Might kill myself on call

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My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
 
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Are you actually being serious
 
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never stress
 
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can i have all ur possessions
 
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whitecelcoper said:
Моя жизнь — сплошное дерьмо. Я вернулась в школу, потому что папа сказал, что я слишком много пропускаю занятия, и, чёрт возьми, у меня никогда не было таких суицидальных мыслей. Мы даже не изучаем то, что действительно стоит моего времени. Сегодня я не хотела идти в школу, и папа забрал у меня графический планшет, когда мне было 16 лет. Я думала, что наказание закончилось, но, видимо, нет. Мне кажется, что делать что-либо бессмысленно, рисование меня немного отвлекает. Не больше недели назад я пыталась покончить с собой во время дежурства с группой людей, и меня даже госпитализировали на день, и я поговорила с сотрудниками службы защиты детей. Не понимаю, как меня до сих пор не поместили в психиатрическую клинику, рана была не поверхностной. Мне не на что надеяться, а если и на что-то и есть, то это займёт годы, а я так долго не проживу. Я почти не сплю, мне снова трудно составлять предложения, как будто мой мозг сам себя пожирает, мои мыслительные процессы ухудшаются. Не знаю, по крайней мере, я могу прославиться благодаря самоубийству, по крайней мере, моя подруга смогла. Я хочу стать одним из тех шокирующих гифок. Или мемом. Мне, в общем-то, всё равно, лишь бы я была знаменитой. Я хочу, чтобы люди скучали по мне и получили травму, увидев, как я кончаю жизнь самоубийством. Я бы хотела сделать это перед родителями, чтобы они наконец-то обратили на меня внимание, вместо того чтобы игнорировать всё, что я делаю, и отмахиваться. Я их ребёнок, а им плевать на моё здоровье. Это ужасно. Но это неважно, я даже не знаю, зачем я вообще изливаю душу, просто скажите, если хотите поучаствовать в разговоре.:Кирби::Кирби:
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В I'll be honest, I don't think I can support you in any way, but I think everyone has those dark patches in life that make them want to cry and kill themselves. You just need to show your strength of spirit and to overcome such moments, only then can you say to yourself, I am a strong person
 
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If it makes you feel better, no one would really care, they would only make fun of you and BRAP on your grave, if you aren't just dumped in a river
 
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Send me 500 dollars for my next roid order before you rope, help a fellow truecel ascend
 
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TheOneTrveCel said:
If it makes you feel better, no one would really care, they would only make fun of you and BRAP on your grave, if you aren't just dumped in a river
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When I attempted people did care which is motivating me a lot
 
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whitecelcoper said:
Of what? The attempt? I do but it was kind of shitty, missed the vein :feelswhy:
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I mean you had someone in call, that means you have someone to talk to, that means you aren't sub3, because sub3 doesn't have friends, so that means you want to kill yourself because u have to go to school? Is that srsly your reason bro....
 
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TheOneTrveCel said:
I mean you had someone in call, that means you have someone to talk to, that means you aren't sub3, because sub3 doesn't have friends, so that means you want to kill yourself because u have to go to school? Is that srsly your reason bro....
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No I've always been neglected by my parents and I only have online friends because I'm an autist :feelswhy:
 
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whitecelcoper said:
My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
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When you will have next school break go somewhere in nature and don’t take your phone with you. That will do hopefully
 
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Divineincel said:
When you will have next school break go somewhere in nature and don’t take your phone with you. That will do hopefully
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It's not soon and my dad won't let me skip. Plus I like my phone a lot
 
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whitecelcoper said:
It's not soon and my dad won't let me skip. Plus I like my phone a lot
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ur phone is the reason u feel like this bro, please seek professional help if you can and get completely off ur phone for a while. It’ll help you man i promise stay strong
 
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Are you a female
 
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Cuz drawing is the most submissive hobby ever
 
Another attention whore.

Come back to this post when he is "back" :lul::ALIENALIENALIENALIENALIEN:
 
whitecelcoper said:
My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
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breakthrough Dmt now.
if your going to kill yourself

Take the chance of dmt reshaping your whole way of thinking about life
 
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whitecelcoper said:
My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
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Dumbass gonna rope bc of school and cuz his dad took his "drawing tablet" yeah our generation is so doomed,
 
whitecelcoper said:
My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
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5‘2 manlet: „just hit the gym bra“
 
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getratioedbozo said:
Dumbass gonna rope bc of school and cuz his dad took his "drawing tablet" yeah our generation is so doomed,
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No I've been suicidal since I was 11. The vent could've been longer, but I'm not about to write my life story on looksmax.org :hnghn:
 
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nga don't kys
 
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whitecelcoper said:
No I've been suicidal since I was 11. The vent could've been longer, but I'm not about to write my life story on looksmax.org :hnghn:
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Well u still a bitch ass weak nigga tbh, at least find something to cope with or try adapting tbh then go leave ur parents idk
 
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whitecelcoper said:
My life is absolute shit. I went back to school because my dad said I skip too much and holy shit I've never been this suicidal. We don't even study things that are actually worth my time. I didn't want to go today and my dad took my drawing tablet away at my 16 years of age. I thought the grounding was over, but I guess not. I find it pointless to do anything, drawing distracts me a bit. I attempted not more than a week ago on call with a bunch of people and I did go to the hospital for a day and talked to cps. I don't know how I'm not institutionalized, the cut wasn't shallow. I have nothing to look forward to and if I do it's something that would take years and I won't last that long. I barely sleep, I'm starting to struggle to form sentences again, it's like my brain is actively eating itself, my thought process is getting worse. I don't know, at least I can get fame off of suicide, at least my friend did. I want to become one of those shock value gifs. Or a meme. I don't really care as long as I'm famous. I want people to miss me and get traumatized from watching me kill myself. I wish I could do it in front of my parents so they can finally give a fuck instead of ignoring everything I do and brushing it off. I'm their child and they don't care about my health. It's fucked up. That doesn't matter I don't know why I'm even venting just tell me if yuo want to be in the call :Kirby::Kirby:
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actully sounds fucked up… u NEED to see help. bless you man
 
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You rope yet? Can you stream it on twitch too?
 
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whitecelcoper said:
No I've been suicidal since I was 11. The vent could've been longer, but I'm not about to write my life story on looksmax.org :hnghn:
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summarise in bulletpoints the reasons you wanna rope and over half of them will most likely be able to be solved
 
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Play Russian roulette with me

If you’re serious

Because I’m serious about roping

Best way of roping imo :aheago:
 
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summarise in bulletpoints the reasons you wanna rope and over half of them will most likely be able to be solved
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I get bullied, I'm 5'6, autist, neglected, never had a girlfriend, I need fame, I don't do anything all day, no friends, only talk to people online, failing multiple subjects, no motivation for anything besides useless shit and nothing to look forward to
 
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