SL3
Slurrpappy
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Elementary school
The furthest back my memory can reach is elementary school, i was always excluded from games and activities that involved multiple people, id like to say it’s because i just wasn’t that sociable, but all my life i’ve been a people person, i love talking and communication with a mind that can reflect the concepts i put in, but i never got the opportunity to train this as a kid as i was isolated due to my appearance, i have heterochromia, some people say it’s a gift and unique distinction but as a child i was called “black eye blue eye” and got bullied for my appearance.
I remember a few instances in my later years of elementary school(3-5th grade) when i was always compared to fictional characters (sid the sloth, blue aliens from avatar, etc.) because of my widened nasal passage (which i received as a generic condition from my bio mom smoking meth shortly before her pregnancy with me). This gave me a distinct insecurity about my looks.
middle school
my early middle school years were full of my elders at the time (7 & 8th graders) constantly picking on my looks, this made me really irritated which lead me to get into fights, kids were treated better by the teachers while i was punished for way lighter offenses, this irritated me into even more fights. around my 7-8th grade years i mellowed out and became numb to people talking about my appearance, not really accepting of it just not as angry and more saddened by their words, i have a distinct memory of going to a basketball game in my local HS, i remember asking a girl for her snap, someone who i thought was on par with me in terms of attraction (see hypergamy chart) and i remember we were beside a door when i asked her and i remember she said “eww no” and then her friends chime in from inside the doorway “she doesn’t wanna talk to you” “don’t talk to him” “ewww” this was the first time i’ve almost cried in public, i went into the bathroom while throwing on a smile and cried in the stall, this marks the end of me putting any amount of confidence in my looks thus leading to arrogance in other aspects that has followed me through HS
epilogue
I’m currently 16 in highschool and this summer break i’ve been working to lower bf% and work on my physique, i have had two girlfriends who either left me or i broke up with
The furthest back my memory can reach is elementary school, i was always excluded from games and activities that involved multiple people, id like to say it’s because i just wasn’t that sociable, but all my life i’ve been a people person, i love talking and communication with a mind that can reflect the concepts i put in, but i never got the opportunity to train this as a kid as i was isolated due to my appearance, i have heterochromia, some people say it’s a gift and unique distinction but as a child i was called “black eye blue eye” and got bullied for my appearance.
I remember a few instances in my later years of elementary school(3-5th grade) when i was always compared to fictional characters (sid the sloth, blue aliens from avatar, etc.) because of my widened nasal passage (which i received as a generic condition from my bio mom smoking meth shortly before her pregnancy with me). This gave me a distinct insecurity about my looks.
middle school
my early middle school years were full of my elders at the time (7 & 8th graders) constantly picking on my looks, this made me really irritated which lead me to get into fights, kids were treated better by the teachers while i was punished for way lighter offenses, this irritated me into even more fights. around my 7-8th grade years i mellowed out and became numb to people talking about my appearance, not really accepting of it just not as angry and more saddened by their words, i have a distinct memory of going to a basketball game in my local HS, i remember asking a girl for her snap, someone who i thought was on par with me in terms of attraction (see hypergamy chart) and i remember we were beside a door when i asked her and i remember she said “eww no” and then her friends chime in from inside the doorway “she doesn’t wanna talk to you” “don’t talk to him” “ewww” this was the first time i’ve almost cried in public, i went into the bathroom while throwing on a smile and cried in the stall, this marks the end of me putting any amount of confidence in my looks thus leading to arrogance in other aspects that has followed me through HS
epilogue
I’m currently 16 in highschool and this summer break i’ve been working to lower bf% and work on my physique, i have had two girlfriends who either left me or i broke up with
