Might kill myself someday

i fucking hate when people say bliuedpileld shit like personality matters. humans are inatley savage beings. its the same reason why people treat attractive people better, its not by choice is subcouncoius. If a ugly guy cals a girl a whore and tells her to fuck she will be creeped, if sean o pry does it, she will be turned on and will cum 10+ times
Sounds crazy maybe but sometimes I wish I was good-looking just so I wouldn’t have been rejected. Pathetic, right?
 
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good times. it passes by so fast. kinda feel like ppl and the internet was more energetic back then compared to today. idk but something changed suddenly in mid 2010s.
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flip phones were still a thing and everyone was outside without their phones jfl (2005)
Bro making me nostalgic 💀
It’s sad to see how all the good things I enjoyed are gone (even tho I was born in 05 jfl)
 
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Sounds crazy maybe but sometimes I wish I was good-looking just so I wouldn’t have been rejected. Pathetic, right?
no, its everyones desire.
 
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Bro making me nostalgic 💀
It’s sad to see how all the good things I enjoyed are gone (even tho I was born in 05 jfl)
What does the future hold?
 
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Bro making me nostalgic 💀
It’s sad to see how all the good things I enjoyed are gone (even tho I was born in 05 jfl)
95 here. If I was born in 96 I’d be a zoomer. Lol.

@emeraldglass You’re a zoomer bhai. :( I’m a millennial. Had I been born a few weeks later, I’d have been a zoomer too.
 
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I don’t have any dreams to chase. You’re right about creating my own reason to live. But at the same time, I don’t care about myself to live. If I live, it’s gotta be for someone else. Whether it’s a person or an animal, I don’t mind. I would never abandon a person or a pet. That’d be my anchor. I like mice and rats but they die every two years. I don’t wanna get sad over all of them.
It's the same for any male, we're intrinsically worthless. The only worth is to do things FOR other people. If you were completely alone on this earth you would feel void within a day and off yourself. Find something to do stuff for, let it be the fictional girl in your head for all its worth.
 
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I actually did try acid. In fact, last time I tripped was on 400 mcg. I had an ego death hahaha. Didn’t know what was real and what wasn’t. I became super confused too, but that even happened at 100 mcg. However the “fried brain” feeling sucks but I do like the aftermath of it, where I’m extremely calm and without a single worry in the world. That’s my favorite feeling ever. But I can’t rely on drugs for that. Thanks for your advice though, I’d say it’s solid. My friends who were depressed tried it themselves and told me they loved it and it helped them and fixed their depression, so I tried it as well. Three times in total.
I did it a lot when I was like 15-16 not a great idea

I wanna try microdosing for NT and mood
 
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95 here. If I was born in 96 I’d be a zoomer. Lol.

@emeraldglass You’re a zoomer bhai. :( I’m a millennial. Had I been born a few weeks later, I’d have been a zoomer too.
Blud got a decade on me, no wonder it's all crashing down 💀
 
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It took me 7.5 years to feel this way. Wow. I wouldn’t describe myself as happy, though I can see why I easily give off such an illusion due to my smiling, laughing and cracking jokes all the time.
That's why I said even happy, you are just fine with your daily life and copes, the source of our calmness i bet

bhai if you’re considering Christianity then you should realize both our “Gods” is actually the same one!)
You are referring to the thing that jesus would be a prophet right?

I think just like how exceptions exist, I am the exception in the sense He doesn’t love me. Simple as that. I already accepted that though.
Why shouldn't he bhai?
 
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i fucking hate when people say bliuedpileld shit like personality matters. humans are inatley savage beings. its the same reason why people treat attractive people better, its not by choice is subcouncoius. If a ugly guy cals a girl a whore and tells her to fuck she will be creeped, if sean o pry does it, she will be turned on and will cum 10+ times
You're done boy, you are one step from being blackpilled
 
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Honestly, friends are meaningless in my experience. They can’t always be there for you. But a partner will. That’s why I just want a partner but due to me being asexual, I find it very hard to like women. In my entire life, I only liked one. Technically two, but the first one I thought liked me, so I forced myself to like her. JFL.
asexual who faps.
 
TRUE_CEL do u like talking with us?
 
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95 here. If I was born in 96 I’d be a zoomer. Lol.

@emeraldglass You’re a zoomer bhai. :( I’m a millennial. Had I been born a few weeks later, I’d have been a zoomer too.
I still dont take this zommer thing serious. i might be a zommer but in my mind I am ancient. Which mont where you born?
 
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Wow, you’re 23 already? I turn 28 later this year. And yeah haha I already feel like an old man and now I’m talking like one.
Time is ticking for us;
 
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Damn, that’s… very philosophical. I like it! What do you propose?
Don’t know if you’re being sarcastic or not. As for my proposition: gp fucc sum bitches an get dat money jit. I can assure you that your problems will be no more if you take my advice
 
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I understand what you mean. However, most people have something to live for in the future. I don’t have anything, when I think about the future. It’s a very bleak thing in my personal experience and by far, most - if not, all - people who have been in my situation have roped. I think? I honestly haven’t known anyone like that. What came close was this guy who lived next to my aunt who died in his home. They found his body months after he died. He was so decayed that the cops asked my aunt if the deceased was male or female. It’s crazy because I would stay over at my aunt’s place often and I basically lived next to an actual corpse without knowing it. Crazy.
The reason I view suicide negatively is that even though one's present circumstances might seem bleak, nobody can predict what the future might bring. There are instances where individuals who had seemingly nothing witnessed their lives transform for the better in a matter of days. If you were absolutely certain that your life would remain dreadful, then I could comprehend your perspective. However, since no one possesses foreknowledge of the future, making a life-altering decision based on a current issue is bad. Crazy about that corpse though it's like something out of a real-life horror movie.
 
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It's the same for any male, we're intrinsically worthless. The only worth is to do things FOR other people. If you were completely alone on this earth you would feel void within a day and off yourself. Find something to do stuff for, let it be the fictional girl in your head for all its worth.
Oh man, let me tell you, having a girl in your mind who you can't even speak to will drive you crazy. Spent five years like that, then got rejected. Felt extremely bad about myself. I agree with your assessment though, I don't like taking but I like giving. I can't live for me. I just don't care about myself. But I disagree about being worthless based on gender, unless you mean what society thinks, then I can understand but I frankly don't care about society.
 
I did it a lot when I was like 15-16 not a great idea

I wanna try microdosing for NT and mood
My friend microdoses on shrooms, he says it helps him concentrate a lot, that's about it. I agree, taking acid at 15-16 is a bad idea. I was 26 when I tried it. My brain was already fully developed by then, unlike yours.
 
I know I will for sure. If tragedy strikes a loved one, I’m not strong enough to withstand the pain. I’ll take myself out of this life. Angus cloud type shit innjt
Pussy ass bitch 🤣
 
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That's why I said even happy, you are just fine with your daily life and copes, the source of our calmness i bet
I agree bhai. I think going through the day without my copes would be a lot more difficult.
You are referring to the thing that jesus would be a prophet right?
A prophet, yes but also that we worship the same God. They are called Abrahamic religions (Christianity, Islam and Judaism).
Why shouldn't he bhai?
It's His choice.
 
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I still dont take this zommer thing serious. i might be a zommer but in my mind I am ancient. Which mont where you born?
I will have to PM you for that, JFL.
 
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Aww, thanks bhai. It's getting kinda late though so I will be watching a movie after I'm done replying to the responses here (it's an Adrien Brody movie).
 
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Time is ticking for us;
You got some time left, bhai. I'm nearing my 30s. You are nearing your mid-20s. If you are ancient, I am pre-history. :feelskek:
 
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Rope is cope. I'd rather wait for a truck to run over me tbh
 
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Don’t know if you’re being sarcastic or not. As for my proposition: gp fucc sum bitches an get dat money jit. I can assure you that your problems will be no more if you take my advice
I hate sarcasm. It's not my jazz, so no, I wasn't being sarcastic. I truly found it a philosophical statement and I do love me some philosophy. I will take your advice but dem bitches don't like my face so that's a problem.
 
The reason I view suicide negatively is that even though one's present circumstances might seem bleak, nobody can predict what the future might bring. There are instances where individuals who had seemingly nothing witnessed their lives transform for the better in a matter of days. If you were absolutely certain that your life would remain dreadful, then I could comprehend your perspective. However, since no one possesses foreknowledge of the future, making a life-altering decision based on a current issue is bad. Crazy about that corpse though it's like something out of a real-life horror movie.
Mirin ChadGPTmaxxing bhai. But I agree, I don't view suicide positively either but that's because it's usually nice people doing it (note: I don't think I'm nice) so that saddens me. Furthermore, I agree with your idea that no one knows what the future holds. That much is true, but if things are going to be the same as they are going now then there's 90% chance I'm offing myself. It's not set in stone yet, but I am afraid it will be that way. Time will tell.
 
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Rope is cope. I'd rather wait for a truck to run over me tbh
Rope is cope. Hope is cope. Everything's cope! Having a truck run over you is painful, would not recommend/10.
 
Alright bhais, thanks for all the responses. I will be taking my leave now, I'm gonna watch a movie now and then sleep. Buh bye.
 
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Mirin ChadGPTmaxxing bhai. But I agree, I don't view suicide positively either but that's because it's usually nice people doing it (note: I don't think I'm nice) so that saddens me. Furthermore, I agree with your idea that no one knows what the future holds. That much is true, but if things are going to be the same as they are going now then there's 90% chance I'm offing myself. It's not set in stone yet, but I am afraid it will be that way. Time will tell.
Why do you believe you're not nice? I'm confident that your circumstances won't remain the same, but your mindset must shift if you desire change. Pessimism hinders progress and feeds negative thinking.
 
Rope is cope. Hope is cope. Everything's cope! Having a truck run over you is painful, would not recommend/10.
Rope is also painful. And with the truck thing I meant it like a natural accident. Not throwing myself to the truck.
 
I would like to jump into the conversation but can't be bothered to read 7 pages. Can someone fill me in on the topic of discussion?
 
I’m sorry to hear that man.
Just know there’s hundreds if not thousands of us who read your replies and threads every day and who genuinely like you.

You have tens of years to sort your love life out.
Don’t stress it. It will come.
No bluepill shit
 
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Thanks for the nice words bhai, you’re the second person who’s mentioned that they’ve been lurking and seen my post. I feel honored.

That’s an interesting theory, by the way! But I don’t think it applies to me. Simply because I don’t have an ego. Sounds strange but I attach no value to myself.

I remember when I got rejected by this girl I liked but I was still in touch with her brothers and I would bring them food during the month of Ramadan. And I did my best to stay away from said girl so I always texted one of the guys that I’d be the one ringing the door bell so their sister could keep away from me.

I was fine with these things because I really cared about them. But then shortly after, they found out I liked their sister (I was the one who told one of them, due to my honesty) and two days later, they chimped out so hard, causing a massive scene.

I haven’t spoken to them since. Had they handled it better, like having a civilized conservation with me instead, I would still be caring for them. But after that? No. That’s enough. A line has to be drawn somewhere. I was honestly disappointed/saddened by their extreme reaction, especially since I only had good intentions.

And finally, yes, I’m definitely going to college. My family wants me to do that plus I need to be able to support myself instead of relying on governmental support.

@Greycel Slayer And yes, the girl and her brothers were Pakistanis too.
After speaking with some people here from middle east it seems the men in these countries value their honour so they dont want their sister to go with a " loser " like you , or perhaps they felt like you bringing them food was to get closer to the girl , but i agrre they re retarded.
I also dont attach much value to myself but i think it s because we re both men with no career no nothing, we re just barely living so we belittle ourselves in order to go unnoticed, maybe when you receive a gift you feel like you dont deserve it because you re a nobody.
 
I don't know what to say because I feel exactly the same.
 
Stick around just to watch the world burn eventually, even if you do not sound like that type of person
 
Whatever you it doesn’t matter. You dont matter.

The simple thing is human life is pointless. As a biological being our main goal is eternal life. We can not do that so we have children as the second best option.

But as you have decided to not have kids, whether you die now or after fifty years it doesn’t really matter.

Billions had died before you and billions will die after. There is no difference between the death of a human and a the death of an insect. In the grand scale of time nothing really matters.

Now about the mental purgatory part. What you have achieved is called enlightment. You truly realized that what everyone is doing is pointless.

I bet you stare a long time at your fingers, the ceiling, whenever a train comes you see and think jump or no jump it doesn’t really matter. You see people go crazy just to catch the lift, take the subway, the good food. You see them as ants trying to feed themselves. Among them then you understand that you are not them. You are not better or worse than them, you are just different from them.


Now comes the action part. What to do?


I don’t know the answer to that. Nobody does.

However I can give some examples what others before you did.


A greek guy had the same dilemma as you. He left everything and broke free from society living in a small hole with dogs. He is now considered a great philosopher.

An indian guy had the same dilemma he left home. Started contemplating. The people beside him considered him a reincarnation of God. He is now the founder of a spiritual religion.

So at the end of the day whatever you do it doesn’t really matter. Nothing actually matters.


p.s. - heaven and hell are not real. High iq people invented it to stop low iq people from going mad thinking about the nothingness of death. The concept of death is too much too bear for a mind. Thinking about heaven and hell which is depicted in a human familiar imagination like hot bitches and fire is more comprehensible than the nothingness of death.
 
Things can only change if you're willing to consider taking actions. You have a barrier as to why you don't take them. Cannot you realize you are just harming yourself? You still have some time. The past might hunt you, yet the near future could be better.

Unless you free your hands there's nothing to do. The traps of this world wants yet to take another life. Please don't let it happen.
 
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