always because i didnt do it

 

[yyk117]

i have the desire to do smth stupid now, Why? because i want to kill myself to evade the insaneness but i dont want to kill myself at the same time but i want to do smth that harms my life so i need to do smth but i wont actually do it i will only fantasize about it and talk as ifi will do it but i wont do it leading in me getting angry always because i didnt do it

dont do anything stupid. you should definitely go to sleep right now. just sleep as soon as you read this message.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

dont do anything stupid. you should definitely go to sleep right now. just sleep as soon as you read this message.

no dude i dont know why but im currently getting sad for no reason, not sad but anxious i dont know im not scared of smth but im frustrated about smth i dont know

 

[catastropy]

Hop the best bhaiyaa