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I always thought depression is a meme white girls pretend to have to gain attention
I had my first acid trip, and it just fucked me over like a truck full of bricks hitting me in the face. All the shit, all the problems, they just became exposed to me. I realized how how fucking wrong I always was
But it was introspective. I woke up and I realized just how much shit in my life is wrong. To the point where I feel distant from people rn. I cant relate to anyone
Its like, the purpose behind everything is just a release of dopamine and serotonin - everything we do. Everything we care about is all just ur brain's chemistry
And in the end, you die. Fun is only a feeling Yet, I am scared to have fun. I am socially anxious, yet I realize that opinion is just an electrical signal in ones brain
So why would electrical signals in another human matter to me?
I lost a goal in life I always had and now I look at all the pile of shit problems that floated up. And I realized just how wrong I was all this time, Thinking I know a lot. Discaring opinion of others
Yet others opinions hold as much value as me. And that made me realize how we are all the same in the brain
And how we all cope until we die
But I dont want to cope
I want a deeper meaning behind this
But deeper meaning is yet another cope
Your brain trying to hop onto a thread of meaning
This is the real blackpill
I had my first acid trip, and it just fucked me over like a truck full of bricks hitting me in the face. All the shit, all the problems, they just became exposed to me. I realized how how fucking wrong I always was
But it was introspective. I woke up and I realized just how much shit in my life is wrong. To the point where I feel distant from people rn. I cant relate to anyone
Its like, the purpose behind everything is just a release of dopamine and serotonin - everything we do. Everything we care about is all just ur brain's chemistry
And in the end, you die. Fun is only a feeling Yet, I am scared to have fun. I am socially anxious, yet I realize that opinion is just an electrical signal in ones brain
So why would electrical signals in another human matter to me?
I lost a goal in life I always had and now I look at all the pile of shit problems that floated up. And I realized just how wrong I was all this time, Thinking I know a lot. Discaring opinion of others
Yet others opinions hold as much value as me. And that made me realize how we are all the same in the brain
And how we all cope until we die
But I dont want to cope
I want a deeper meaning behind this
But deeper meaning is yet another cope
Your brain trying to hop onto a thread of meaning
This is the real blackpill