SlavicGeneral
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I've already made a post venting about my emntal state. It's getting noticeably worse. I spend at least a third of my day in front of the mirror, unsatisfied with my looks. I still live with my parents so I can't get surgery.
It's gotten too bad, I stopped talking to friends, I stopped talking to parents. I don't want to socially interact with anyone anymore. I am not incel, I had plenty of sex, I am mentally ill and have awful self image. I think about ending it all every hour, but refuse because I am religious.
Today I skipped uni and spent 9 hours in front of the mirror. I am not working atm because I'm still in uni and obsession with my looks took too much time from my day so I quit my part time job. Parents won't let me drop out to work full time so I'll have to wait at least 3-4 years to get surgery.
I am uncomfortable in my own skin, around my friends, around strangers, around family.
This is the true definition of hell. I hate every moment of life and can't explain to my close friends and family why. I can't talk to anyone about it.
It's gotten too bad, I stopped talking to friends, I stopped talking to parents. I don't want to socially interact with anyone anymore. I am not incel, I had plenty of sex, I am mentally ill and have awful self image. I think about ending it all every hour, but refuse because I am religious.
Today I skipped uni and spent 9 hours in front of the mirror. I am not working atm because I'm still in uni and obsession with my looks took too much time from my day so I quit my part time job. Parents won't let me drop out to work full time so I'll have to wait at least 3-4 years to get surgery.
I am uncomfortable in my own skin, around my friends, around strangers, around family.
This is the true definition of hell. I hate every moment of life and can't explain to my close friends and family why. I can't talk to anyone about it.