im feeling so depressed its not funny

[dipenhydramine]

its not even sadness anymore its like overwhelming misery

im not even blackpilled its just a load of things making me feel so shit

i will never have the life i want and ill never be happy

nobody will ever like me and ive been left behind

im so far behind others my age and im a loser

i sleep 15 hours a day and dont talk to anyone

i constantly want to kill myself but the fact that nobody would give a fuck or miss me pisses me off so much im not doing it

nobody cares about me and i have nothing

i dont want to work a shitty job and i dont want to have to spend the rest of my shitty life in some dumb fucking city because i didnt make enough goy bucks to be able to live happy

i wish it was just me in the world because then id be able to live happy no matter how fast i die

 

[rick grimes]

and how old are you

 

[dipenhydramine]

and how old are you

17

 

[segmt]

you know the exit to this?
I feel the fucking same bud

exit = do fraud (joke for the fbi accounts)

 

[crazyguy]

its not even sadness anymore its like overwhelming misery

im not even blackpilled its just a load of things making me feel so shit

i will never have the life i want and ill never be happy

nobody will ever like me and ive been left behind

im so far behind others my age and im a loser

i sleep 15 hours a day and dont talk to anyone

i constantly want to kill myself but the fact that nobody would give a fuck or miss me pisses me off so much im not doing it

nobody cares about me and i have nothing

i dont want to work a shitty job and i dont want to have to spend the rest of my shitty life in some dumb fucking city because i didnt make enough goy bucks to be able to live happy

i wish it was just me in the world because then id be able to live happy no matter how fast i die

whats the life you want?

 

[rick grimes]

17

idk maybe find some hobby something to work towards like working out or some shit

 

[dipenhydramine]

whats the life you want?

i want to walk all around the world and do lots of fun stuff and climb things and camp every night in the woods and the only thing to stress about is where i get my water from

 

[Proex]

every inkwell goes through that phase

 

[dipenhydramine]

you know the exit to this?
I feel the fucking same bud

exit = do fraud (joke for the fbi accounts)

i was thinking about taking a massive loan, putting it all in crypto and then just flying to europe and walking and camping forevrr

 

[dipenhydramine]

every inkwell goes through that phase

ive been in it for years

 

[Proex]

ive been in it for years

bruatl man, talk to someone irl about it, it helped for me

 

[crazyguy]

i want to walk all around the world and do lots of fun stuff and climb things and camp every night in the woods and the only thing to stress about is where i get my water from

thats not impossible to get, you could genuinely make this happen

 

[segmt]

i was thinking about taking a massive loan, putting it all in crypto and then just flying to europe and walking and camping forevrr

lol so fraud literally bro

im sick of this shit

 

[dipenhydramine]

bruatl man, talk to someone irl about it, it helped for me

i tried to tell my dad and he told me to pack it in and to get a job or ill be a bum forever

 

[Dorsal_]

its not even sadness anymore its like overwhelming misery

im not even blackpilled its just a load of things making me feel so shit

i will never have the life i want and ill never be happy

nobody will ever like me and ive been left behind

im so far behind others my age and im a loser

i sleep 15 hours a day and dont talk to anyone

i constantly want to kill myself but the fact that nobody would give a fuck or miss me pisses me off so much im not doing it

nobody cares about me and i have nothing

i dont want to work a shitty job and i dont want to have to spend the rest of my shitty life in some dumb fucking city because i didnt make enough goy bucks to be able to live happy

i wish it was just me in the world because then id be able to live happy no matter how fast i die

obviously I'm not aware of the situations leading you to feel so down but from what it sounds like you're making a lot of assumptions based on negative thoughts being allowed to loop in your mind. Depression is hard asf to deal with as you have to both address the root of the feelings head on, combat the feeling through any form of cringe self help (hobbies, relaxing if possible, enjoying the outdoors, etc), and also allowing the feeling to pass in its own time. The best thing you can do is to recognise that it is one of the many feelings that you've experienced thru ur life and that, like the others, it will probs pass. If u dnr I don't mind I just thought it may help

 

[Proex]

i tried to tell my dad and he told me to pack it in and to get a job or ill be a bum forever

brutal honestmaxxed dad

 

[dipenhydramine]

thats not impossible to get, you could genuinely make this happen

i know its not but it just feels so far ykwim

id dissapiont my parents like crazy and idk it feels far away

im going to try hard to get there though

 

[dipenhydramine]

obviously I'm not aware of the situations leading you to feel so down but from what it sounds like you're making a lot of assumptions based on negative thoughts being allowed to loop in your mind. Depression is hard asf to deal with as you have to both address the root of the feelings head on, combat the feeling through any form of cringe self help (hobbies, relaxing if possible, enjoying the outdoors, etc), and also allowing the feeling to pass in its own time. The best thing you can do is to recognise that it is one of the many feelings that you've experienced thru ur life and that, like the others, it will probs pass. If u dnr I don't mind I just thought it may help

i know i get myself into a thought loop often but this time i feel clarity

this genuinely might be it

thanks for taking time to write it i dont DNR anyone

 

[o9AL3x3rZ9qX7]

its not even sadness anymore its like overwhelming misery

im not even blackpilled its just a load of things making me feel so shit

i will never have the life i want and ill never be happy

nobody will ever like me and ive been left behind

im so far behind others my age and im a loser

i sleep 15 hours a day and dont talk to anyone

i constantly want to kill myself but the fact that nobody would give a fuck or miss me pisses me off so much im not doing it

nobody cares about me and i have nothing

i dont want to work a shitty job and i dont want to have to spend the rest of my shitty life in some dumb fucking city because i didnt make enough goy bucks to be able to live happy

i wish it was just me in the world because then id be able to live happy no matter how fast i die

if no one would care about you commiting suicide, that tells you your worth in life

 

[dipenhydramine]

brutal honestmaxxed dad

it makes me so depressed he can never say a good thing about me and ive tried so hard to get him to like me for years now

 

[dipenhydramine]

if no one would care about you commiting suicide, that tells you your worth in life

yes precisely

 

[crazyguy]

i know its not but it just feels so far ykwim

id dissapiont my parents like crazy and idk it feels far away

im going to try hard to get there though

you'll prolly have to work for some years, but it would be worth it in the end because you'll get the life youve wanted

 

[segmt]

i tried to tell my dad and he told me to pack it in and to get a job or ill be a bum forever

Same situation man

they birthed an incel and they tell me I'm not performing well enough and not going to get a stable job etc

meanwhile I'm feeling pretty similar to you

theyve been disappointed like crazy and want me to become some rich ceo like that's not happening man jfl none of my parents like me
looks? height? no, money no, no motivation either

just fucking take the jew money for yourself and live free

 

[Proex]

it makes me so depressed he can never say a good thing about me and ive tried so hard to get him to like me for years now

it's gonna be ok

 

[o9AL3x3rZ9qX7]

yes precisely

then realize and build karma for reincarnation if u die now u will reincarnate as a low class dalit

 

[dipenhydramine]

you'll prolly have to work for some years, but it would be worth it in the end because you'll get the life youve wanted

ive started spending a lot of time in nature to prepare i feel better sometimes but as soon as i get home it goes back to normsl

 

[Dorsal_]

i know i get myself into a thought loop often but this time i feel clarity

this genuinely might be it

thanks for taking time to write it i dont DNR anyone

nw bro, hope this passes and you gain wisdom as to how to approach both depression and any other problems you're facing rn for the future

 

[dipenhydramine]

it's gonna be ok

hopefully

 

[dipenhydramine]

nw bro, hope this passes and you gain wisdom as to how to approach both depression and any other problems you're facing rn for the future

its never gonna pass ngl

ive had consistent suicidal and delusional thoughts since i was 9

i had an imaginary friend who repeatedly tried getting me to kill myself snd my parents never got me any help beyond the school psychologist because "they didnt want retarded children"

 

[crazyguy]

ive started spending a lot of time in nature to prepare i feel better sometimes but as soon as i get home it goes back to normsl

do you think you know why you dont feel good at home or is it just random?

 

[Thief]

You make this thread everyday

 

[dipenhydramine]

then realize and build karma for reincarnation if u die now u will reincarnate as a low class dalit

itd be fine if i came back a dalit because then id have nobody to dissapoint if i left and did what i want

 

[dipenhydramine]

You make this thread everyday

i know idk whats wrong

 

[o9AL3x3rZ9qX7]

itd be fine if i came back a dalit because then id have nobody to dissapoint if i left and did what i want

u will come back as dalit thats what you were meant for

 

[dipenhydramine]

do you think you know why you dont feel good at home or is it just random?

my whole family hates me

my dad hates me because i dont want to spend my whole life working

my mother hates me due to a schizophrenic delusion she held when i was a baby

for example today my dad turned off the wifi and i rotted indoors all day just in my room with nobody to talk to or anything to do

its never gonna pass ngl

ive had consistent suicidal and delusional thoughts since i was 9

i had an imaginary friend who repeatedly tried getting me to kill myself snd my parents never got me any help beyond the school psychologist because "they didnt want retarded children"

there is also this and they still refuse to get me any help

 

[Dorsal_]

its never gonna pass ngl

ive had consistent suicidal and delusional thoughts since i was 9

i had an imaginary friend who repeatedly tried getting me to kill myself snd my parents never got me any help beyond the school psychologist because "they didnt want retarded children"

 

[dipenhydramine]

Same situation man

they birthed an incel and they tell me I'm not performing well enough and not going to get a stable job etc

meanwhile I'm feeling pretty similar to you

theyve been disappointed like crazy and want me to become some rich ceo like that's not happening man jfl none of my parents like me
looks? height? no, money no, no motivation either

just fucking take the jew money for yourself and live free

i genuinely might man

its so unfair

 

[segmt]

i genuinely might man

its so unfair

you live in the usa? where man

meetup? jfl
just gotta live with it and think clearly just get yourself out of loops

 

[crazyguy]

my whole family hates me

my dad hates me because i dont want to spend my whole life working

my mother hates me due to a schizophrenic delusion she held when i was a baby

for example today my dad turned off the wifi and i rotted indoors all day just in my room with nobody to talk to or anything to do


there is also this and they still refuse to get me any help

yeah its better to stay outside as long as possible if they really do hate you
you should try getting a job ngl, it'll get you money and maybe it'll make your dad respect you more. youre also not at home when youre working so thats a positive ig

 

[dipenhydramine]

you live in the usa? where man

meetup? jfl
just gotta live with it and think clearly just get yourself out of loops

i live in the UK so even more brutal

my dream is to make it to either europe or USA and live free outside the govt system

 

[dipenhydramine]

yeah its better to stay outside as long as possible if they really do hate you
you should try getting a job ngl, it'll get you money and maybe it'll make your dad respect you more. youre also not at home when youre working so thats a positive ig

ive been looking for a job

hopefully i find one soon because i really dont like being home

 

[dipenhydramine]

yeah its better to stay outside as long as possible if they really do hate you
you should try getting a job ngl, it'll get you money and maybe it'll make your dad respect you more. youre also not at home when youre working so thats a positive ig

thanks for being in all of my threads it makes me feel happy knowing someone takes time to respond

 

[segmt]

i live in the UK so even more brutal

my dream is to make it to either europe or USA and live free outside the govt system

then usa isn't your destination I'm in the same place in the usa

yeah just get a job or find some way to get money and move, thats the only way. It's also the way I've been coping, with my dream similar to yours, to get to that state at one point

If that falls apart it's genuinely done for me and I would commit suicide

 

[crazyguy]

thanks for being in all of my threads it makes me feel happy knowing someone takes time to respond

np, im glad i could help you bro
just know that it'll get better as time passes, you just have to put the work in

 

[Michelangelo]

its not even sadness anymore its like overwhelming misery

im not even blackpilled its just a load of things making me feel so shit

i will never have the life i want and ill never be happy

nobody will ever like me and ive been left behind

im so far behind others my age and im a loser

i sleep 15 hours a day and dont talk to anyone

i constantly want to kill myself but the fact that nobody would give a fuck or miss me pisses me off so much im not doing it

nobody cares about me and i have nothing

i dont want to work a shitty job and i dont want to have to spend the rest of my shitty life in some dumb fucking city because i didnt make enough goy bucks to be able to live happy

i wish it was just me in the world because then id be able to live happy no matter how fast i die

Felt the same many years ago, at one point i started to feel the weight slowly getting off of me.
Never imagined i would still be here, especially with the lack of support from family, which sometimes was even just another weight cause they always hated me.
I would spent as much time as possible in nature, one day you will actually be happy to still be around and find purpose, understand life better, and some on

 

[dipenhydramine]

np, im glad i could help you bro
just know that it'll get better as time passes, you just have to put the work in

thank you

 

[dipenhydramine]

Felt the same many years ago, at one point i started to feel the weight slowly getting off of me.
Never imagined i would still be here, especially with the lack of support from family, which sometimes was even just another weight cause they always hated me.
I would spent as much time as possible in nature, one day you will actually be happy to still be around and find purpose, understand life better, etc

what changed it for you

 

[dipenhydramine]

then usa isn't your destination I'm in the same place in the usa

yeah just get a job or find some way to get money and move, thats the only way. It's also the way I've been coping, with my dream similar to yours, to get to that state at one point

If that falls apart it's genuinely done for me and I would commit suicide

maybe one day we could be irl friends and live that life together

ive been thinking sbout it a lot and starting youtube tiktok and photography to sustain myself

 

[segmt]

maybe one day we could be irl friends and live that life together

ive been thinking sbout it a lot and starting youtube tiktok and photography to sustain myself

same age at 17, same situation, maybe one day bro

that "one day" is my current cope, I have nothing else

 

[dipenhydramine]

same age at 17, same situation, maybe one day bro

that "one day" is my current cope, I have nothing else

one day is all i have left

all night i watch youtube

shiey
gifgas
dyingllama
2swag

i wanna be like them so bad