SpectrumAesthetics3
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Morning leanness rn
I’m out of it enough that I got to my Botox appointment 30m early by accident (forehead, nose, and LLSAN by sides of nose to prevent slight tensing that creates naso folds), so here’s a post
Without the usual formatting effor
This is hell on earth. Pushing down to near 8%, 600-800c daily now OMAD PSMF. With confounding factors not all of which are directly related to diet:
-(Diet-related) Constant sleeping pill hangover - was hell trying to get thru the night on just melatonin or even trazadone lower dose, so it’s medium-dose trazadone (50mg) nightly + either diphenhydramine or doxylamine, the former being shorter half life so less hangover but also less likely to prevent an early waking.
-(Diet-related) Energy drinks - After 2 weeks of straight use, they stopped working in the way they were before, when hunger was super low despite 800-1000cals at the time, using an energy drink in the morning and often not being that hungry at OMAD dinner time, cruising thru lunch and the afternoon being a relative breeze. Now, I feel tunnel vision focus for a few hours, then a hunger and fatigue crash. Was planning to discontinue anyways due to various issues with them, but with hunger help only being temporal and not all-day at this point, it will just be easier to not use them and at least be stable throughout the day
-(Partially diet-related) - Blood pressure issues, super low blood pressure, everything going blurry for a minute when getting up, partially attenuated by some rice cake administration. No gym in 5 weeks due to the BP volatility issues
-(Partially diet-related) Crashed death tier estrogen - with starving as a natty temporarily crushing test, it tends to end up raising the E:T ratio. Took aromasin for a gyno flare up, and ig being super sensitive to anything I take rn, it sent me to crashed estrogen death pretty quickly: low motivation and outlook, no energy or drive, more muscle soreness n stuff. Compounding the hell
Guess what I DID NOT DO today?
Surpass 705 cals.
Would a refeed day make it easier, sure. Yet a day at maintenance - or god forbid above - is a day I am NOT getting closer to ending the deficit and going to maintenance. A day I am NOT getting closer to my absolute current peak-potential face. And being super lean and debloated, edging into territory a little beyond what I’ve done henceforth, is just unlocking new levels for my face. Getting Barrett-tier chiseled for the first time is a shocking experience week over week when it’s like you keep unlocking a new look you never thought possible.
Beautiful girls are out there, and they care if I am hot (in addition to charisma etc.); do they, does the world, CARE if my day would be “easier” if I ate more food today just to feel something in the midst of this complete malaise and blur of a life right now? I am NOT stopping
And the few people in my Skool that are actually action-takers and not hopeless wankers, who immediately hopped on PSMF as their life assignment until fully chiseled - I am going to set an example for them of what PUSHING THRU looks like. When there is no energy, low mood, difficult to get these basic tasks stacking up done, etc… but there is SOMETHING going right, which is that I am CLOSER EVERY DAY to having the constant absurd irreproachable facial angularity that I need and that everyone needs but few will ever get and that is worth dying for.
The face that caused the college girl at the aesthetics place reception to ask my age and about my life and be receptive to convo when this stuff didn’t tend to happen when I was nothing
Face to die for
I’m out of it enough that I got to my Botox appointment 30m early by accident (forehead, nose, and LLSAN by sides of nose to prevent slight tensing that creates naso folds), so here’s a post
Without the usual formatting effor
This is hell on earth. Pushing down to near 8%, 600-800c daily now OMAD PSMF. With confounding factors not all of which are directly related to diet:
-(Diet-related) Constant sleeping pill hangover - was hell trying to get thru the night on just melatonin or even trazadone lower dose, so it’s medium-dose trazadone (50mg) nightly + either diphenhydramine or doxylamine, the former being shorter half life so less hangover but also less likely to prevent an early waking.
-(Diet-related) Energy drinks - After 2 weeks of straight use, they stopped working in the way they were before, when hunger was super low despite 800-1000cals at the time, using an energy drink in the morning and often not being that hungry at OMAD dinner time, cruising thru lunch and the afternoon being a relative breeze. Now, I feel tunnel vision focus for a few hours, then a hunger and fatigue crash. Was planning to discontinue anyways due to various issues with them, but with hunger help only being temporal and not all-day at this point, it will just be easier to not use them and at least be stable throughout the day
-(Partially diet-related) - Blood pressure issues, super low blood pressure, everything going blurry for a minute when getting up, partially attenuated by some rice cake administration. No gym in 5 weeks due to the BP volatility issues
-(Partially diet-related) Crashed death tier estrogen - with starving as a natty temporarily crushing test, it tends to end up raising the E:T ratio. Took aromasin for a gyno flare up, and ig being super sensitive to anything I take rn, it sent me to crashed estrogen death pretty quickly: low motivation and outlook, no energy or drive, more muscle soreness n stuff. Compounding the hell
Guess what I DID NOT DO today?
Surpass 705 cals.
Would a refeed day make it easier, sure. Yet a day at maintenance - or god forbid above - is a day I am NOT getting closer to ending the deficit and going to maintenance. A day I am NOT getting closer to my absolute current peak-potential face. And being super lean and debloated, edging into territory a little beyond what I’ve done henceforth, is just unlocking new levels for my face. Getting Barrett-tier chiseled for the first time is a shocking experience week over week when it’s like you keep unlocking a new look you never thought possible.
Beautiful girls are out there, and they care if I am hot (in addition to charisma etc.); do they, does the world, CARE if my day would be “easier” if I ate more food today just to feel something in the midst of this complete malaise and blur of a life right now? I am NOT stopping
And the few people in my Skool that are actually action-takers and not hopeless wankers, who immediately hopped on PSMF as their life assignment until fully chiseled - I am going to set an example for them of what PUSHING THRU looks like. When there is no energy, low mood, difficult to get these basic tasks stacking up done, etc… but there is SOMETHING going right, which is that I am CLOSER EVERY DAY to having the constant absurd irreproachable facial angularity that I need and that everyone needs but few will ever get and that is worth dying for.
The face that caused the college girl at the aesthetics place reception to ask my age and about my life and be receptive to convo when this stuff didn’t tend to happen when I was nothing
Face to die for